I was searching for your face, checking those doors like clockwork. I kept looking, hoping, but you never came.
Each heartbeat felt as if it had been trying to speed up and slow down at the same time.
My heart had begun a war- stopping and starting as I continued to stand, hoping no one noticed my wavering smile as the clock hit 00:00.
If I could, I would have broken down crying where I stood despite myself.
But I couldn't and the fact was that I simply had no reason to.
I was nothing to you and you were supposed to be nothing to me- two casual friends with niceties and blinding smiles, two people who knew very little about the other.
We were two people,
you were not mine,
I was not yours.
If such things were fact, tell me why it felt like my heart had fallen to my heels and why my stomach flew to my throat.
Tell me why I suddenly stopped breathing and why my head began spinning, why, when those doors opened and you weren't the person standing there, I felt like I was drowning.
Please tell me why it felt like I was dying when I realized you weren't coming.
I need you to tell me because I don't have the answers anymore. I don't understand. Please just tell me.
