SEDUCTRESS SERIES #1: To The One I Can Never Have

Chapter seven

Napatakip ako ng bibig nang makalabas na si kuya sa kwarto. Rumaragasa ang samut-saring emosyon sa puso ko. What the heck am I doing? We are siblings for f*cks sake! I shouldn't feel this way to my brother! Isinubsob ko ang aking mukha sa unan sa sobrang frustrated ko

But......... It feels so good. So surreal. But it is also wrong. Oh my God, what should I do?

Pano ko siya haharapin pagbalik niya. Siguradong magiging akward kaming dalawa... or maybe not? Hindi naman siguro big deal yun diba? Makakalimutan niya rin yun and we will be okay, back to normal I guess but a part of me don't want him to forget it!

Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng aking pag iisip nang may kumatok sa kwarto ko. Dali dali naman akong nag ayos ng sarili at pinagbuksan ito.

"Mama?"

"Sabi ni Nay Rose hindi ka raw lumalabas ng kwarto. Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo?"

Umiling ako bago ko siya tiningnan ng diretso.

"Well, if that's the case, magbihis kana at may pupuntahan tayo."

"Where?"

She winked at me. "We are going to have a mother and daughter date."

My face glowed at the thought. Sure, ma is strict and sometimes a little bit harsh to me, pero I know that she only wants me to avoid being a mess. She always make up to me kung alam niyang medyo sumusobra na siya.

I smiled at her at tumango. I was rewarded with a soft kiss on my forehead before she head out.

I sighed at the thought. Maybe I needed this, winding up after everything that happened. Masyado nang magulo ang utak ko sa lahat ng nangyari sakin. From Jed and now from kuya.

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We are currently at a café after hours of shopping. I got a new hairstyle too and I love it. I am sipping from my Coffee Caramel Frappe when mom asked me a question na nakakuha ng atensyon ko.

"Emy malapit na ang graduation mo, have you already chosen a university?"

"Uhm, I'm planning to stay at my current university ma."

She stirred her Americano and looked at me.

"Why? I mean there are lots of other universities here in the Philippines that can give you a much better education."

She's right, there are lots of other schools I could choose from.

"Well it is more practical if I just stay here ma. I can just go home whenever I wanted to. Besides, it doesn't really matter, I'll just get married." I sadly said.

She released a deep sigh then held my hand.

"I know I've been hard to you, pressuring you and all; but I'm doing those things for you."

"I know." I smiled to her assuringly.

"You remind me of yourself when I was younger. I have dreams too you know." She lowly laughed.

"I was an aspiring model, but things happen."

"You got pregnant."

She looked at me intently.

"Yeah I got pregnant and I lost my chance; but you sweetie, you are still young. You are beautiful, marami ka pang magagawa. I know how much you want to pursue writing, and all I did was to put you down; but I saw how much you wanted it, that is why I want to support you. I know a university that could give you a lot of opportunities. Please think about it sweetie."