My life as Dauntless

Part 12

I feel Eric's warm hand leave mine and leaves my hand cold. I get up and see him walk out of the infirmary.

"Where did Eric go?" I asked the nurse as she came in the room. "He is the faction leader," she said. "He does have work." she added. I sit up. "I need to go to training." I sat up. She helps me up. "Are you sure?" she asked me. I nod my head. "Okay." she helped me get on my feet.

I walk slowly into the Pit. "You're alive!" Matt walked over to me quickly. "Why wouldn't I be?" I asked, looking at him.

He rests his thumb on my jaw. "You have a bruise." he winced. I look up at him. His eyes are lighter than before, softer.

"Ace, what are you doing here?" Eric asked, putting his arm around me, glaring at Matt. "He didn't do anything." I put my around his torso. "Not yet, he didn't." Eric said. "Why do you hate me?" Matt asked Eric. "You beat up my boyfriend... I have every right to hate you." Eric said.

Matt walks away and Eric pulls us apart. "I told you to rest." he put his hands on my shoulders. "And I told you that I wasn't going to rest." I smiled. "Well, you're lucky that theres not matches today... just knife throwing." he said and held my hand as he walked to outlines of people made of thin wood.

Everyone gathers around me as Eric and Four demonstrate how to throw a knife properly.

We all separate but Josh decides to join me. "You're good at this." he said as I threw a knife at the dummy, impaling its chest. "Thanks." I smiled at him. "Do you think you can help me?" he asked. I look at him. "Look, if you're trying to get me to like you, its not going to work." I said. He laughs. "Im bisexual but Im not into you." he said. "Oh." I walked behind him.

I put my hand on his. "Just pull back..." I trailed off, looking at the target. "And let go." we threw it together and it hits the targets stomach. "Thanks." he smiled and tried it alone- it hits its shoulder. "There you go." I smiled.

I look behind Josh and see the Abnegation boy lagging with the knives. He throws another knife but it hits and falls to the floor. I see Eric walking towards him. "Crap." I walked towards the both of them.

"Simon! Hit the target!" Eric crossed his arms, standing behind the Abnegation boy. "I cant." Simon turned after he threw his last knife- failing again. Eric starts to him and I grab his hand.

"What are you doing?!" I said to Eric. "My job." he said and pulled my hand off and walked to Simon again. "Eric!" I grabbed his hand again and tried to hold him back. Eric pulls himself out of my grasp and he backhand slaps me. I stumble to the floor as the pain rushes through my cheek.

Initiates surround us as I look up at Eric, tears forming in my eyes. His mouth opens to speak and I get up and run into the Chasm, running from my fear: Eric.

"Ace!" I heard him call me. I pick up my pace and run up the stairs, leading to the roof.

I push the door open and slam it closed. I run over to the edge and collapse in tears. I rub my cheek, trying to sooth the pain but touching it only makes it worse.

I hear the door open. "I cant believe you hit me!" I cried, burring my face in my arms, crying over the edge. "I cant believe you didn't hit him back." they said.

I turn and see Matt, closing the door. "Its you." I wiped my tears but new ones replace them. Matt walks up to me, his eyes hazel and full of empathy.

"Im sorry." he frowned, sitting on the floor next to me. "Its not like you did it." I wiped more tears off my face.

He opens up his arms. At first I just look at him but I move into his arms, crying into his shirt. He wraps his arms around me. "Why do you stay with him if he treats me like that?" he asked rubbing my back with his hand. "He doesn't. I don't know what was wrong with him." I rested my head on his chest, starting to cease with the tears.

I feel safe with Matt. I know that he cares about me ever since we first met.

"I want to freeze this moment and live in it forever." Matt said quietly. I look up at him. He wipes a tear off my cheek and smiles lightly. "Can I kiss you right now?" he looked down at me. "I thought you'd never ask." I smiled. He smiles and kisses me.

His kisses are warm and seductive. When he pulls away I pull him back down to kiss me again. I feel him smile in the kiss and he kisses me more passionately.

I feel like I could trust Matt with anything. At this moment I realize that I like Matt. That he was the one who Ive liked since the beginning and I was pushing him away- when the person I really should've been pushing away was Eric.

I pull away, smiling. All the pain is gone. Matt smiles down at me and I burry my face in his chest. "I feel safe with you." I said into his shirt. "You have no idea how much Ive wanted to hear you say that." he said. I hear the door open and I see Eric.

"Matt-" "Eric. We need to talk." I got up.

"Will you be okay?" Matt asked, standing up. "Yeah." I said and walked over to Eric and took him into the chasm.

"Ace. Im so sorry. I don't know what came over me. Please forgive me." Eric apologized. I nod my head. "You're forgiven."

He smiles and opens up his arms, attempting to hug me. I push him away. "I forgive you... but Im breaking up with you." I said. "What?!"

"I don't want a boyfriend who abuses me whenever they're having a bad day. I want a boyfriend who will talk to me whenever he's having a bad day. Someone like... Matt." I said.

"So thats it! All the things we've been through... Just gone?!" he raised his voice. "Vanished." I began walking back up the stairs. As I walk, I could here him cussing.

I open the door to the roof and see Matt looking out into the distance. He turns as I close the door. "Everything okay?" he walked to me. I nod my head and hug him.

"Couldn't be better." I smiled