Slight Change (fem Deku fanfic)

Feelings....(katsuki)

[trigger warning]

Katsuki's pov

I wasn't sleeping to well but my head and heart were hurting and getting pummeled with thoughts of that idiot!!

I sighed the hell she think she is making me feel this way....making me out of all people terrified....I hate love! I hate Izuku.....but yet I can't believe that I could've lost her

Why am I always so mean to her? I've always told myself it's cause she's weak....or deserves it for looking down on me....but yet now I don't know. Why the hell does she even hang out with me huh?!? I was a fucking idiot and told her to kill herself at one point,

I know that for the first time I really don't deserve her.....yet I still choose to fight to win her.

I start to twist and turn again my thoughts were pissing me off.....

Soon enough though I found....I found sleep consuming me I opened my eyes once more though....but it was to the sight of Deku "Hey Kacchan.....you're really horrible ya know that?" I gritted my teeth at her words "And so what?!?" She pissed me off that's when she smiled "You've done all these horrible things to me....you're mean....you've just I-I can't even explain! sometimes I wonder why I even stay with you......" I couldn't control myself at her words...because I knew that they were true....."Ugh and so what huh you're still not getting to the point shitty deku!!" She started crying...."the point is...that even though you're this explosive idiot sometimes I still love you....ill always love you...and even in death I'll still love you...." My eyes widened..."The hell you mean death?!?" That's when everything started going dark...her face became unhealthily pale..I heard the sound of a facet turn on and then I looked at her wrists....they began bleeding out....gushing every were. That's when I she fell....I ran to go catch her "DEKU!!!"

But just as I reached her.....I heard her small frail voice whisper...."Goodbye Kacchan I love you..."

Just like that she disappeared....

I woke up sweating......my breathing hitched..

What the he'll was that dream though......that's when my eyes found their way to the letter she had written

It's not like I care!! I thought to myself and then that's when I noticed that both Deku and Todoroki were missing.....the door was opened....then I heard something that shocked me, the sound of a facet running and a blood curdling cry...
I found myself running to the bathroom.....

I heard sobbing...."YO WHAT THE HELL-" the half ass bastard spun around....his eyes clouded with a fear that I'd never seen before.....He looked as if he just lost his entire world.....and his tears....we're falling on to something....that's when I looked at what he was holding so tightly. I shouldn't have looked....

There was Deku.....her face pale.....her eyes closed....and her wrists....so bloody the sight made me want to puke.....I felt something wet trail down my face....was I crying?.... That's when Uraraka came running in the moment she saw Deku's lifeless body she.....she started bawling......she ran out immediately..

She came back holding a phone...."I'm calling an ablulance!!!"