(RONNIE'S POINT OF VIEW)
I locked the house up and headed up stairs and I checked on the twins then I went down to Harvey's room, I popped my head around the door seeing him sleeping. I smiled and I turned his telly off and I pulled the covers up on him and kissed the top of his head and I walked out passing the staircase and I made sure the baby gate was closed before heading down to mine and Bradley's room.
''Are you still mad at me'' I asked he ignored me highering the TV I sighed and walked into the closet and I took out Pj's and underwear then I headed into the bathroom and I closed the door and I turned the shower put my shower cap on and I took my clothes off stepping up the hot water closing my eyes resting my head on the cold tiles. I washed myself shaved then I sat on the shower floor the glass was steamed over the hot water, I didn't bother moving, I just had so much running thought my head.
''Ronnie you will turn into a prune turn the god damn water of the bills be up the wall'' Bradley bang on the door causing me to jump with fright. I reached up turned the nob off for the water and I sat in there till I got cold then I stood up and I dried myself sitting on the seat leaning back drying my legs and I got dressed then headed into the bedroom.
''In future don't spent so fucking long in there, we haven't got money to throw away'' he said harshly I nodded putting some hand lotion on rubbing it in and I combed my hair and tied it up at the top of my head then got under the covers and Bradley got out
''Where you going'' I asked. ''Guest room''
''Why'' I asked confused. ''Don't want to be around you'' he said picking his rob up I got up and walked out of the room slamming the door on the way and I went down stairs slammed the living room door and I took the throw over off the back of the sofa and I laid down letting out a long breath looking up at the ceiling and I closed my eyes after hours of thinking then I heard someone walking down the stairs and down the hall and the living room door opened and Bradley sighed backing out closing the door after him. I chewed on my lip hearing him walking back up the stairs, I took the covers off me and I got up and I slipped my vans on and I grabbed my car keys and I turned the alarm off then I turned it back on and closed the door after me locking it and I got in my car and I drove out of the house, and I drove around the streets of Atlanta for an hours and I glanced at the clock seeing it was 12pm in the day my eyes widen and I u turned looking around not even knowing where I was. I took the gps see out locating my location and I was in sandy springs I place I never heard of but was 3 hours from my house so I took another long journey home.
''Momma'' Harvey ran over to me I dropped my keys and hugged him. ''Alright buddy'' I asked.
''Where wore you'' he asked.
''Just out, where's your brother and sister''.
''Watching telly'' I nodded. ''You go on in, I will be right down I'm going to get changed'' he kissed my cheek and ran back into the living room and I headed up stairs into the closet and I took out a pair of grey sweats a baggy top belonging to Bradley and I put ankle socks and uggs on.
''Where did you go'' I heard Bradley ask from behind me but I ignored him shaking my hair out and I re-tied it up and walked out to the bedroom and I made the bed putting the fancy pillows on it and fixed the throw over.
''Ronnie answer my question'' he said in a bored tone. ''Why it's not like you care where I was, I could be under the wheels of a truck and yet you didn't bother calling me did you'' I asked he sighed.
''Yeah thought so'' I said walking by him and down stairs and I sat on the sofa taking Millie from her pram and I hugged her tight. ''You'll always be mommy's princess no matter what'' I kissed her and hugged her for a few minutes before picking Braydon up cuddling him he looked up at me his little brows nearly touching I kissed his little hand sitting him back in his pram and I looked at Harvey who was looking at me I lifted him to my lap and kissed him wrapping my arm around his neck cuddling my first born, the little boy who opened my eyes to real love.
''You know I love you don't you'' he nodded I nodded kissing his head. ''Momma what's wrong'' he asked wiping my tear I shook my head kissed his cheek.
''remember what we told you when the twins were born, you always have to look after them when mommy or daddy aren't around'' he nodded. ''You keep that promise ok son'' I said he frowned
''Are you going out again'' he asked I kissed him. ''Yeah Son I am, just for a little while'' he rested his head on my chest and I hugged him.
''I'll bring back McDonald's ok'' I whispered kissing him and put him back on the sofa and I went into the safe in the dining room taking out documents and passport belonging to me.
''Where are you going'' Bradley asked. ''None of your concern'' I said walking by him picking my keys up and walked out.
''Ronnie please just stop ok just please stop'' he pulled me back to him tears in his eyes and he looked at the passport in my hand and looked at me. ''You can't leave us Ronnie'' he whispered his lip quivering I shook my head removing my arm from his grip.
''No please don't Ronnie, I'm so sorry I really am but I'm afraid, I'm afraid to lose you, I can't lose you are my everything'' he whispered crying I wiped his tears away as they flooded down his cheeks, the tears he has been holding in since he found out I could have cancer again.
''Don't cry'' I whispered wiping more tears away ''W-why are y-you going'' I smiled.
''I'm not you goon'' he looked at the passport ''I'm going to the lawyer to do my will, in case'' I said not wanting to talk he closed his eyes resting his head on mine and I closed my eyes.
''Go tomorrow ok don't go now please'' he whispered I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck and he bent down turning my body and picked me up bridal style and carried me into the living room and I chuckled as he put me on the sofa laying down beside me his head on my shoulder, I rubbed the back of his hand and looked at Harvey he smiled and looked back at the telly I chuckled.
''Where is it'' Bradley whispered, I pushed his hand up to the side of my left breast to the lump he sniffled resting his head in the back on my neck and I heard him cry, I turned around so we were facing each other. ''Why do you think I didn't tell you this, I don't want to see you cry'' my lip quivered as I hugged him
''I d-don't w-want to lose you'' he cried my heart clenched and I kissed his forehead and I moved his hand from his face and I wiped his chest tilting his chin up to me and I kissed him softly. ''I'm not going anywhere ok, I have a family, I have a reason to fight now more than ever, I'm not going anywhere baby'' I said softly and he moved his hand to the back of my neck bringing my lips to his and he kissed me.
''Ma'' Braydon dragged out I pulled out and turned my head he hand his hands up I kissed Bradley's cheek before getting up picking him put sitting him of the sofa and took Millie out and I sat on the sofa with my three babies cuddling into me and I looked over at Bradley who was looking at us and I winked at him and patted the sofa he got up and picked Harvey up sitting him on his lap and I turned into his side wrapping my arm around his and rested my forehead on his shoulder and he kissed my head softly.
I'm not going anywhere.
