(RONNIE'S POINT OF VIEW)
''Fuck'' I caught my breath as Bradley rolled to the side breathing heavily and I put my legs up in the air and a pillow under my bum. ''What are you doing''.
''The sperm goes quick into the womb and stays there so maybe one of your little guys will latch onto my eggs and make a baby then Walla no more sex'' I said rubbing my abdomen.
''Like permently'' he frowned.
''No only when we are you for it, you think I like having sex every minute it hurts you know''.
''I hurt you'' he sat up.
''No not you like having orgasm one after another takes a lot from me so hopefully the next time I take a test I will be pregnant, if not then it's not meant to be'' I said getting up putting a robe around myself.
''Babe'' I shook my head and walked out of the bedroom and I headed downstairs and put the kettle on and sat at the kitchen table then I heard footsteps coming down the hallway.
''Ron listen to me ok'' he crouched down in front of me and I looked at him.
''Baby if god blesses us with a baby it be on his time ok, you will not get pregnant once you are stressed and babe you have been stressed out at past two years up until the wedding, we had Harvey after just having sex not even knowing anything of it and our next baby will come like that, we just need to have faith ok we need to have faith once we do it will happen for us'' he said I nodded and sighed.
''I just want another baby so bad'' I said he sat down on the other chair and pulled me onto his lap and I wrapped my arms around his neck.
''I know baby so do I, but it'll happen when it happens ok, we will have sex but as you say we will do it when we both want it not force on us, you aren't ovulating no more, yes we will still have sex but when it comes to when you are we will do it more ok but not stressful force sex when we both are fighting, because you won't get pregnant with all that stress ok'' I nodded and kissed his cheek and rested my head on his shoulder.
''I'm sorry about hurting your arm yesterday I didn't mean that'' he said I nodded.
''I know babe it didn't hurt honestly I just needed to shout at you before I lashed out at you over this situation'' he chuckled and kissed my neck I smiled and moved my head and kissed him and pulled out.
''I am in the mood for a fry up I'm going to go get ready listen out to him he will wake up about 10 ish'' he nodded and I headed up stairs had a quick body wash then got dressed.
(BRADLEY'S POINT OF VIEW)
''Fucking stupid poxy body I hate it'' I heard Ronnie mumbled from the bathroom, I sat up on the bed hearing the toilet flush and the taps on then she came out and looked at me and sighed.
''What's wrong babe '' I asked as she got back into the bed.
''I got my period'' she said her eyes watering I frowned and got up and I walked over and wrapped my arms around her.
''Baby that's ok we will try again it's ok'' I whispered she shook her head moving away from me.
''It's not meant to be Bradley, we were blessed with a miracle, no point in pushing it '' she said and got back into the bed and hearing her sniffling and it was breaking my heart. I got back under the covers and I pulled her back and I lifted her top and I rubbed smoothing circle on her belly. I looked down at her and she had her eyes closed and a tear ran down her face, I closed my eyes and leaned down and kissed it away.
''Hey Ron look at me'' I whispered she opened her watery eyes.
''Baby we will go see a doctor ok and he will put our minds as ease, I will book an appointment once you are out of your period ok'' she nodded closing her eyes and cuddling with me while I rubbed her belly putting her into a deep slumber.
''Mommy'' I heard Harvey call and I slid out of the bed kissing Ronnie's head and I closed the door after me and went over to Harvey's room.
''Hey bud'' he smiled and I picked him up.
''I think it's time we change your room, you're nearly 3 time for a big boys room what about Toy story'' he started talking and yawning I smiled and I put him on the changing table and I changed his diaper and put on baby boxers and dressed him. He is out of diapers since he was 14 months, he only gets one when he goes to bed but hopefully soon he will be out of that and won't wet himself.
''Hungry''.
''Toast'' he said I nodded closing the gate at the end of the stair case and went into the kitchen letting the dogs out and I put on some toast for him.
''Harvey come here'' I called out but I didn't hear any movement, I groaned and buttered his toast and brought it into the living room and he was really into SpongeBob.
''Move'' he whined I put his toast down and sat down beside him taking my phone out going onto Google looking up Second fertility problems.
What causes secondary fertility problems and how are they treated?
The same factors responsible for primary fertility problems are to blame: pelvic scarring blocked fallopian tubes, endometriosis, defective ovulation, or poor sperm quality or quantity, to name a few. Whatever the cause, the condition either developed or worsened since your first birth. Complications during labour and delivery could have triggered a problem. Or, if several years have passed, your fertility problems may be age-related. Treatments for primary and secondary fertility problems are the same.
I groaned throwing my phone on the other sofa in frustration. I know the doctor's told us Harvey could be the only one but there is something in the back of my head telling me that he isn't the only baby we will have. I want another baby badly but she is taking it too far, she really wants one and she is becoming very stressed over it and I think that's the reason why she can't get pregnant.
I was brought out of my thoughts hearing knocks on the front door'' Harvey do not even think off opening that door'' I said walking after him and he moved the curtain at the side of the door.
''Gammy'' he said with his pacifier in causing me to laugh and I opened the door to see my mom.
''Hey mom'' I said letting her in and kissed her cheek closing the door and I took Harvey pacifier out of his mouth. Since he turned 2ish he only gets one at night time but the past few months we took it off him completely but he always seems to have one in his mouth, I think he has a few stashed somewhere in the house, because he always seems to have one in his mouth.
''Morning son, hey baby boy'' she said picking Harvey up and we walked into the kitchen and I flicked the kettle on sitting on the island.
''Where's Ronnie''.
''In bed, she got her period this morning'' she frowned.
'What, no that's devastating'' she sighed sadly and I nodded.
''She hasn't got her period in 6 weeks so we really thought she was pregnant, she started crying, it killed me looking at her like that, I don't even know what to do'' I said rubbing my head.
''All you can do hun is be there for her. She is going to be upset for the next few days but tell her everything will be ok because it will be in the end'' I nodded and made her a cup of tea and sat across from her.
''How you feeling baby about this whole situation'' she said running her hand through Harvey's hair.
''Devastated, I really thought she was pregnant, we have been trying for a baby nearly a year now, I just don't know what more I can do for her, she is stressing herself out mom'' she frowned.
''Honey she will, she really wants a another baby and I don't blame her, when I had Jaden I wanted another straight away but it was nearly 3 years by the time I had you, every girl wants a daughter and Ronnie well she really wants one, maybe take it slow, I think you both are trying to much if you get me'' she said I nodded.
''Yeah I know I told her that we will take it slow and it will happen when it happens and she hasn't been too bad we'' I awkwardly rubbed my neck'' do it when we want and she doesn't snap as much as before the wedding but now I just don't know how she will react to it all '' I said leaning back in the chair.
''Would you not go see her doctor''.
''I told her that this morning she agreed to, I just need to make an appointment''.
