Loving My Ex Lover

Chapter 5: New Love

I gave James my yes, I think it's just right. If I had learned one thing from my past, it is not to make the person you love wait for too long. Kung ramdam mo nang mahal mo na, just go on and take the risk. Love will always be risky, kahit pa ilang safety precautions ang gawin at iapply mo. It can turn things into something that you don't expect it to be, so why not just take the chance and see what happens?

During the time that I was hurting that much. Naisip ko din, kung ba binigay ko kay Lindon ang gusto niya ano kayang nangyari? Iniwan ba niya ako or I was able to make him stay? I regret not giving him what he wants, but I still think of it as a sign fate has given me to avoid getting hurt...double the times that I got hurt.

If it's James destined to be the man whom I will be sharing my life with, I would love to take him as is. He's got the qualities every woman who think of settling down is more important than of just fooling around and playing with hearts. Saan man ako dalhin ng pag-ibig ko kay James, alam kong magiging masaya ako at alam kong mapapasaya ko din siya.

" Lola, kami na po ni James."

James was out of the country, may business trip siya sa Singapore. Kaya minabuti ko na lang na kay Lola mag-stay.

" Sinong James?"

" Lola naman, iyong sabi mong gwapo, mabait iyong lagi mong kasayaw."

" Ah, hindi naman iyon James. Dalawa lang ang lalaking kasayaw ko apo, si Lolo Ben mo at iyong si Lindon."

Napailing ako, sabay halik sa noo ng Lola. He only remembers Lolo's name and Lindon's.

" Kayo na ba ni Lindon?"

" Lola, si James po. Matagal na kaming wala ni Lindon. Matagal na matagal na ho."

" Eh nandito lang siya nong nakaraang araw ah."

Nagulat ako, James had been out for a week already. What I heard give my heart something, isang tibok na akala mo niyanig ang pagkatao ko.

" Si Lindon ho?"

" Oo, si Lindon. Nagsayaw nga kami, sabi niya. Namiss niya akong kasayaw, kaya naman ako eh sobrang natuwa. Isinayaw ako ni Lindon, para kasing kasayaw ko di Ben kapag siya ang kasayaw ko apo. Kaya, lagi mo siya ritong papuntahin. Para naman eh, makapagsayaw akong madalas."

Dumating ang nurse, gave Lola her medicines and sent her to sleep. Lumabas ako ng kwarto at nakita si Manang Lina ang nagbabantay kay Lola sa ospital.

" Manang, meron ho bang dumalaw sa Lola nitong nagdaang araw?"

" Ah..oo, si Lindon. Ay tuwang-tuwa nga ang Lola mo ng makita ang binata, agad nagsayaw sila pagkapasok pa lamang nito."

" Si, Si Lindon ho?"

Ulit ko.

" Oo, si Lindon nga. Iyong dati mong boypren."

Parang may kakaibang tibok na naman sa puso kong diku mawari, si Lindon? Whom I know for sure did not like the idea of us spending the weekend with Lola? Dumalaw?

" Let's admit, Lindon isn't that bad. Kahit paano naman siguro, nagkaroon ng puwang ang lola mo sa puso niya."

" After how long did he realized that?"

Tanong ko kay Gabby.

" Well, as much as more than a year. Pero, seryuso. Maybe, he missed her. Kaya dumalaw siya."

" I still can't believe it."

" It happened, you know life is full of surprises dear."

Lola's health worsens when I couldn't give her Lindon, she had been asking for him. Naiiyak na lang ako whenever she throw tantrums, pero anong magagawa ko. Lindon and I broke up, and there is no way I could reach him only to ask him to come and see my Lola.

Umiwas ako sa possibility na magkita o magkasalubong kami, kaya tiniis ko ang lungkot ng lola. Buti na lang, dumating si James that even if she mistook him as Lindon. Game na game naman siyang pinabubulaan ang bawat request ng Lola, and now Lindon just spent time to visit my grandma and danced with her?

James arrived, I insisted to pick him up instead of his driver.

" Hindi ka ba napagod sa pagdrive?"

" Hmm..hindi naman, I get to see you. So the traffic is worth going through."

He gave me a torrid kiss, the funny thing is that. Compare to Lindon, he always knows when to stop. And I always feel like bitin whenever our lips parted, kaya minsan. I get to steal kisses, hug him and being just sweet..so sweet. Minsan, sabi ni Gabby. Lindon's way of treating me must have affected my sexual hormones, that with James' lips on mine eh nabubuhay ang sexual urge ko.

But I always came with a defense.

" Hindi ba pupwedeng, I am now and adult and is ready to whatever it is that I have to do with my boyfriend?"

Her response is a grin and a smirk.

" As far as I remember, you've been an adult for a long time...as I can remember you were 33 years old when you and Lindon dated."

" Okay, tell me what is it Gabby? Parang ano eh, may laman ang sinasabi mo."

Then she would hug me and kiss me saying.

" Wala, I am just...saying."

The first person na kinilig when she learned about me and Lindon is her, she's got a crush on him. Na sabi niya pa nga, titigan lang siya nito. She'll offer her everything, I don't know why Lindon skipped with Gabby and went on to me. Basta na lang, kinilig ang bestfriend ko upon knowing na kami na ng crush niya.

I must say, she liked him for me. That she would always play in neutral instead of taking my side, kaya madalas pinagtutulungan siya ng ibang kaibigan namin. Ang bias daw masyado, but for me. She was the only one who paid attention whenever I say something about Lindon, and whenever we heard the others talking about my ex flirting ang making out. She was always there with me, inaalalayan ako sa pag-iyak ko. And she would always say...ang pag-ibig daw kapag bago pa. Masakit din, gaya ng bagong sapatos. You can't wear them without getting your feet hurt.

Natatawa na lang ako, tapos ngayon. Whenever I tell her about James, as my new found love. Compared to the other guy, hindi ako nakakaramdam ng sakit.

" Kasi, you found the perfect size. Iyon bang, hindi lang dahil gusto mo talaga iyong sapatos na iyon kaya mo binili that even if it means getting your feet hurts eh ayos lang...James is the perfect size for you. Your new found love that is meant to only make you happy, smile, feel loved without getting hurt."

Minsan, her jokes makes sense than of the serious conversations I've had with the others. Kasi minsan, torete ka na. Tadtarin ka pa ng sandamakmak na sermon and all, mas masaya pa din iyong kahit nasasaktan ka na. Nagagawa mo pa ding tumawa, kasi iyong kaibigan mo. Pinapatawa ka despite of what is going on.