Journal Of Gwen Stacy

Page 44; i just need to say something...

Journal entry #44

Okay so.. it's currently 3am in the morning.. I'm asSumInG Jacobs asleep.. but uh..there's no sign of my natural pillow..

And by natural I mean Peter.. aka cheesy mr cheesyerson, Mr Lanky, Bug-boy, New York's vigilante..
Okay you get the jist...
I woke up feeling like... I'm gonna be sick. Guessing it's uh.. period shit.. y'all girls know what that's like..

anyways. I get out of bed n wash my face, look at myself in the mirror.. now I know I'm pale.. but I mean.. I was white as paper..

Turns out.. it wasn't period shit.. I just felt sick.. so I went downstairs to the kitchen, trying to be as quiet as I could. and poured myself a glass of water, then spitting it out having no idea why I did...

I sighed and went back upstairs and got back into bed. And that's when I realised.. he was gone.. now I don't know where.. or why.. but it certainly didn't please me..

I've been sitting here for about two hours now.. it's currently 5 in the morning.. Peter still isn't back..

If you forgot.. he's like my teddy bear... I can't sleep without him.. because I know.. if he isn't here, and I close my eyes.. I'll just have a fn nightmare about.. Harry or someone.. or something.. speaking of Harry.. I actually found him.. started talking to him the other day.. I'm still finding him intimidating..

And Peter.. I have a feeling he's finding mE intimidating.. there's something he's hiding.. but I don't know what..

Getting worried here.. I don't know what to do.. what if he fucking dies while he's out there?! What am I gonna do? I don't know..

I just don't know anymore. I don't wanna lose him.. I really don't.. or Jake.. I just.. man I worry too much... guess I'm just gonna sit here until something happens.. I can't sleep.. still feel sick...
-Gwen

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