Complicated (Pearlmethyst fanfic)

I'm Strong

*Imma put an apology here. The chapter I was nervous about to post is going to be the next chapter, because otherwise this one would be way too long. I didn't know all of this would be that long-*

Pearls POV
Tuesday. Amethyst was on her... You know..- And it wasn't funny. She was irritated because of literally nothing, and I told her many times I didn't like her tone. She immediately apologized, sometimes just so I shut my mouth. It's all part of it, Pearl, it's all part of it.. Besides being irritated, Amethyst also felt really bad. Ill-bad. Nausea stuff, stomach cramps, and she was pretty dizzy and tired.
'First day.' Amethyst had muttered, 'It's always like this.' Math. Amethyst looked pretty pale. She kinda embraced herself, laid on her table and looked to nothing.
'Go home, Ame.' I said softly, 'You're not feeling well.'
'No, no, it's okay.' Amethyst said and she smiled. Fake. I softly shook my head.
'After this lesson you're going home, okay?' I said, 'We only have Spanish. That's not really important.'
'No, Pearl, I'm not going home.' Amethyst said straight and irritated, 'I'm fine.'
'Ameth..-'
'No, Pearl. I'm not as weak as you think I am. I'm strong..-'
'I don't think you're weak.'
'..-And I can handle this. I always can. I am not going home.'
I stayed quiet. She probably wanted to prove herself. Or doesn't want to admit she feels bad. I looked away, but I kept looking at her sometimes. In the beginning she "payed attention", but after a while she stared to nothing again. Twenty minutes later, the bell rang.
'Omg! Spanish's cancelled!' Rhodonite almost shouted. Suddenly everyone started to talk. '"The lesson of J. Torrez is cancelled because of sickness."' Greg read out loud. I started smiling and looked at Amethyst.
'Spanish is cancelled.' I said.
'Fuck yes.' Amethyst said softly.
'Come on.' I said, 'You're going home.' Amethyst's smile disappeared a little, but she stood up. I grabbed her arm.
'Going home, laying on the couch, some Netflix, your mom will make some tea, you..-' I wanted to cheer Amethyst up but she interrupted me.
'My mom's not home.' she said, maybe a bit angrily, 'She never is, remember?' My smile disappeared.
'Oh.. Yes..' I said softly, 'Well then, I'll go with you!' I said.
'What?' Amethyst asked, 'No, no, I can't let you do that.'
'Why not? I would love to go with you! I'll make tea, and make sure everything is going fine. I'm not letting you alone when you feel like this.' Amethyst looked at me, smiled softly and looked away again.
'Do you want me to call my mom?' I asked.
'Why?'
'So she can pick us up. You're not feeling well. We're faster with the car. Also, it's better if you puke in our car than in the school bus, right?' Amethyst smiled softly. She didn't seems really enthusiastic, but she knows I'll keep insisting.
'Does your mom even want to pick us up?'
'If she hears you're ill, she'll come as soon as she can.' I said and I smiled. Amethyst nodded softly. I grabbed my phone and called my mom. I didn't have to wait long.
'Pearl?' my mom asked.
'Hi, mom.' I said.
'Why are you calling?' my mom said before I could even answered.
'Can you pick us up? Spanish is cancelled.'
'What's wrong with the bus?'
'Amethyst is ill.'
'Oh dear, that's not good.' she said and she sounded worried, 'What's wrong?'
'Nausea, dizziness, headache, that kind of stuff.'
'Poor soul,' my mom said, 'I'll come as soon as possible, okay?'
I smiled. 'Yes, mom, thank you.'
'I'll go right now.'
'Yes, mom, bye.'
'Bye, sweetheart.' I smiled and my mom hung up. I looked at Amethyst. '"Oh dear, poor soul."' I said. Amethyst smiled weakly.
'Your mom's really nice.' she said.
'That's the least she can do.' I said and I smiled.
'My mom would never do something like that.' Amethyst said softly, 'Just take the bus..' I stayed quiet. I really have to learn to think before I say something about moms in front of Amethyst.. We went to sit down somewhere. Amethyst embraced herself again. I put my arm around her, laid her head onto my shoulder and caressed hers. For a second it looked like Amethyst wanted to get out, but then she stayed calm and even sat a little closer. We sat there for some minutes, in silence. I suddenly got the feeling someone looked at me. I turned around. Jasper. It was Jasper. She looked at me and Amethyst, grinned and made a gesture with her eyebrows. I blushed slightly.
'What's this?' she asked, 'Don't you have to, I don't know, go to the bus or something, instead of cuddling intimately inside the school?' I blushed even more.
'My mom's going to pick us up.' I said, 'Amethyst isn't feeling well.'
'That's not true.' Amethyst immediately said, 'I'm fine.' I looked at Jasper. Her cool, flirty and highly annoying attitude changed to a softer and worried one. 
'Oh. That sucks.' she said. Amethyst didn't answer. Jasper looked at Amethyst for a while. Amethyst didn't look back. On purpose. She angrily looked away, not planning to look at Jasper.
'Hey, come on.' Jasper said and she tried to make eye contact. It worked. Something I didn't expect.
'You're strong.' Jasper said to Amethyst, 'But that doesn't mean you have to be strong, all the time. Get some rest. Not being strong for once or twice doesn't mean you aren't. You'll get better.' She softly patted Amethyst cheek. Even though Amethyst didn't want to, she smiled softly. I looked at Jasper and Amethyst, and started smiling as well.
'I have to go if I want to get on the bus in time.' Jasper said, 'Relax, 'kay?' She pointed to Amethyst.
'Bye, Jasper.' Amethyst said and she grinned softly. Jasper laughed softly and walked away. I looked at her. Then I looked to Amethyst. I couldn't stop smiling. Jasper was sweet to Amethyst, and made her smiley. I looked a bit unbelievingly to Amethyst.
'Yep.' she said, 'That was Jasper.'
'She acted so different.'
'That's the Jasper who I was friends with. She can be nice. Sometimes.' She laughed softly. I smiled as well. Amethyst looked at me, smiled more and blushed slightly.
'Don't look at me like that.' Amethyst said.
'Why not?' I asked and I laughed softly, 'Am I embarrassing you?'
'No.' Amethyst said and she looked at me again. We laughed softly, Amethyst rolled her eyes and laid down on my shoulder again. We waited a couple minutes. Then my mom called me.
'Ame.' I said softly, because Amethyst had closed her eyes and there was a possibility she was sleeping, 'My mom's here.' Amethyst slowly opened her eyes and looked at me. She smiled weakly. She felt horrible, I could see it. We stood up, I grabbed her arm again and we walked towards my mom's grey Audi. My mom quickly walked towards us.
'Hi mom.' I said.
'Hi sweetheart.' my mom quickly said and all her attention went to Amethyst, 'Are you ill, dear?' she asked and she stroke Amethyst's head.
'It's not so bad.' Amethyst said and she smiled softly. We walked towards the car.
'Do you want to sit in the front, sweet?' my mom asked to Amethyst.
'Oh, the back is fine.' Amethyst said and she looked at me.
'If something suddenly goes wrong, just tell it, okay?' Amethyst nodded and we went to sit down in the backseat. I sat close to Amethyst, and she put her head onto my shoulder again. I smiled. My mom and I started to talk about school, and Amethyst just listened.
'Hey, mom?' I asked after a while, 'Is it okay if I go to Amethyst's today?'
'What?' Amethyst asked.
'It's okay, Ame, I'd love to take care of you. I don't mind.'
'Yeah, but I do! I don't want you to put so much effort..-'
'Believe me, Ame, I can do way more. This is nothing.'
'You have better things to do.'
'Like?'
'Ballet.'
'That was yesterday.'
'Homework.'
'I'll make it at yours. And I'll make your homework, if you want.'
'Other friends.'
'You need me now, Amethyst. I won't leave you if you feel like this, you understand? You're important, and I want to be sure you're okay, and I'll take care of that, I promise.' Amethyst's cheeks turned into a light shade of red, but she didn't answer.
'Don't you like it..?' I asked softly.
'Of course I like it, Pearl! It's just.. You do so much. I'm sick. What are you going to do?'
'We could watch a movie. I'll make homework. Whatever it is, it's okay. I'll enjoy it. I'm with you.'
'You'll enjoy it, even when I'm sick..?'
'I'll enjoy it, even when you're sick.' Amethyst smiled softly. I did too. We arrived at Amethyst's home, some minutes later.
'Thanks for bringing us, ma'am.' Amethyst said.
'You're welcome, dear.' my mom said, 'Get well soon.' Amethyst smiled politely and nodded.
'Bye, mom!' I said and I waved when my mom drove away. Amethyst and I walked towards the front door, she opened it and we walked inside.
'Well, this is where I live.' Amethyst said when we walked into the living room. I looked around, and my eyes stopped at the couch.
'Well, lay down.' I said to Amethyst. She looked at me. I smiled softly and took her with me to sit on the couch.
'You're tired, Ame.' I said, 'Lay down. Get some sleep. I'll make tea if you want.'
'And then?'
'I'll probably make homework.'
'Alone?'
'Yes?'
'When I'm "sleeping"? I don't think so, Pearl, I'm going to help you.'
'That's really sweet, Amethyst, but not necessary. I'm good at history.'
'So? I'm not going to let you make our homework when I'm doing nothing.'
'It's okay, really.' I smiled softly.
'No, Pearl, I'm going to help.' Amethyst said, and I heard she was starting to get angry. Oh dear..
'Amethyst, you need to rest.'
'What's the fucking problem?!' she asked angrily. There it is.
'You need to rest.' I repeated, 'I can do it on my own, really.'
'Don't be so egoistic, Pearl!' Amethyst said angrily, 'You're only thinking about yourself! "I can do it on my own, really". Pff.' I stayed quiet. I don't want to talk about this, especially not if Amethyst talks with this tone to me.
'Oh, and now you're not saying anything?' she asked, provoking.
'I'm not saying anything because I don't want to argue with you if you're speaking to me like that.'
'Oh, are we Miss Sensible and Mature again?'
'Amethyst.' I warned.
'What?' she asked angrily.
'I don't want to talk to you if you talk to me like that.'
'News flash, Pearl! You don't always get what you want! That's life, deal with it!' I focused on my breathing and walked towards the kitchen.
'What kind of tea do you want?' I asked.
'Are you changing subjects, Pearl? Really?'
'The one in the green box is your favorite, right?' Amethyst stayed quiet.
'How do you know?' she asked.
'You told me once.' I said, 'In the bus, when you wanted to know stuff about me. I asked about your favorite kind of tea, and you started talking about this kind of tea, in a green box.'
'You remember?'
'Of course. Do you?'
'Yes. Your favorite is Jasmin tea.'
I smiled. 'Yes. Yes it is.' I started to heat some water. 
'Pearl?' Amethyst asked softly.
'Yes?'
'A-are you mad at me?'
I smiled. 'What do you think, Amethyst?' Amethyst stayed quiet. 'Of course I'm not mad. It's understandable you're... Quickly irritated. I'm also.. Quickly irritated, that time of the month.' I looked at her. She carefully looked back. I smiled softly and I continued making tea.
'You don't want anything to eat, do you?' I asked.
'You can eat!' Amethyst said, 'Grab everything you want.'
'Thank you.' I said and I smiled when I made the tea.
'Pearl?' Amethyst asked again.
'Yes, Amethyst?'
'Do you want to get me some aspirin as well..?'
'Of course.' I said.
'Third drawer, right.' I nodded. I grabbed a glass of water, some aspirin and brought it to Amethyst.
'Thanks.' she said and she shyly looked away. I smiled and quickly grabbed the tea as well. I sat down next to Amethyst again.
'Lay down, Ame.' I said softly and I softly put her down. I gave her a blanket and put it over her nicely. I grabbed my history books.
'I can help, Pearl, really.' Amethyst said and she wanted to sit again, but I stopped her.
'I'm good at history.' I said softer than first and I smiled softly.
'But I want to help you..' she said and she played with my fingers.
'And I want you to get some sleep.' I said and I softly caressed the top of her hand with my thumb. Amethyst stayed quiet.
'Go sleep for some minutes, Amethyst.' I said.
'I can't sleep without a kiss.' Amethyst said and she grinned slightly. I started smiling more as well.
'Oh no.' I said, 'I also have to kiss you?' I laughed softly and leaned a little closer to her.
'Close your eyes.' I whispered. Amethyst looked at me, grinned and closed her eyes. I smiled too, leaned even closer and I softly let my lips touch hers. I felt Amethyst's smile. I slowly pulled away.
'And now you're going to..-' Amethyst grabbed my shirt, pulled me closer and kissed me again. I chuckled and kissed back. We kept kissing for a while. Till we stopped. I looked at her. She looked back and smiled.
'Thank you.' she said, 'For not listening to me. For staying with me.'
I smiled too. 'You're welcome.' I said and I kissed her cheek. I gave her the remote and started with my homework. It wasn't really bad. I like math. I looked at the tv. Amethyst didn't turn it on. The remote was laying in her hand and she had closed her eyes. I smiled and continued with my homework. Five minutes, and I was done. Even the coping went fast. I drank some tea and looked at Amethyst. She was sleeping. I would've looked at her the whole day if I could. But I had homework. Finish math, then you're allowed to look at Amethyst again, Pearl. I laughed softly and started with math. It wasn't as hard as I thought. Harder than history, but I was still doable. Ten minutes. I did look at Amethyst, before I was done with math. Five times or something.  When she muttered something, or when she moved a little. Some more minutes passed. Amethyst started to move again. I looked at her. She still had her eyes closed, she pressed her legs against her stomach and made herself as little as possible. She's in pain. I saw. I grabbed her hand and softly caressed it. Amethyst slowly looked at me, with a soft smile. I grabbed her tea.
'Do you want to drink something?' I asked and I sat down on the ground, in front of her. Amethyst softly shook her head. She looked really pale. I wanted to give her the remote again, but she shook her head.
'Heating pad..' she muttered and I almost couldn't hear what she said, 'And a bucket..'
'Where?' I asked.
'Lowest drawer.. Middle..' I nodded and quickly walked to the kitchen. I immediately saw the bucket, but I had to search for the heating pads. I decided to already give her the bucket, in case she already needed to puke. I softly stroke her head and kissed her cheek. I saw she tried to smile, but it still looked like she was in a lot of pain. I went back to look for the heating pads again. I found them, and I quickly brought them to Amethyst.
'Thank you.' she muttered and she pressed the pads close to her stomach.
'You're welcome.' I said and I caressed her cheek. She grabbed my hand and hold it. I sat down in front of Amethyst, fifteen minutes or something. I wanted to turn on the tv, but Amethyst grabbed the bucket and hold it close to her. I looked at her. She was even paler. I swallowed. I can't really handle puking people, but I'll be strong for Amethyst. Amethyst kept the bucket close to her for ten minutes, like she could puke every moment. Slowly she put it down again. I looked at her. She kept her eyes closed. Thirty minutes passed. She looked at me.
'Are you okay?' I asked softly. She nodded and shook her head at the same time. It was like we could read each other's minds. Amethyst gave me the heating pads, I placed them on the table. She laid back on the couch, so there was room for me to lay down as well. I did, and I softly laughed when I felt Amethyst's arms around me.
'Actually, I have to make our homework.' I said.
'Well, I have to hold you and never let you go.' Amethyst said and she kissed my neck. I giggled softly.
'How do you feel?' I asked. I felt Amethysts smiled in my neck.
'Better now.'

Pearls POV
I convinced Amethyst to stay at home today. She's still not feeling well. I had promised her to go to her home, after school finished. She stayed home, till the weekend. Friday. I got into the bus. I saw Jasper. She sat alone. She saw me, and I quickly looked away. I sat somewhere else, alone. Suddenly someone sat next to me. Jasper. I got a little scared. I looked at her, not understanding.
'W-what are you doing?' I asked.
'I'm sitting next to you.' she said.
'Why?'
'You sat alone. I sat alone. Amethyst's still sick?'  I nodded. There was a silence. Jasper tried to talk to me, but I wasn't interested. Unless it was about Amethyst.
'It's still pretty hard for her.' Jasper said, 'Did she tell you she sometimes goes to the platform and talks to "Topaz"? She actually talks to nothing. Pretty sad. But she feels better when she talks to Topaz. It's like her diary. She tells Topaz her secrets. Tells her that she's so incredibly sorry. She still feels really guilty about it.'
'Don't you?' I asked.
'It wasn't my fault.' Jasper said without looking to me, 'Other people joked around as well.'
'I don't think Topaz thought it were jokes..' There was a silence. Not much later, the bus arrived at school and we walked towards the school. I wanted to go away as quick as possible. I don't like it to be alone with Jasper.
'Oh, eh, I think I see Ruby.' I said, 'I, eh, go.. I'll say hi to her.'
'Sure.' Jasper said, 'See you at chemistry?' I nodded quickly and walked away. With a fast walk I walked towards her.
'Hi.' I said and I smiled.
'Pearl!' she said happily, 'Oh, man, I'm so happy you're here. I took the wrong bus, I'm here for almost one and a half hour.'
'One and a half hour?' I asked, 'What have you been doing?'
'You would never guess it. I learned for math, and I understand it!'
'Really?' I asked and I sat down.
'Yes!' she said proudly and she showed me her exercises. I looked at it. My answers were different...
'Are you sure you understand it?' I asked.
'Yes?' Ruby asked, a bit insecure.
'16 times 3 isn't 46 Ruby.' I said, 'And 15 plus minus 38 is not 58?'
'Oh..' she said, definitely disappointed in herself, but it's not like she didn't expected it, 'Well then, you do need to help me with math, like you promised!'
'I will, Ruby.'
'You better.' She smiled. I did too. I promised to help Ruby with math, in the beginning of the year, but I never knew it was this bad...

{Author's Note: OMG THE PART THAT WAS GOING TO FUCK EVERYTHING UP IS TOO LONG SO I'LL POST IT THE NEXT CHAPTER I'M SO SORRY- I feel bad for Amethyst wow. Also Pearl's a good friend yAAY-
ALSO Jasper's character development??}