Saving Her || Ian Gallagher

Makeup

-Lexi's POV-

I storm into the house and slam the door shut. I wipe the tears from my face and make my way to Serena's room. I throw open the door and walk inside.

"What is wrong with you?" I ask, breathing heavily. I can feel how hot my face is from anger.

"Sorry, I don't know what you mean." She says, continuing to stare at her tv.

"Why did you tell Ian that? You know that's not true. None of it."

"Whatever you say." She says shrugging her shoulders. I scream and throw a pillow from off the ground at her as more tears roll down my face.

"I understand that you feel really shitty about yourself right now, but that doesn't mean you have to make me feel any shittier than I already do about this whole situation." I say, lowering my voice. She just laughs and shakes her head.

"I finally found someone. He made me feel like nobody else and you took that from me. Who does that to their own sister?"

"I was just taking a little extra from you because I had so much taken from me! You do not understand how hard it is to wake up and live in this crippled body everyday. Did Mom tell you? We went to the doctor the other day and it turns out I might lose my right leg because I somehow got a fucking infection. I'll be in physical therapy forever. I'm going to be in pain forever. So yes, I told Ian that because I hate how little was taken from you. I feel like part of me died at the accident. I'm not the same I was before. Everytime I see you walking around, going out, and just being happy in general, it kills me. I want to be happy for you, I really do Lexi. But it is so hard. I can't talk to you like we used to because I can't hear anything about your life without being jealous and angry. I even broke up with Nathan because I couldn't take hearing about his days anymore. I can't do the things I enjoy anymore. I can't, and it's killing me." She says, breaking down into tears. I hesitate, then move forward and sit on her bed. I wrap my arm around her shoulder and she leans her head against me.

"Serena I'm so sorry. I knew you were having a hard time but I didn't know you felt this way. These things are only temporary though. So what if you lose a leg, then you'll get a cool ass prosthetic to show everyone. I know you don't want to hear this, but sitting in the house will only make it worse. Keep going to physical therapy to work on your arms, call Nathan, and just try and think about how grateful we all are that you're alive. I love you. We all do. Just give it time and things will get better I promise. But you have to put in effort and you have to let people in." I say, squeezing her shoulder and wiping her face with a tissue.

"I'm the one who should be sorry. I can talk to Ian for you if you want. I should've never said that. I love you Lex."

"I'm going to fix it. I will. Don't worry about it. Just get some rest okay? I'll talk to you tomorrow." She nods and lifts her head up. I get up and walk out of her room, shutting it behind me.

I pull out my phone and call Ian. After two rings it's sent to voice mail. I send him a couple texts but he doesn't respond. It'll kill me if I sleep on it. I have to go over there now. I haven't really driven since the accident though. It shouldn't be too hard with a boot. I grab the keys and go out to my sister's car. I get in and pull up "find my friends" because I've never been to his place before. After about five minutes I arrive at an apartment complex. I get out and head inside.

The location doesn't show me which exact room he's in so I head for the mailboxes and hope there's names on it or something. I find one with the initials "I.G." written on a piece of tape and I assume it's him so I head for the room which the mailbox number matched. Once I get there I take a deep breath and then knock. After about a minute he opens the door.

"Lexi-" He begins. I push open the door wider and walk in. When I turn around I see he's changed into pajamas and a T-shirt. He closes the door and walks past me to the couch.

"I need you to listen to me. Just hear me out please." I say, walking over to the couch and sitting down next to him.

"Ian I really care about you. You literally saved me over a month ago and since then I couldn't help but fall for you everytime I spoke to you or even saw you. I need you to understand that I could never hurt you. I would never hurt you." I say, looking up at him. He takes a deep breath and finally looks over at me. He searches my face and then looks down at his hands.

"I feel the exact same way Lexi. And that's why when your sister told me, I was so hurt. I didn't want to think it was true but I didn't know for sure. I figured she wouldn't lie about that."

"She's going through a lot but we are figuring it out. I'm sorry you were caught in the crossfire. But, I wouldn't be here if she was telling the truth. I wouldn't basically be begging you to believe me. I wouldn't have cried so damn much." I say laughing a little. He smiles and looks back at me. He stares at me for a moment and then tucks a piece of hair behind my ear and runs his thumb over my cheek.

"You look so beautiful tonight. I'm sorry I ruined it."

"I guess that just means you'll have to take me out another night." I smile, taking his hand and kissing it. He smiles and leans in and kisses me softly. The kiss deepens immediately and I wrap my arms around his neck and lean back against the couch.

"So, no Jake then?" He whispers, kissing down my jaw and onto my neck.

"Not even a little bit." I say smiling as he moves to my collar bone.