Mistakes (FALEC)

[ XXIV ] - "I Don't Want Her To Live Like This."

saudade
-a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved then lost; "the love that remains."

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She was there. But not as what he wanted her to be again. She was different this time. And it made him clueless. Like a stranger that was once a lover. She started to love another one. And it took him day and night to take control.

He wanted her to remember them again. He wanted her to stop being clueless. But it wasn't her choice. It wasn't his choice. It was just fate.

Fate that ripped them two apart.

Mistake Number Twenty - Four: "I Don't Want Her To Live Like This."

I wipe the last tear that I was going to shed for today and climb out of bed. Feeling exhausted. The guilt was eating me alive. No! It was tearing me apart. Even though, Gold has been apart of me for a year.

But a thought suddenly came into mind as I remember a past memory about what Gold told me.

"Not exactly, but I supposedly remember us sharing toys or that stuff."

Toys? I met her last year. Which when I was sixteen. I didn't even get near one toy. Or when I met her I never really remember with anything toy-related. I inhaled slowly while feeling like I was being pushed to a deep hole again.

The door opens and I see my mother instantly hugging me. "Oh, you're back?" I say, excited. My mother though shows a slight frown which I knew was already an excuse coming up. "Um, we have a meeting later. But I'll spend time with you tomorrow."

I nod discreetly ignoring the emotions that were betraying me. It wasn't fine; and I wasn't fine. Everything was messy. I wanted time. But I knew that time could never be my ally.

I immediately speak, "Well, I'm going out to eat brunch. See ya when you get here. . later. . home." I mutter the last parts as my mom shoots a smile towards me and lets me change.

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I was walking downstairs as I heard slight chatters. My mom and dad; they seemed really quite sad.

"I told her that we were going to another meeting." My mother sighed deeply as my father patted her back and hugged her.

He kissed my mother's forehead. "After we're done with this stupid insurance. We can all bond together and relax." My mother smiled at my father as he kissed her again.

I suddenly make a noise that my parents quickly turned to me and asked, "When did you get here?" I reach the bottom of the stairs. "Just now, why? Did I miss anything?" I asked, pretending to act dense.

My mother and father hugged me as many thoughts were running through my mind. What insurance? Who's insurance? Am I missing something here?

Seriously, many things has been hitting me in the head lately.

As I walk inside the coffee shop I see a girl hiding her face and sobbing. I walked closer to her to see that it was Gold crying. I stroked her back as a statements comes rolling off my tongue, "Anything wrong?"

Gold wipes her tears and say, "You were right. I was f*cking dumb and acted like a love sick bitch who needed comfort from a guy who was just playing with my feelings. You were right Funneh."

I immediately hugged Gold, tightly. "Gold, you are so special. You are very important to me. I will f*cking kill that douche!" I mutter firmly as Gold laughs sadly.

She thanks me for comforting her as she says goodbye to me; I wave back at her. I finally got some weight out of my chest.

After eating brunch, I walked down the streets of the town. Quietly thinking to myself. I hear a couple of odd mutters as I sneek up to see what it is.

"You can't, She will always end up broken. You have to do this for her if you love her. You do love her right?" Gold asks, looking up at Alec.

"Yes. She means the world to me and if that means sacrificing our relationship to make her happy then do so." I saw a drop of tear slide down Alec's eyes.

"G-Good God, even if I have to live like we just met last year and you know I can't! A fragment of her is lost. She needs to be helped to remember!" Gold tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear. "She even helped me awhile ago to recover."

Alec crossed his arms, "I know, she's a practical angel. As we both know, her parents just arrived from the buisness trip. They said it was best to not tell her. And that we should stay away from her. That it would make her life easier."

I also see Gold tearing up, "It doesn't help her. It just hurts her more. You know I don't want her to live like this. Do you want her to live like she's done nothing for years? Clueless for the rest of her life. I can't for my life!"

"I want to tell her everything. We're both selfish." Alec's eyes stay emotionless as Gold inhales softly.

"We both know that she is special. We can't even stay away from her." They both laugh.

Alec spoke again, "I said that I would do everything to make her happy. But I don't want to stay away from her. We don't want to stay away from her."

A/N:

hello. i had error while updating. so i had to unpublish this whole book and publish each of the chapters one by one.

sorry for the inconvenience! (or however you spell it.)

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