Pregnant at Sixteen

Fears

Cami and I have been hanging out a lot these past few days. Christmas break started and it has been great. Me and Julian are also back together I might add. I don't really know what happened..we just ended up forgiving each other and things started moving again.

"Can we talk about something?" Cami asked me, looking up front painting her toe nails.

"Yeah, of course," I replied, looking at her from the top of my book.

"Why are you with Julian again?" she asked staring at me serious.

"Because I love him," I answered, looking back at my book.

"I think you are just saying that. I feel like you actually like Xander," Cami observed. "Mostly because you seem happier when you are with Xander and when you are with Julian, you seem bored and upset."

"Stop," I whispered, putting my book down. "I do not like Xander at all. Don't even bring up his name. All he is, is my baby's dad. That's it. Nothing more."

"I beg to differ," Cami mumbled, painting her toe nails again.

"Why are you being such a bitch?!" I asked, annoyed by her behavior.

"Because I'm being a good friend and saying I don't like your boyfriend!" Cami argued back, putting the nail polish brush back in the bottle. "I hate Julian with a passion M! He cheated! Do I have to spell out the word too?! Or do I have to give the definition of cheating?"

"Shut up Cami! Stop telling me what to do with my life!" I yelled, standing up. "Do you think I liked your ex?! No! But you seemed happy with him and I didn't want to ruin your happiness!"

"That's different..I was happy! You aren't! At least I didn't forgive him for cheating!" she shot back.

"You fucking bitch," I chuckled, looking around the room breathing heavily. My heart was pounding and the adrenaline in my body was pumping.

"Me?! A bitch?!" Cami laughed, and crossed her arms, standing in front of me. "Come at me bitch!"

"You are so dumb, you know that right? Trying to get a pregnant girl to fight," I spat. "No wonder I'm your only friend. Make that none."

"You don't mean that!" she yelled as I walked out of her room. "GET BACK HERE MYRA!"

I turned around and walked right up to her and slapped her on her cheek.

"Don't ever mess with me again," I told her. "YOU HEAR ME!"

"Y-yes, I h-hear you," she stuttered, holding her cheek in her hand. She looked at me with pain and looked at the ground. "Please leave."

I looked at Cami and pain overwhelmed me. Why did I do that?! I would never lay a hand on Cami, but here I did..

"Oh my god...Cami I'm so sorry for doing what I did," I sobbed, walking towards her with my hand on my mouth. I was in shock from my actions and I didn't know what to do.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" Cami yelled, stepping back. Tears were falling from her eyes as her hand held her red cheek.

"I-I'm so sorry," I apologized, crying softly. I turned around and ran out the front door. How could I be so stupid?

I hopped in my car, leaving all my belongings and drove away from the house. I pulled up to my house and sat in my car for a bit. I sat in in my car for a good 10 minutes just crying and thinking of Cami and what I did. Maybe I should go back? Or maybe tomorrow..

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I woke up the next morning and decided I should go grab my stuff from Cami's. I should apologize too.

After getting ready to leave, I grabbed my keys and walked to my car. I drove to her house in complete silence, thinking of ways to apologize. Should I just apologize or get a cake? Everyone loves cake..maybe I should buy a cake. Yeah, let's do that.

I ran into our local grocery store and picked out a cake. I asked them to write I'm sorry in icing and they did. Great. We are all set!

I pulled up to Cami's house and took a deep breath. I picked up the cake and opened my car door, walking to her porch.

"Just say you are sorry and then give her the cake then grab your shit and leave," I told myself. I knocked on the door and inhaled air. Cami opened the door, looking at me and then slammed the door. I knocked again, quite desperate to be friends again, even if she doesn't want to be.

"Cami, please open the door!" I pleaded. The door swung open and I expected Cami, but instead Kale stood there.

"My sister doesn't want to see you," he told me with a glare. "After we made our vows with pizza.."

"Kale, just let me in please!" I told him. "I have cake!"

"Okay, come on in," he said, moving out of the way for me to walk in. "Cami's in her room."

I ran to her room with the cake in my hands. I whipped her door open and looked at her shocked face.

"KALE I'M GOING TO BREAK YOUR LEGS AND FUCK UP YOUR FACE!" Cami yelled, angry that Kale let me in.

"Cami I'm sorry! I really am," I apologized, examining her cheek. Her cheek was bruised and purple with makeup trying to cover it, but that didn't really do it's job. "Oh shit..I got you good."

Cami laughed and nodded. "Yeah, you did."

"Please forgive me for what I did.." I said. "I even brought you this cake as an apology."

"What kind?" she asked, looking at it.

"Ice cream," I grinned. "I know how much you love ice cream so.."

"I forgive you..but I swear to god if you hit me again, once you aren't pregnant, I'll beat the shit out of you," she told me, grabbing the cake.

"Okay, deal." I smiled. "And you are right..Julian doesn't make me as happy as he used to, but after I caught Xander kissing Alyssa that night, my heart broke and I don't know why. My fear is being alone Cami..and Julian was there for me. I do have feelings for him still, C. I'm sorry for not telling you before..I just fear being alone. That's all."

"No I get it. People have fears. My fear is death. The thought of waking up every day getting closer to death freaks me out. Like you can die at any time and not know..that scares me so much, M," she replied. "I don't want to die.."

"You won't die for a long time, C. You still have years to go. You are only sixteen for crying out loud. Sixteen is not a lot of years to live. Let's not think about death, okay?"

"Okay."

Now we know each others deepest fears.

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This would've been out sooner, but my friend called me and distracted me whoops. This chapter also made me sad, but oh well. Hope you enjoyed it. OH! And I also switched the cover! I hope you like it because I had to make two to figure out which one was better😂 Anyways, yeah.