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so wattpad somehow unpublished this chapter like what

so i published it again suck on THAT wattpad

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The rain felt cold.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around his drenched self, not that it helped much. At all, actually.

It seemed as if the weather matched his mood. On ordinary days, the rain would've been a blessing; Taehyung loved the way it sounded, the way it smelt as it hit the dirt, the way a sudden splash would emit when one would step in a puddle. Taehyung loved the rain.

Only, not now.

The, once friendly, drops seemed to want to make him feel all the worse. Not that he had the capability to actually feel anything; no, he felt numb to his core. They hit his exposed skin with a ferocity, as a plea for him to drown, and quickly too. His persistent breathing seemed to make them furious, so they increased their pace.

Not that Taehyung was thinking about the rain at that moment. It was just a misbegotten relic in the whirlwind that was currently the confines of his mind.

It seemed as if all his thoughts, emotions, memories had collided together, which was overwhelming.

He could even remember memories that he couldn't recall ever occurring to him; A cloudy morning... birds chirping.. a glint in his hand, rubbing the blade down his arm......carving down two words....make him go away...

Like he said, he couldn't remember doing that to himself.

A sudden flash of lightning illuminated a dark four-legged mammal of some sort slink away from under a car. Taehyung paid it no heed.

Honestly, it was too overwhelming.

Unable to go any further, Taehyung froze on the spot, rigid from the sheer coldness and loss, veins prominent on his arms as his fists shook. His head bowed, the hot tears sliding down his nose and dripping down on the pavement, a pleasant change from the icy cold fingers scratching down his back.

One word collided against his consciousness.

Why?

Why? Why did the universe choose him to carry it's burdens on his frail shoulders? Was there no one, no one else?

"Why....me?" The words slipped past his trembling lips, directed to no one in particular.

Resisting the urge to find a nice, dry, warm spot under a porch or a tree, he stood there, not even wounding his arms around himself.

He slowly lifted his head up to the sky; gray, miserable, raining droplets. Much like himself, apparently.

Why me?

"Wait!"

An echoing exclamation sounded, almost lost in the splatter of raindrops against the pavement and leaves.

"Taehyung, wait!"

There it was again. Through half-lidded eyelids, blinded by the onrush of tears and the rainwater, Taehyung lowered his gaze to set it upon a single, solitary figure making it's way towards him.

His breath hitching would be an understatement.

Relief, utter relief so profound it wetted his eyes once more, flooded his consciousness. He stumbled forward with his numb legs but just before he was going to fall, warm arms steadied him from letting that happen.

"Oh my God, Taehyung, I'm-"

Those same arms, the warm embrace he had come to love, to adore, to exist for, enveloped him again. Hardly daring to believe it, he let it happen, each choked apology being uttered by the latter a warm lick of flame, until all the iciness melted away, now nothing but a long forgotten puddle on the floor.

That instant was so peculiar, he thought, where he was crying, and Jungkook was crying, and the sky was crying, and it was just a huge mess of tears and wetness.

It felt like literal heaven.

All the angst and all of the melancholy disappeared as Taehyung gained his bearings once more.

Shaking himself off from Jungkook's embrace, he allowed himself to observe the expression of utter devastation evident on the younger's face, before cupping his face with both of his hands.

The physical contact that followed felt as beautiful as if it was the first kiss they were sharing.

Taehyung started to adore the rain once more.

A/N: so basically, yeah, jungkook is still whipped for a certain dude

do y'all want to read the finale, or should i add a filler {sort of} before the finale? It's your choice :)