This is me

9. New year, new me

Or not.

I've decided I'm not gonna change myself, but I'm going to change my life for the better.

I'm going to do what I want, when I want, and try to enjoy my life.

I'm done with negativity. (HAH, bitch u thought -me, 7 months later)

Me and Gabriel didn't meet up. I was so relieved.

I knew it was gonna be awkward, and I honestly don't think we should be together. He is not the guy for me.

New Years eve was fun.

Me and Celeste had planned to go to this older guy from my school's party.

I dressed in these long red velvet shimmering pants that made my legs look even longer than they already are, and they also made my butt pop. Paired it with a velvet black top from urban outfitters and a velvet black handbag. I went all in velvet.

I looked great. And I was so ready for the night.

On our way there we ran into Gabriel and his friends. They were going too. I played drunker than I was just to make the situation less awkward for me.

When we almost were at the party the guys started chanting:

"Gabriel's gon' have fun with the ladies" or something like that.

They. Looked. Right. At. Me.

Like they were trying to rub it in my face.

I think they for some reason think I'm in love with him? But it's like, Gabriel is not a gift from god, like who do you think you are Gabriel?

Ugh. I hate them.

Luckily, I showed them how little I care about him.

We arrived at the party and I said hello to everyone. We danced and stuff and then the clock was about to hit midnight.

This older guy from my school had been hitting on me ever since me and Celeste entered, and I just knew he was trying to get me as his New Years kiss.

I had promised to kiss Celeste for New Years since she has a boyfriend that was sick New Years eve and therefore weren't with us. So I did, but then I kissed him.

I regret it. I see him in the halls at school and it's awkward.

Oh well.

Time went on and, I'm not gonna lie, I ended up kissing 2 MORE GUYS.

A lot of people would call me slutty. But at lot of the reason why I kissed them, was because i needed to show how I didn't miss Gabriel's attention. I didn't want him anymore.

I don't.

Celeste told me he saw it all. Hah.

Anyway, the night was fun and all, and the next day Celeste said that a guy I have known for years and now goes a class above me, told her, that he wanted me.

Like, did you really expect that Celeste wasn't going to tell me?

I feel kind of weird about him wanting me. Like, we are friends??

I know this chapter was short and badly written, but I feel like I had to upload this chapter before February. So here it is.

Happy New Year.