[COMPLETED] the first ; 첫 (SVT Vernon X Reader)

12: 가지마.

You texted Aerin that you're just at the rooftop, getting some fresh air, and that to just give you a call if she needs your assistance.
Not that she ever really did. She just liked seeing you experience the life you dreamed of. You sat at the bench where you sat last time.
Where Hansol sang while you rapped.
Aish, jinjja, Y/N-ah! You mentally scolded yourself. He's got a really beautiful, precious, and kindhearted girlfriend! Get a grip! Putting your earphones, you put your playlist on shuffle.

Now Playing :
반드시 웃는다 (I Smile)
DAY6
SUNRISE

Aigoo. You're not in the mood for this song. You pressed next.

Now Playing :
STAY
BLACKPINK
SQUARE TWO

What the... is your playlist trying to make you cry even more? Crappy hormones. You're even more emo when you're on your period. Aish. You pressed next again.

Now Playing :
Cold Rain
4MINUTE
CRAZY

Next.

Now Playing :
Broken Heart
MONSTA X
RUSH

Okay. That's it. You removed your earphones and decided to just call your brother. If there's someone who can make you feel better, it's him.
After two rings, he picked up. "Hello?"
"Oppa."
"Y/N! Hey, lil' sis. How are you doing there? I heard from Mom that you're staying at Aerin's. You finally met her!" He's in a good mood. You hate to be the one to break it.
"I've met her before, Oppa. Remember? Well, things are... good, I guess. The weather's really cool, and the foods are awesome." You said, summarizing your stay so far.
"Really? Then why do you sound like... no, you sound worse than when Vernie died. What's up?" Aish. Why did he have to remind you of your cutie baby pomeranian? You're already in pain. ㅠㅅㅠ
"Did you have to mention my baby? You're so cruel, Oppa."
"Sorry. I was just... whatever. So what is up with you?" It sometimes bothers you how well he can see through your acts, whether you see each other personally or not.
"I- Oppa, how did you know you liked Hanna the way you like her now?" You asked him, talking about his girlfriend for five years now.

"Why so sudden? Well, I just knew. You know how it was for me, us- it was either I hold on or I let her go. I just realized that I'll lose myself if I let her go, so I held on. Thank God she did, too. Why are you asking? Hey!"
"What?"
"Don't tell me you already met someone! I'll need to talk to that person!"
You can't resist shaking your head. "N-no, Oppa."
"Uh huh."
"Fine. I did meet people."
"People."
"Yes. I met Seventeen."
"Seventeen people? Wow, that's specific. Wait- you don't mean-"
"Yes. That Seventeen."
He was quiet for a few seconds. "Wow. You're really my sister. Wow. Wow." You waited for it to sink in him. "You did?! Is this why you picked Gangnam, instead of Jeju?! What- how- wait, so your job, it involves them?"
"Yes. Yes, it does."

You heard him sigh from the other line. "Wait, so how's that going for you? I know you- you're madly in love with those people."
"They're pretty good and talented people, in my defense."
Your brother continued. "Especially with that- no. No, no-"
You sighed this time. "Yes. Yes, Brodear."
"Y/N," your brother spoke slowly, "why didn't you tell me that your bias is a bitch?"

You reflexively stood from your seat then sat back down again. Thank God no one can see you right now. "Yah! You're quick to judge! And only I get to call him that!"
"Quick to judge, really? You wouldn't be calling me right now if you weren't feeling particularly down." You kept quiet at that. "I see."
"I just- Oppa. How to move on when there wasn't even an 'us' in the first place? I can't believe myself. I'm just a fan! I love them just as a fan! I don't have any right to be jealous. Really."
If your brother was beside you, you're certain he'd be hugging you right now. "Moving on already? You're even crazier than I knew, then. Well, you have every right to feel whatever you feel right now. They're your emotions, no one can tell you not to feel them. Also, lil' sis, you were never just a fan. For three years, all I heard from you was Seventeen this, Seventeen that. I even memorized their names now, thanks to you." You laughed at that. He wasn't lying. He really can recite the thirteen's full names if asked of him. "If there's a Carat who loves them how more than 'just a fan' does, it'd be you. You've supported those boys in your own way since that webseries was created. And now, you were given a chance to be in the same sphere as they are. I can't blame you. I won't blame you."

You smiled, yet you're crying again. Wow. You love your brother so much. But you won't tell him that.
"And I very well know that by this point, you're shedding tears. So I'm blaming that Hansol Choi. What did he do to my little sister? Tell me."
You can visualize him now in his office, looking out at the buildings through his gigantic window, his left hand on the phone, the right on his hips.
"Well, he did tell me he likes me."
"What?! Then what's so bad about it?! Wait, two weeks of working, and he likes you?! Dude, you're kidding me."
"Oppa, you think?"
"Okay, no. Enlighten me further."
"Well, we met first before I met the rest of Seventeen. He sat beside me throughout the whole flight."
You heard your brother cough from the other end of the line. "What?! Is that even- it's a coincidence, right? Don't tell me you fangirled right there-"
"I did not."
"Really?"
"I swear. He discovered that I'm a Carat by pulling my earphones off and listening to what's playing that time."
"Oh my God."
"You're not supposed to say 'oh my God' like that."
"Dude, I know that reference. Don't go all Carat on me right now. So, how did you even end up working for them?"
"I'm not really working for them, Aerin-eonni does. She's their mix engineer! Can you believe that?! It's so amazing."
"Oh. So she dragged you to her work, and then you met them?"
"Something like that, yeah."
"Okay, back to that rotten banana."
"Oppa, do NOT call him 'rotten banana,' you hear me?" You rolled your eyes.
"Fine. So he told you he likes you. Now what?"
"I found out he's got a girlfriend, and I like her. She's really kind, Oppa, and really beautiful. I'm no match at all, seriously."
"You do know how much I get insulted when you downgrade yourself like that, right?"

You sighed again. "Yeah. I'm sorry. Also, it was just a prank. He really doesn't like like me."
"What the fuck."
"Yeah. Yep."
"I was right though."
"About?"
"That he's a bitch. Haha!"
"Oppa, I love you, but you're such a bitch." You shot back at him, because that's still your bias he's talking about.
"Really, this girl. Just... think of potatoes."
There goes the waterworks again. "Hey! Are you crying again?!"
Yes, and the sky is, too. "Oppa, it's raining here, I better get back inside."
"Where are you even?"
"At the rooftop."
"Of?"
"Pledis."
"Y/N, DON'T YOU DARE-"
"Duh? I'm not jumping off, I may be a potato but I'm not crazy." The drizzle's starting to get stronger, but you aren't moving from your seat.
You don't care about getting sick. You just need a hug right now, and the water falling down on your skin is enough.

Also, your phone's on a waterproof case. Ha!
"I'm hanging up now! Thanks for the distraction, Oppa!"
"Okay, don't get sick, you hear me? And don't think of that banana! Go find yourself another bias! One who's worthy of my great sister! I love you!"
"Love you, too, Brother dear!" With that, you clicked your phone shut.

You closed your eyes and tilted your head up, feeling the raindrops hug your face in their own little ways.
"I shouldn't be liking you like this. I'm just a fan, for God's sake."
You talked to yourself.
"I shouldn't feel like this. I shouldn't think of you like this."
Your hair is starting to get increasingly wet. You don't mind.
"I should just stay away, shouldn't I? Maybe I should fly to Jeju, where I can't see you."
You hugged yourself, starting to feel cold, yet still, you don't mind.
"Yes, I'll do that. I should prevent this while I still can. I can't fall in love with you. I was able to do it for three years now, I can still hold it off for long."
Your eyes were still closed, you were still feeling cold, the rain's still falling on your face.
Until it stopped.

The sound of droplets didn't halt though, they only got stronger. You opened your eyes just to see an umbrella in your straight line of sight.
"Gajima."
You sat properly, and saw the person holding the umbrella above you.
"Yah, you're getting wet! You might get sick, this banana, aish!" You quickly stood, but he gently but firmly pushed you back down the bench, not letting another drop of water fall on you.
"Gajima."
You just looked at him.
"Gajima."

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가지마
Gajima.
Don't go.