Journal Of Gwen Stacy

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Journal entry #36

So, apparently Peter can't come to the game.. I don't know if Jacob wants to come... I figured he's still upset at me... or maybe there's something going on with him...

I don't know.. I hope he's okay.. he was kinda a ass at dinner last night.. apparently he has like.. no friends.. at all...
And we keep on asking him to go talk to that new kid.. Bill..

Peter and I where actually talking a little bit ago.. he said that, Bill.. he's a loser', in some club... or something.. and like... apparently he stutters a lot.. because of a disease he was born with.. 14 year old kid.. staying in New York for a while...
And apparently when he met Peter.. he was wondering who I was... asking for some advice.. because he likes this girl....

Peter said he's handsome.. for his age..

Man, I swear if my husbands gay...
I mean i don't wanna even think about it..

But then again, Pete, suggested Jacob to Bill... since he has a girlfriend.. and he's closer to his age.. two years apart.. but Jacob said that he doesn't need friends....

I just want my kid... to live a normal life, not swinging around and getting hurt most of the time..

I just don't know...

I kinda have a feeling he's already met Bill.. but he just hasn't told us... some kinda edge on him when we say Bills name to him..

.. what is up with Jacob..?

Also, so I had the surgery the other day.. because of the kid.. I'm a little drowsy... I don't feel the best at the moment.. feel like I'm gonna be sick...

I said I was fine.. I lied.. didn't want him to worry..

I probably feel sick because in my gut I feel damn guilty.. about letting Peter and Jake down..

Guys, honestly. I'm. So. Sorry.

Also, Peters saying that we should try for another kid... now I keep on saying it's a 50/50 chance..
but then, apparently Peters Dad has something to help..

But if I had to be honest...

I'm scared...

I just... don't they remember what happened to Connors? It over did him, and he turned bad..

And not only that I'm just scared about going through the whole pregnancy thing again..

I just don't know.. be right back.. I think I'm gonna throw up..

-Gwen
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