Forbidden love (Alice x FP)

Chapter 9: Starcrossed lovers part 2

'So FP, do you remember our prom?' I asked in all seriousness.
'Yes of course I do, you looked beautiful!'
'Oh well thank you.' I smiled. 'But do you also remember me and Hal? Our fight?'
'Yes I sure do. What is this about Alice?'
Then I heard a *ping* coming from my bag. 'I'm sorry, I need to check this.'
'Go ahead.' He said and didn't seem to mind.
I read aloud: 'Have to be at a journalism convention this weekend. Won't be sleeping at home tonight.'
'It's from Hal?' FP asked.
'Yes. Pretty glad I've got some time without him. I really need to think.'
'So where were we?' FP asked politely.
'Oh yeah uhm, did you hear what we were fighting about?'
'No not really and I don't think I would have remembered it anyways. But I do remember him yelling at you like crazy. First I wanted to intervene but then I thought it would just make things worse.'
'Well that's true. So this morning Hal and I had a fight again, about the same thing.'
'Alice come on, you know you can tell me anything. You seem worried?'
'I am FP, because I don't want to ruin whatever we have going on. But I have to tell you. This morning old memories came back. Okay so at the prom Hal had his reasons to yell at me. Because I told him I was pregnant. We disagreed on how to... handle things and 5 months later he was born at the Sisters of Quiet Mercy. We gave him up for adoption.'
'Holy crap?' He didn't seem to fully get it.
'Why didn't he want to keep the child?' He asked.
'First of all he said we were to young, which was kind of true. But I got pregnant 20 years ago and Hal and I have been together for...'
'19 years?' He finished my sentence and realised it all.
'Yes. 19 years.' I looked at my feet, I had never felt this bad around FP.
'So he's.. my son? Is he?'
'Yes FP, he is.' I was patiently waiting for his response. We were silent for a while trying to comprehend everything.
'You've always known this?' He asked with tears in his eyes.
'Yes.. I have. We had just broken up and I was together with Hal for a few weeks.'
'And you had been pregnant for a couple of months...'
'Yeah.. and FP, I don't want to pressure you into anything, if you ever want to look for him that's okay and if you don't that's also fine.'
'But Alice, why didn't you tell me? I just wish you had.' He now put his hand on my shoulder.
'I didn't because we had broken up and you were suddenly gone to join the army. I had just found out before our prom.'
'And later on? You could've told me later!' He now stood up, pacing around the trailer.
I was still crying but managed to reply. 'Years had passed FP and honestly we weren't on great terms right? I'd been trashing the Southside in the Register because Hal made me do it. I couldn't tell you FP. It all hurt too much. It was a secret and it was tearing me apart.'
'Alice, please go, I need to be alone. I have to think about... all of this.' He gestured to the door.
'Don't you want to talk then?' I got up as I grabbed my bag.
'No Ali, I need to think.'
'Alright.' I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. I closed the door of his trailer, walked up to my car, got in and let it all out. The tears I had been holding back for years now flooded out like a river. After I had calmed down a little I drove home, hoping my two daughters had already gone to bed. I quickly walked up the stairs to my bedroom, got changed and laid under the covers. I had completely fucked it up this time. Then again I felt a relief because I finally told him the truth. No secrets.
I grabbed a book of my nightstand trying to get my mind of things and flipped through it to find the page I was on. I read the first few sentences and after 10 minutes I noticed I hadn't flipped a single page. I put my book back on the nightstand and decided it was time to go to bed.
About 15 minutes later I heard a knock. I saw that it was pouring outside and saw a shadow of someone standing next to my bedroom window. I turned on the lights and noticed FP was drenching wet. I opened the window as I let him in.
'Oh my god FP, how did you get here? Come in, I'll hand you a towel.'
'I drove my truck over and brought a ladder.'
'Ah, just like the good old days.' I said as I handed him a large towel to get a little warmer.
'So Alice.. I wanted to apologise. I was too rough on you, I mean, I bet it would've been so difficult admitting this.'
'It was FP. I'm glad you're here. I'm glad we can talk about this.' He sat down next to me on my bed not minding that I was in my pj's and my hair was a total mess.
'So.. what's his name?' He asked curiously.
'It's Charles. Appearently Chic.'
'And on the birth certificate?'
'Yes, I put Hal's name.' I saw him looking at me not knowing what to say.
'I hope you understand I couldn't do it differently. His last name isn't Cooper though. It's Smith.'
'Oh, that's good. That's really good. I'm glad I came by.'
'Me too Forsythe.' I stroked his back. Damn he was muscular. 'I just want you to know that I've always wanted to tell you. It hasn't been easy. But of course I should've told you. You should've known.' I shyly smiled, almost childlike. We were silent for a while until FP said: 'Remember the first time I got up here with my ladder?' We both laughed.
'Yes, and you almost tripped.'
'I did and I was so glad your parents didn't notice.'
'Yeah thank god. But I think my mom noticed it once.' I smiled.
'No way?' He looked very surprised.
'Yes one morning I came down the stairs and my mom was like 'had a good night huh?' but she really liked you so she didn't really mind.'
'Alice, I don't believe you've ever told me that.' He started laughing.
'No I was way too embaressed!' We both chuckled.
'I should go Alice. I guess I should.' FP said as he got up from my bed.
I let him go for just a second but spoke honestly when I said:
'No, wait!'

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