This is me

7. Gamemaster Gabriel

Gamemaster Gabriel.

What a name.

I tried to figure out what to call him, but it's a challenge to translate his name plus the wordplay, without using what people actually call him.

If that makes sense.

Anyway, Gamemaster Gabriel will do.

Gabriel is a guy that I think about a lot lately. I've been dreaming about him everyday for the last week. No joke.

I met him last summer for the first time. It was the last day of School, last day of what I will call middle school for the simplicity. (I was 15 though)

Everyone from my class at that time, the people I've mentioned so far in this book, except Esme, attended this big meet up in this park in the middle of the capitol.

Everyone was there to celebrate the last day of school and graduation.

I was drunk. So was everyone.

I had a thrill of a time.

Celeste was so drunk she made out with this guy she ran into, when she was trying to escape a guy she threw vodka at. Jesus, that mess of a girl.

I laugh every time I think about it.

Anyway, I walked around saying hi to different people, and then suddenly I saw this good looking guy and of course I had to say hi to him.

What I didn't know was that I would fall in love with this blonde haired boy.

I walked over to him and told him hi. He was clearly drunk, but nevertheless he asked for my facebook when we had talked together for a bit.

I thought he was gorgeous.

He is.

His eyes are my favorite. You can really see there is something behind them. At least I can.

Later when we were all leaving to go to this guy from my class' house, I saw him again.

He smiled at me.

His eyes.

I still remember the rush in my stomach. There was something about it.

Something I even to this day can't explain and I have no idea what it was.

I dont wanna sound like I think i'm "the chosen one" or some garbage like that, but there was something.

I'm gonna say it.

Like we were meant together.

I know, I know it sounds ridiculous.

Not necessarily meant to be together forever, but for days or weeks or years or maybe just for a few hours, I didn't know.

I wanted to tell my friends about it, but they would think I was pretty weird to think that about some guy I had literally just met. Like I was in a Disney movie.

But I swear I just knew in that moment, something would happen between us, it wouldn't be the last time I saw him.

And it wasn't.

After summer vacation, in august earlier this year, I had my first school day at the new school. I was excited and a little terrified, but mostly excited.

I sat down at the table where my name was listed, looking at the other people that were soon to be my new classmates for the next 3 months.

And there he was.

I quickly looked away.

I was mortified.

Why?