heavenly sent hell

Chapter 12: Forgive.

Dream as if you'll never die; live as if you'll die tomorrow
~unon

"I'm sorry for not telling you Rouge. I really wanted to and I'm terribly sorry for what happened to you... I tried to help you." Tessie said.

I know everyone was expecting me to say that it's alright or at least say something but I said nothing. I just looked at her. I also wasn't expecting that from me but it just happened. I couldn't say anything to her.

"Er, I'd also like to say sorry to you too Gwen...about what happened with Emily and the Clinton High guys. I should have stood by you because you were there for me even at the toughest times... Even when I left you for Emily you still saw me as your sister. I miss you lil' ma... " she said.

Gwen broke into tears," I miss you too big ma." she said.

They hugged each other and I almost broke into tears. As for Ricardo...tears just rolled down as he forcefully tried to stop it. "Stop staring! There's something in my eyes, okay?" he said and we all laughed.

"Rouge..." Tessie said.

Everyone looked at me expecting me to say something yet again so I said, "I was never mad at you... I kept taking my anger out on you that I realized that it's all on me and my ignorance. So you don't deserve forgiveness 'cause I'm not going to forgive you for something you didn't do. Thank you for trying to help me, I appreciate it and sorry for snapping at you the past few days and blaming you for everything that has happened."

Tessie smile and said gently, "Apology accepted."

I entered the hug between her and Gwen and made it a group hug. Ken joined and later everyone else did.
Now imagine that in a full restaurant in front of hundreds of eyes... Not so nice. But it felt good anyway.

"Okay, break it up, break it up." Gwen said and we went back to our seats as we started smiling again and there were no awkward moments.

"Umm do y'all think Logan was part of this plan at Emily's party?" I blurted out.

Everyone went silent once again.

"I know it's what you don't want to her but... Yes, I think he was part of it." Ricardo said.

"Has he talked to you ever since?" Gwen asked and I simply said no.

"I can't believe he'd do this to you." Tessie said.

Someone else said something but I wasn't listening... I was looking at Carlos... At how disturbed he looked.

After another comment of pity, he got up. "Excuse me." he mumbled out.

"what was that about?" Tessie asked.

Ken and Ricardo looked at each other and Ricardo ended up saying he'll go check him out.

I couldn't help but feel like I was the reason he did that.

Ricardo and Carlos came back a short while after.

When they sat everyone was waiting for an explanation.

"Dude." Tessie said, very eager to know what's going on.

"Sorry for marching out like that. It won't happen again." Carlos mumbled.

"Are you okay?" Gwen asked.

"Never been better." he said with a small smile.

"Shall we leave now?" Ricardo said and we all agreed and left.

*

The two cars parked in a not very packed parking lot. It was really dark and silent outside with around 5  people strolling around or leaning on their cars. Really strange...