lonely flower

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today i walked into chorus and i sat down, because i seen ms thomas was in her office and i wasn't finna stand up all day.

the risers were out, so i knew we were going to be standing on them today. a few moments later and remiah walked in and she walked over to me.

we were talking about stuff and then her friend came in and she walked over to us.

she said she wanted to go get a snack and then remiah told me to go with her, so i did and we went in there and then she gave the money to ms thomas and then ms thomas came out and i was standing by the door when she came out.

and then she went to the front and she was telling us about fees and that we would have to pay them before we could perform.

and i walked by lauren and when ms thomas was talking, she was looking at me and she would speak louder like she wanted me to look at her and when i did, we kept eye contact like 😭😭💕💕

and then i would look away again and she would speak louder again and i would look at her.

and then sometimes i would look at other people in the class and she would look at them too like she was wanting to know why i was looking at them and not her. 😭‼️

and then i would look at remiah or something and then look back at her randomly and she would be already looking at me and i was like 😭😭😭💓💓 AHHHHH.

and then lauren would keep putting her hands over my hands and i left them there because i wanted ms thomas to see them. 😭😂

but then i would move them and i think ms thomas saw me a few times, because she always looks at me whenever she talks.

and then i let go of her hands and was like, "your hands are hot." and she laughed at me.

and then ms thomas told us to go around the piano to sing and when i was still behind the risers, she said it again like she wanted me to move up.

and then when we got to one part of the song in high school musical, she was looking around at people when they were singing and i was looking at her while i was combing remiah's hair and i stopped and looked at her for the ending and we were just looking at each other like 😭🤧😍😍😍💓💓💓

i actually had the nerve to keep looking.

and then she told us to space out on the risers and that she was going to the restroom really quick. and remiah said she had to go so me and her and janae went and we were in there a long time, because remiah always be taking so long.

and then we finally walked back and ms thomas was like,

"where were y'all at?"

but she didn't sound mad or anything.

😭 i was like cause it was me 😏

and then remiah was like,

"i had to pee."

and she said it took a long time and then she said nvm because she probably remembered she has a problem.

and then we got on the risers and she told us to take it from the top and we went over the dance moves for be our guest and we kept going and then we did the other songs and she would look at us when we would dance and it was fun.

and then moving on, we got to the high school musical part and she asked us who was interested in the dance and i raised my hand and i looked around and i was the only one and amber was looking at me and i put my hand back down.

and then ms thomas asked again and two other people raised their hands and she said okay and i was like, "i wanna do it!" and ms thomas was like,

"yeah, shae, you should do it! you'd be great at it!"

and i was like aRe you kIDDING ME RN 😭😭💕😍🔥❤️❤️❤️‼️

and then she told us to do it over and it was so fun and then one time she was talking to us and when she was, she would look at me and down at my clothes or something and i would be like 😭🤧😏

like she would look down at my shirt when she would be talking.

i was like 😭😭😭❤️❤️ and then one time me and remiah was dancing and i was belly dancing 😂 and she looked over at me and was watching me.

and then when we would dance, she would look at me and idk but it was lowkey high key goals today.

and i almost forgot something that had happened today. so she told us to walk down from the risers one time and go to the floor.

when we got to the floor, i was like close to ms thomas and she was behind someone. she gone start messing with her hair. 😒

i was like girl she just doing that cause i was combing remiah hair. and then she gone touch the girl's back 😭 i was like ms thomas think she slick.

she just doing that because lauren had her hands on my hands.

i swear. 😭‼️ y'all think i be delusional. i don't be making this stuff up.

she be doing it on purpose.

it probably made her feel some type of way, so she did it herself to try and make me feel some type of way.

she so petty sometimes.

we just be gOaLiNG. 🤧
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bye felicia. 🤙🏽