ᏢᏒᎬᏆᏆᎽ ᏞᎥᎪᏒ (Ciel Phantomhive x reader)

Chapter 5

{•~ playing with emotions is like playing with fire ~•}

I slowly pulled away from the kiss. There went my first kiss, with someone my age. I would rather kiss Ciel than him. "(F-f/n), I ap-" before the boy could finish his sentence I cut him off. "No. Don't." I said smiling warmly. I saw his face expressions relax a bit. He smiled back, and pulled me into a gentle hug. He was warm and comfortable. Ciel smelt like tea which made me want to giggle. Maybe this won't be so bad.

•~ Alois's pov ~•

I saw the hesitation in (F/n)s eyes as she kissed him. I laughed when Ciel kissed back and then pulled her into a hug. (F/n) is so oblivious to people having feelings towards her. It's funny, really. She never notices the stares she gets from the boys in public. When she's walking around town alone she doesn't realise Claude killing the men that were planning to kidnap her and sell her to the rich perverts. If it weren't for me she would have been a sex slave by now. That's why she should do what I ask without talking back. I'm the reason she's alive. It's just annoying when she back talks me. She acts like such a spoiled brat sometimes.

•~ Ciel's pov ~•

(F/n) buried her face into my chest. I tensed a tiny bit but then relaxed. I wrapped my arms around her and smiled again. To be honest, I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm cheating on Elizabeth! Yes, I only love her as a cousin...but we are to be married soon. If I were to break the engagement now I don't know how she would react to it. If I want to be with (F/n) I guess I have no choice.

We sat there for a LONG time and she hasn't moved or talked the slightest bit. "(F/n)?" I asked. She still didn't respond. I looked at her face, she was asleep. God shes adorable when sleeping. I carried her into the house and up to my room. I don't think she'll mind sleeping in here. She mumbled something in her sleep and then grabbed onto me. I smiled as I laid her down and put the covers over her. What is this feeling? I thought as I laid next to her. Is this...love?

•~ time skip ~•

I woke up, and looked next to me. (F/n) wasn't there, she was probably talking to the servants or talking with Alois. I sighed and then got up. I felt my heart sank as I realized, my eyepatch is gone! "(F/n)!" I called, running around the house. I saw her (h/c) hair sway behind her as she ran around a corner. "Stop acting like a child and give it back!" I demanded, following her. I looked around some more and I found her sitting in the main room. It was oddly quiet. "(F/n) what are you doing?" I asked. She looked into my eyes and then sighed in..disappointment? "Why haven't you told me?" She asked, pointing towards my seal. "I-I didn't want to." I admitted. "Why?" She asked again. I suppose I'll tell her, she already knows I love her anyways. "I..I just didn't want you to think I was...I don't know...b-"

"Why would I think that?" She giggled before throwing my eyepatch back at me. "You're my best friend." She smiled. I put my patch back on and then looked down. "I don't know...I wasn't thinking straight." I said. It was dumb of me for not telling her, Alois has a contract anyways. "Mkayy thenn." She said before kissing my cheek and running off. She sure is childish, I guess I like that about her.

•~ your POV ~•

Well I pulled that off.

I feel bad. I feel bad for doing this to Ciel, I love him. I just want to be friends...I don't want to do this kissing stuff. It's stupid. Love in general is stupid. I have no choice to do this, if I told Alois I didn't wanna do it anymore he would probably yell at me. Why am I letting my little brother overpower me? Well...I suppose he is Male.

(Y'all I'm not sexist, this is just how things worked back then)

I know this whole love thing is going to ruin our relationship. What happened to the old Alois? I know he was always bossy but he was never mean. I guess people change. It can be a bad change or a good one. Alois's change was bad. If it weren't for that change he might have been alive.