Saving Him

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

The days kept getting worse and worse. Its been four days since I last saw Jax. Four days since I last spoken to Fred, Alex and Zeke. Four days since everything started to go downhill. Today it was only going to get worst. 

officer Rouche is so certain that the killer is Jax, he's going to call him into questioning. We wont have to go to a court or anything to do this, just my dad's office. But the bad part is, I know Jax will have adittude while they ask questions. The other bad part is that I have to be in the room. Why? I have no idea.

Not seeing Jax for four days was almost a relief. It was almost like me not seeing him was giving my heart a break.

Jax was screaming every night, and I'd just lay there, two pilliows on either side of my head as I tried to block out his screams. I'd done everything. Music, a loud fan, earmuffs. None of it worked. Because even if I managed to not hear him screaming, I still knew that he was. That alone was enough for me to not sleep. I wanted desperately to run into his room and wrap my arms around him and comfort him. But I knew I couldn't.

I'm pretty postitive that Fred, Alex and Zeke hated me now, which sucked. Everytime I tried to talk to them they'd ignore me and pretend I wasn't there or just walk away. What happened to my best friends and why didn't they trust me?

I felt alone, all the other boys looked at me in disgust, like I had killed Kevin and Tyler. I cannot believe Mikey, I hated him more and more with each passing day. He'd always smile at me, an evil smile though. It made my heart beat fast and my cheeks flush red in anger.

I'm not sure when my dad will start classes again, it seems like forever since I went to school. Maybe learning crap that wont help me at all in the future could take my mind off of everything. Finding a distraction was hard. Reading became hard to focus on, music just gave me headaches and video games, well building a house on Minecraft gave you loads of time to fall deep in thought.

I keep filpping through random channels. I'm dreading 4:00pm, because that's when Jax is goning to be questioned. I don't know how Jax is going to act, but I knew it wasn't going to be good. I don't know what Jax is doing right now, I just hope it isn't anything stupid. 

I stopped at one channel, and I knew it was stupid, but I was suddenly swallowing back tears. The Conjuring. Jax and I had watched that once. Sighing I placed and hand on my heart, it hurt like hell. How did people even do this? Deal with this heartbreak.

 I bit my lip and kept flipping, I was not going to watch The Conjuring. I didn't even care if it would scare me or not, I was just scared I would start crying. Crying happened way too much.

I settle for The Host, the book was good and I haven't seen the movie. It sort of took my mind off of things. This movie doesn't really have that much romance in it, but the parts that it did made me envy them. I shook my head, how silly of me to be jealous of fictional characters. 

After the movie I still had some time left, so I was just pacing my room, dreading what was coming in the next 30 minutes. My dad would be so mad at me if I skipped it. I couldn't do that to him. He knows that Jax and I aren't talking but he also knows that IO'm the only one who can calm Jax down.

Too soon, it was 3:45pm and I knew I would have to start walking down now if I wanted to avoid bumping into Jax and having to walk down with him. 

I felt butterflies, no worse than butterflies. Dinosaurs. Dinosaurs just stomping around in my stomach and on top of my heart.

I walked out of my room and down the halls to the stairs, avoidingthe second floor. When I got to the bottom, I opened the door out of the stairwell (you know, the ones hotels have) and walked out. I'm so nervous, and my stomach hurts.