[COMPLETED] the first ; 첫 (SVT Vernon X Reader)

28: 언제까지나 ; Eonjekkajina.

"S-soonyoung-ah..."
Hearing Aerin's voice, your quiet cries ended up into sobs, and you felt the arms hugging you from behind turn your chair around.
10:10.
"O-op-oppa... I'm... Mia-"
"Shh, shh." He hushed you, and despite the tears clouding your vision, you saw that he, like you, has tears in his eyes. He's smiling beyond his tears, but it was your tears he kept wiping away. How dare you make him cry? He's been nothing but good to you.
This made you start sobbing again, but he just softly touched your head. "Shh, gwaenchanha, uljima, uljima. Na gwaenchanha, Y/N-ah. Na gwaenchanha, arasseo? Uljima, na gwaenchanha," he kept telling you, or maybe he's telling those to himself, but you know full well that those aren't true. (Shh, it's okay, don't cry, don't cry. I'm okay, Y/N-ah. I'm okay, understand? Don't cry, I'm okay.)
He's not okay at all, and that's your fault.

You started wiping his tears, because it's the least you can do after hurting him like this.
You felt Aerin stand behind you. "I'm... leaving you two alon-"
"Aniyo, Eomma. Gwaenchanhayo. I'm gonna go now," (No, Eomma. I'm okay.) Soonyoung wiped your tears one last time, finally standing. "Y/N-ah, uljima, arasseo? Jebal." (Y/N-ah, don't cry, got it? Please.)
Your tears won't stop falling though, so you kept your sleeves by the sides of your eyes, catching every drop that falls. You tried to steady your trembling voice. "N-ne, Oppa."
Soonyoung smiled at you. "Johda. Geurae," and with that, he turned around and walked out of the studio. ("Nice. Then,")
Your lungs legit almost threw themselves out of your body when you saw someone clap at your face.
"S-soonyoung-oppa. Hi." You smiled at him, not sure how to start.
As he sat in front of you, a waiter arrived, serving the two of you lattes. Oh, crap. You don't drink lattes.
You just watched as he started sipping. "Y/N-ah, drink up."
"O-oppa..." He sat up. You still don't know how to start. "G-gwaenchanhayo?" Pabo. Of course he's not okay! ("A-are you okay?") (Idiot.)
"Ne. :)" (Yes.)
"Jinjja?" (Really?)
"Yeah. I'm sorry if I didn't answer your calls right away, Y/N-ah. I-"
"It's okay, Oppa. I understand. You have every right to be mad-"
"Mwo?" (What?)
"You have every-"
"Aigoo, I heard it the first time. Y/N-ah, I'm not mad. I can't be mad. Not when I knew it from the very start that it's only been him to you. Ne?" (Yes?)
Your arms were on the table, and you started pulling them down slowly, because you felt your hands begin to tremble again. How is he this... calm?
However, before you even succeeded to put them down on your lap, Soonyoung already pulled one of your hands and held it across the table. He put a white lily on it. You tried your best not to cry. You're succeeding so far.
"Gomawo, Oppa." (Thank you.)
Soonyoung just smiled. "I know it's been difficult for you to think of us like this, Y/N-ah. You've been with us for so long now, and you're not a stranger anymore. I know you have a lot of things to say, you just don't know how to say them. Please don't be sorry, Y/N-ah. Nothing is your fault. It has been my decision to like you. I know about you and Hansol now."

"Oppa..."
"It's not that difficult to see, is it?" He bowed his head. "I just hoped, for the last time, that it was me instead of him. But... I love being myself. I have people who loves me, and I am happy. I'm happy to be a part of your life, too, Y/N-ah, even if I don't play the role I want to play in it. However, please... please allow me to be your friend, still. I promise I'll try to move on. I just... don't push me away, please?"
He's smiling at you again, but his beautiful eyes are glassy, like the last time you saw them.
"Of course, Oppa. If it's possible, I'll forever be your friend. ㅠㅅㅠ I'm never gonna push you away, you know? Never. I've hurt you enough already. I'm really sorry, Soonyoung-oppa," you said, your face all scrunched up like a baby's.
Soonyoung laughed at you, casually wiping his unfallen tears. "Gwaenchanha, jinjja. Gomawo, Y/N-ah. I really thought you'll start avoiding me. I can't have that, jinjja." (I'm fine, really.)
"Aniyo. I won't ever. It's not in my system."
Soonyoung feigned surprise. "Gasp, do potatoes have a system?!" The two of you ended up laughing, and you're thankful that-
"Oppa, no hard feelings? I really am sorry."
"Aish, jinjja. I told you not to be sorry. Nothing's your fault. No hard feelings. Bestfriends? Can I be your bestfriend?" He asked you, offering his hand.
You held onto it. "Ne. Bestfriends. Eonjekkajina chinguro jinajayo." (Let's always be friends.)
"Eonjekkajina. Geu johayo," he responded, his smile never off his face. (Always. I like that.)
"Oppa."
"Ye?"
"You'll find your real star someday, I believe it."
"Arayo. Gomawo, chingu. :)" (I know. Thank you, friend.)
He finished his latte and looked up at you. "Y/N-ah, why didn't you drink it?" He asked, his lips pointing towards your latte.
"Oh. I only drink caramel macchiato, Oppa. For some reason, any other type of coffee upsets me," you explained.
"Jinjja? That's cool, I guess. Do you want one?"
Your ears immediately grew big on his words. ASFGKKHKDLH You love carmachs so much!~♡
"Is- Is it okay, Oppa? ^ㅅ^"
"Aigoo, jinjja. Of course! What's friendship for?" He smiled at you, and stood to order your caramel macchiato. Love!~♡