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5 days...5 days and am leaving mother-world. I should feel happy or sad but this is confusing i dont know what am feeling...it feels weird..feels empty. i just want to get it over with.

Alec started the spell and we have to wait for five more days till its full moon. Well, thats what Maib said he did on the oracle Alec found. Turns out Maib was an old tinso. And he, himself was the one who went to Athia to find his match.
I didn't even know tinso's had a match. Judging by the look in his face, Alec didn't know either.
The oracles goes till Maib left our motherland and nobody knows what happened afterwards or where he's now cause no one has ever heard of him every since.
Alec has tried to see a vision of where Maib is at, but Maib being an older tinso and not wanting to be found isn't  helping. He really is good at covering his traces.
The way he wrote the oracle was  mesmerizing but what's confusing me is that i can't tell if it was love or ambition set as a reason for him to travel all the way to Athia. He doesn't strike me near as excited as i am or I might just be imagining it.

''...hardly a twilight nor so much of a dusk

But when there is a full moon, right when the big bell rings

when the night prosper

Walk,deep in to the woods,till thou can see no more

Till thee reach mid-forest , the triumvirate circle

Kindle the candle light right on the sepulchers

Lo! And Behold for there shall hit a typhoon each time you ignite one

Lo!  There shall be hurricane for each time you kindle

But the 3rd conflagrate shall bring all to silence for that is all it takes for me to find her, my key to the 'ultimate power'...''

So here is the thing, the so called 'ultimate power'(paeha)  is an egregious power not many maliks are said to had had possessed down the annals and chronicles of our world.

But how exactly is finding his match connected to paeha? Maybe he meant something else.
 

                          ...........

Bonsu's voice snatched me out of my day dream. ''is it true!?'' He demanded.

And he didn't had to say it twice i knew what he was talkin about.

I mentally slaped myself and took a self note ,for the 17 times to be exact, not to ever tell Gumi, the light mouthed friend of mine, any secrets that are meant to be kept.

But Bonsu had a right to know. That kid deserves to at least hear an explanation, although the explanation was something I just couldn't come up with.

I didn't know what to say. Not to Bonsu.

I couldn't just shrug and say ''sorry, but am off to Athia to find my true love and wish me luck''.

He wouldn't understand. I couldn't possibly expect him to understand too not after ruining his life like this.

Flying means everything to a Melik and I for one should know that.

I was supposed to be his trainer and worse yet once a trainee gets stamped under one trainer, its a well known tradition that no other melik can/will take him under their wings and teach him.

I had tamed Bonsu as my trainee he was a bright kid and a super fast learner.
I could tell he could be even way better than Dongbae, my previous pupil who is known as the champion for the latest flying race.

I had seen something great in Bonsu the very first time we mate and i knew he had to be my trainee and fortunately he wanted me to be his mentor. I gladly stamped him. Had i known it would turn out like this...

"I have failed you, Bonsu. And I know its not enough but I really am sor.."

"Don't!!"
He screamed emphatically. Cutting me short. Looking at me in disgust like I just sent his whole tribe away to be slaughtered.  His eyes red, full of hate and disappointment.

I wondered where my trainee,the sweet little kid i knew disappeared to. Cause for a split second I could've sworn i saw some kind of scary darkness hovering around him which gave me the chills down to my spine, my knees shook
and it's amazing how such a tiny being could scare me this much.

He walked closer and in a really low and husky voice said, "You know what? You are right. It's just not enough! Sorry is not enough."
And with that he just walked away. The scary aura still glooming around him.

I could feel his pain. His sorrow roared louder than his voice. And my heart ached for him.

I knew i had to face Bonsu too when I decided to take on my journey to Athia. And i thought i was strong enough to face whatever comes with the package of the grand decision I made.

Maybe i thought wrong.

But even then, deep down I could still feel the goddess inside me excitedly dancing like a balerina.

So i guess i wasn't that wrong.