Complicated (Pearlmethyst fanfic)

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Amethyst's POV
Pearl and I walked towards school again. In silence. A week had passed, but Pearl changed a lot within that small period of time. Our walks became quieter every time. Pearl became quieter. She looks differently. She wears the same clothes for almost five days in a row, she probably brushed her hair five seconds and gave up, it looked like she didn't get lots of sleep and she looked really unkempt. I asked her what's going on this morning.
'Oh, nothing, Ame, everything is okay.' she had said and she had smiled. She always tells me she's okay.
'Are you sure?' I had asked again.
She looked at her feet while she was walking, smiled and nodded. Her smiled disappeared really quick. I had grabbed her hand. I did it often now, when we're alone. She looked at me. Smiled softly. Not like the other smiles. This one was real. There was a silence again.
'Pearl?' I asked.
'Yes, Amethyst?'
'I know there's something.'
Pearl kept quiet. 'Actually, you don't.' she said, 'Because there's nothing.'
'There is. I know, Pearl, you're acting weird, like, every day. Don't you trust me?'
'Don't act so silly, Amethyst. Of course I trust you.' I haven't said anything after that anymore. We got into the bus and were brought to our favorite place in the world. Not. We walked towards our school. In silence. I looked at her, but she looked at her feet again.
'Hey!' I suddenly heard from behind. I turned around. Pearl did too, but a lot more afraid than me. I saw Jasper. Pearl quickly turned around and kept walking. Jasper rushed towards us and walked between Pearl and me. Pearl looked at me. I got scared of her look. It was some sort of "Don't-Leave-Me-Alone-With-Her" look. A "Stay-With-Me" look.
'How's life?' Jasper asked. Pearl quickly looked at the ground.
'Oh, it's cool.' I said.
'Fantastic.' Pearl said softly. There was a silence.
'Amethyst.' Pearl said, 'We have to go. Our history presentation.'
I kept quiet, till I understood. 'Oh, yeah, of course.' I said.
'I thought you guys were already done with history.' Jasper said.
'No, we're not.' Pearl said.
'Sorry, see ya later?' I asked.
'Of course.' Jasper said and she smiled. Pearl quickly said something that sounded like a goodbye and walked away. I followed her. Her steps were big. She walked really fast. I was almost running to keep up with her.
'Pearl?' I asked.
She didn't listen, or she didn't hear me.
'Walk slower, Pearl.'
No reaction.
'Pearl!' I said and I clearly raised my voice. Pearl stopped and didn't look away from the ground.
'Pearl, are you..-'
'Yes, Amethyst, I'm great.' she interrupted and she started walking again.
'Are you lying?'
'No.'
I started to get irritated. Why is she being such a little child? She always acts like this! Why can't she just tell me? I always tell her everything.
'Pearl, please, what's going on?'
'There is nothing, Amethyst!' she said and she raised her voice as well.
'I fucking know, Pearl!'
She didn't answer. I started getting mad. I always swear when I'm mad.
'Look at me, Pearl, for fucks sake.'
She didn't.
I'm so done.
'What's wrong, Pearl?!' I grabbed her arm and turned her around so she had to look at me.
'There's nothing!' she shouted and tears rolled down her cheeks. I got scared and let go of her. Suddenly Pearl realized what she had done, corrected herself, dried her face and looked at the ground.
'I'm sorry.' she said. We walked towards somewhere where we could sit alone. There was a silence.
'What's wrong, Pearl?' I asked softer and calmer than before.
'Nothing.' she said softly, 'Nothing, Amethyst, really. I...' She kept quiet.
I waited till she continued.
'I'm on my period.' she said.
I kept quiet now. She's lying. I could easily tell. But I still nodded.
'I.. Eh, well. I'm sorry, then.' I said.
'Don't apologize.' she almost whispered. There was a silence again. If Pearl's on her period, it's not what's really bothering her. Maybe I'll ask her later again..

Amethysts POV
Pearl walked away. She went home. She wasn't feeling well, because of "period stuff". She was really quiet the last hours. Didn't do anything. Wasn't paying attention. She was too busy with her own thoughts. I waved at her. I asked if she wanted to text me when she got home. She said she would.
'Text me when you're home, okay?' I had asked and my eyes were begging her to finally listen to me. She had smiled.
'Yes, Amethyst. I will.' she had said.
'You promise?' I asked.
She had caressed my cheek. 'I promise.'
I had smiled.
'Don't worry so much, I'll be okay.' she said softly and she had smiled again. With tears in her eyes.
I was worried. Really worried. Maybe it's better for her if she stays home for some time. Maybe she will sleep. I can come through after school. If she wants me to... I walked through the school, on my way to geography. I walked in and saw Jasper. We made eye contact. I breathed in and out, and, against my will, walked towards Jasper.
'Hey.' I said, 'Pearl's sick and went home. Mind if I sit?' Jasper was surprised, and nodded. I put my phone into one of the pockets of my jeans, so if she would text me I would know..
The next lesson was pretty boring without Pearl. Didn't happen a lot of things, you know? Jasper tried to talk, but I wasn't paying attention to the conversation. I kept looking at my phone in the break. No texts from Pearl. Chemistry got cancelled, but even in that hour Pearl didn't say anything.
'Everything okay?' Jasper asked, who was sitting next to me, outside the school, alone, at a place where no one ever comes. We did the same in the past. We didn't sit inside, at the canteen. Just the two, or four of us, where no one can disturb us.
'She's not answering.' I said.
'Did you ask her something yet?'
'No.'
'My god, Amethyst, no shit she doesn't say anything.'
'She said she would text me! She promised..'
'Maybe she forgot.'
'Forgot me?'
Jasper stayed quiet. I did the same and looked at the chat of me and Pearl. She hasn't been online since two days ago.
'Hi. Already home?' I texted her. Five seconds and she went online.
'Yes.' she said, 'Sorry.'
I still wasn't relieved.
'Why didn't you text something?' I asked.
'Forgot, sorry.'
She did forget me. I've never felt so bad. She forgot me. How could she forget me? I'm constantly talking to her, asking her how she's doing, she promised me she would text me! And she forgot. She forgot me. I felt tears coming up. Why do I feel like crying? Why did that hurt so much? Why did she forget me?
'I was worried. You promised.' I simply said. I wanted to tell her how much that actually hurt me, but I didn't. She probably didn't forget on purpose. Can you forget things on purpose?
'I already apologized, right? I'm really sorry, I'm serious.'
'You are?'
'Of course!'
I kept quiet for a while. Why do things feel so strange? Why do I feel so bad? Why does Pearl make my life so incredibly wonderful, yet it hurts so much right now? She not hurting me on purpose. She's dealing with though stuff. Yes. That's why she forgot. She's dealing with tough stuff. She likes me. Yes, Pearl likes me.
'Your acting weird lately.' I said. I still want to know what's wrong.
'You're*'
'It's not the time to correct me. You are acting weird.'
'I'm not.'
'You are. You're so quiet. You never talk to me if I don't ask you something. You don't like it if I touch you. When is the last time we made out? And not when you had that mental breakdown.'
'Is it only about that? Do you only want to touch me?'
'Of course not, Pearl, and you know. It's just like, every time we get close, you pull away. Don't you like me anymore?' I didn't notice Jasper was reading the chat as well.
'Make out?' Jasper asked, 'Mental breakdown?'
I started blushing. 'Oh.. Well.. Yes..'
'You made out with Pearl?' she asked and she grinned, 'Holy shit, Amethyst. Didn't I tell you? The first day Pearl got here. She's hot. And you guys fucking made out without me even knowing?'
'Shut up.' I said, pretty embarrassed and I started smiling like a stupid, even though I didn't want it. Of course, she can know Pearl and I made out, and to be honest I also can't really understand why she would like me.. But it's the way Jasper thinks about it. "Wow, Amethyst, you fucked her, bitching!", not like "Wow, Amethyst, you guys had such a cute relationship and you really care about her, bitching!". It's not only about sex, Jasper.
'Omg yes, Amethyst, of course I still like you! A lot!' Pearl sent.
'Well don't act so stupid.'
She kept quiet for some seconds.
'How can I prove?' she asked.
'Prove?'
'That I still like you?'
I didn't answer. I don't know. I didn't understand.
'What do you mean?' Pearl still was online, but she didn't read my message. I don't understand?
'I didn't know you and Pearl..-' Jasper tried to say but I interrupted her.
'Yes.' I said, 'For a while now. But no one needs to know, okay?'
Jasper kept quiet and nodded. 'Do you have some sort of relationship?'
I raised my shoulders. 'Doesn't really seem like it, huh?' I asked softly.
'Come on.' she said, 'I'm sure Pearl likes you. Do you have any idea how she looks at you? She's in love with you! I bet she also dreams about you.' Jasper grinned.
'Shut up.' I said again and I smiled, yet I still didn't want to. Suddenly I saw a my phone was loading a picture. Pearl had sent me a picture. My smile never disappeared that quickly. I looked at my phone, not believing what I saw and my mouth fell open. I started blushing madly and looked if Jasper was looking as well. She was. Fuck. Pearl had sent me a picture of herself. Of her chest. Without a shirt. Without a bra. She.. She sent me a..? The thought made me even more worried.
'Do you still like me as well?' she asked. I swallowed. What the actual fuck does she think she's doing?! I should get mad at her for being so stupid! But she is trying to fix things though, I guess.. But still! She shouldn't send fucking nudes! She is pretty hot, not gonna lie..
'My god..' Jasper whispered. I quickly hid the picture. I looked at her, not sure what to do.
'She sends you fucking nudes!' Jasper said and her smile made me angry, 'What do you mean, she doesn't like you?'
'What should I do?'
'Ask for more!'
'What?' I asked unbelievingly, 'No, no, no way.'
'Why not? She's clearly into you!'
'So? Asking for more is kinda.. Don't you think?'
'She sent you in the first place. Why wouldn't she show more? You made out, right?'
'I'm not going to ask for more, what the fuck, Jasper.'
Jasper looked at me and then rolled her eyes. I was still kind of in shock of what Pearl sent me. There really is something wrong with her.
'What do you think you're doing?' I sent her. Pearl didn't respond for a while.
'Don't you like it?' she asked.
'I'm at fucking school, Pearl.'
Pearl kept quiet again.
'I can text you when you're home.' she said, 'I can come to yours if you want.'
'You're "ill"'
'"Ill"?'
'No way you're really ill Pearl.'
And once more, Pearl kept quiet.
'You felt bad about my quietness, right?' she then asked, 'If you come after school, I'm sure I won't be quiet ;)'
What the actual fuck.
'Pearl please. Stop.' My fingers were shaking of anger. I don't know why. I shouldn't be this angry. Should I? I went offline and put my phone away.
'Well that was kind of rude.' Jasper said.
'I was what?' I asked and Jasper got scared of my tone.
'Well, she did send you nudes. Like, you could've been a bit nicer.'
'She is.. She is acting stupid!' I wanted to say more but I couldn't form sentences.
'She acts stupid, yet you still think she's hot.'
'T-that doesn't matter!' I said and I blushed madly, 'Pearl never sends this kind of pictures. She would never.'
'Well she just did.'
'Don't you think she's acting weird lately?'
Jasper kept quiet for a while. 'Maybe a little.' she said.
'I know right?' I said, 'But she won't tell me what's wrong. She says she trusts me but she won't tell me what's wrong.'
'Maybe you should give it a rest for some time.'
'I do! Three fucking weeks!' '
Things take time.'
I kept quiet and looked away. Things take time, yes, but so long?

Pearls POV
I looked at my phone. Tears rolled down my cheeks.
"Please Pearl. Stop."
What the fuck do I think I'm doing?! I could throw my phone against the wall. I'm so incredibly stupid! What's wrong with me? What was I thinking? I shouldn't have done that. I quickly deleted the picture. She already was offline. Did she save the picture? What if other people saw it too? What if she has the picture, and I tell her about Jasper.. What if she posts it online? What if she will threaten me as well? I started crying even more. I don't want to do this anymore. I can't handle it anymore. I should make some of my homework, maybe that distracts me. Homework. Homework. Shit, I have to help Ruby with Math today. I groaned and couldn't stop crying. I don't want to help her. Not now. If I tell her I'm ill, I don't have to help, right? But then I'm lying to Amethyst and Ruby. And my parents. Because they think I'm ill as well. And I'm lying to the school. I lie to everyone. That's the only thing I can do. Lying.

Amethyst POV
I was standing in front of the door of Pearl's house. And not because she wanted me to come. Not because of that.. I doubted a little, and then knocked onto the door. I needed to talk. It took a couple seconds before the door opened. Her face was wet of tears and big, black stripes of mascara run down her face. She looked at me and jumped a little. There was a silence. I swallowed.
'So.. You put some clothes on again.' I said. Jesus Christ, Amethyst, way to start a conversation. Pearl blushed madly.
'I didn't expect you were coming.' she said softly.
'I-I'm not here for... Eh..' I stuttered and I blushed as well, 'Y-you know. What you wanted to do.'
Pearl looked away and nodded.
'I wanted to talk.' I started, 'Why did you send that?'
She slowly raised her shoulders. 'I'm sorry..'
'Nudes, Pearl, fucking nudes.' I said and I started to raise my voice, 'What if I still have them? Because I saw you deleted them. What if I fucking saved them, Pearl?! And sent it to others? "Haha, look at her, fucking hot, right? Yes, I fucked her."'
'You would never..' Pearl almost whispered.
'Just think about it, Pearl! What if I would?! Listen, Pearl, don't get me wrong. I love to see you naked, what's not that strange, I suppose, and I hope we can talk normal about that kind stuff, but have you thought about everything that could've happened? What if people saw? What if someone made pictures of it? I was at school, Pearl! What if..-'
'What if, Amethyst..'
It was that comment that made me lose my shit.
'Don't be so fucking annoying, Pearl!' I shouted angrily, 'I'm so irritated, you know? Because I always ask what's wrong, and you keep denying! Even though I know there is something! I'm worried sick, and you don't give a shit! You would never send nudes if you knew I was at school. Even if I wasn't at school! I'm so done with this shit, you know? I want to know what's wrong!'
Pearl kept quiet and tears rolled down her cheeks again. She looked at me.
'I'm so sorry, Amethyst..' she said softly, 'But there is nothing.'
I was so done.
I was so fucking done.
'You know? If you don't want to talk to me, I think it would be better if we just stop talking to each other then, you understand?' I asked angrily. Pearl gasped. She bit her lip to prevent crying, but it wasn't working. She grabbed the door and quickly closed it. I looked at the door for a while and then angrily kicked it while I shouted something. I sat down on the ground and put my face into my hands. What have I done? That was rude. Was it? What if she's dealing with really heavy shit? Then I made things even worse. I tried to breath normal. I looked at my back, grabbed a piece of paper and wrote something on it.
"Sorry for being so harsh. I was just really irritated. I'm sorry."
I looked at the window. It was open. Thank god. I threw the piece of paper inside and knocked onto the window. I waited a couple seconds, but when Pearl walked into the room, I quickly turned away. I waited some minutes. Two. Three. Four. She probably doesn't give a shit. What if she threw it away? I felt tears coming up. I said I didn't want to talk to her again, of course she doesn't say anything back. And at the same moment I wanted to get up, the same piece of paper I had thrown, was thrown to me. I read it.
"I understand. I'm sorry as well. Are you mad at me?"
I didn't move for some seconds.
"No."
I fold the paper again and threw it inside. Then I walked away.

{Author's Note: I love how bad the end sentence is lmao- So yeah that's another chapter great. Pearl kind of acts like shit but we all forgive her because she's going to shit okay cool have a nice day}