Slight Change (fem Deku fanfic)

Bye!

(Trigger warning)

No ones pov
There they all were.....they heard an explosion but it wasn't as loud as they believed......"That bomb wasn't nearly as loud as I thought to destroy three buildings...." Kacchan said thinking aloud that's when they all looked at Izuku. "That wasn't the bomb huh?" Todoroki said relieved.....Izuku nodded "Heh....I couldn't kill innocents for my own personal mission....I was bluffing I was trying to kill only Shigaraki...." She looked dejected.....with a painful smile plastered on her face.

"Thank you all for not letting me become a monster you all are really some of the greatest friends I could ever have...umm I'm not going back to the trip I think I'll just stay here....but I would really like you all to enjoy it....buts it's you decision" with that izuku began to walk away, leaving her worried friends with their words stuck in their throat.

"Izuku I'm coming with you!" Uraraka yelled as she ran towards Izuku "you two come to!" Uraraka yelled at Kacchan and Shou who look incredibly worried.

"Yes we're coming to!!" They both yelled running towards Izuku

(Time skip)

They all eventually arrived at Izuku's place, Izuku looked at everyone with an incredibly pained expression "I'm so sorry.....I'm so much trouble that's all I am trouble...." They all gave her sympathetic looks.....Shou opened his mouth to speak but Izuku put her finger on his lips "Shhhh.....don't speak please? It will only make things worse.....anyhow I'm gonna go shower" she did her best trying to give a reassuring smile. They all just sat there so worried that it was obvious their words were stuck in their throats.

Deku's pov

I have no right to even try to be a hero huh.....I thought to myself removing my outfit and headed to the shower. The water ran down my skin, how much of a failure am I? I let the water drench my hair........I'm still gonna fulfill that last part of my promise though. I stared at the wall in front of me "heh....I'm so stupid" I said thinking aloud, after a few minutes I noticed a razor next to me.....I found myself soon dragging it across my skin......making a large cut on my torso.....no one can see it if it's on my torso. I soon made four large cuts, what have I even become?

I was staring at the mirror my face was puffy and red......my face something wet is what my hand came in contact with. I quickly wiped my tears away, I continued looking at myself I remember thinking how much I actually looked like a girl....now I just look like a monster. I still felt my tears streaming down my face......didn't I say immediately after I killed Shigarki I would rid the world of myself....well aren't I breaking that promise mom? I still intend on doing the last part......but I still have something to do.

No ones pov

Izuku came out wearing some pajamas "I'm out!" She looked at her friends and smiled.......but everyone could see how fake it was....

Deku's pov

I gave them each a letter telling them how much I care about them and love them......also how I hope that they aren't sad when I'm gone....two of them were very special though because I guess you could call those two letters love letters. This works out because I won't have to face rejection huh? "Hey please read this tomorrow that includes you Kacchan!" They all looked confused "Why tomorrow and not now?" Because Im not gonna be here...."because I want you to!" Because I know if I see your face I'll feel bad.....because I don't wanna face your rejection. I smiled.....I lied.....

(Time skip)

Soon everyone was asleep.......Izuku crept out into the bathroom. She sat in the tub......the water running and the razor close by.

I was happy.....I was sad

I was fine.....no I'm not

I smiled.......I cried

I lived a great life.....no I didn't

What a great way to die?......for someone who wished for something they couldn't have

Bye!