Do You Love Me?| Yoonminseok: Book 1

chapter 2

Sadly as always, morning came far too soon. We had a meeting, right after breakfast. Hoseok and I had decided after practice that we were going to hang out. This had been decided a few days ago because we had both not been able to spend time together for a while. Hobi and I were closer than the others, having known each other longer. I had been in love with him until he got together with a girl shortly before our debut, and I forced myself to stop thinking about it. I do a fairly good job at pretending the feelings don't exist, and I do a nice job at distracting myself with my crush on Jimin. Even if it is also unrequited .

The practice had gone fairly well, we spent about three hours going over the routines before heading our own ways. Hobi led me to our room so we could be away for a while. The walk was quiet and I could tell we were going to have a talk about my feelings. Again.

You see Hoseok is an amazing friend, that much is obvious but he always wants to help. As of right now his 'life purpose' as he put it was to get me and Jimin together. Like he didn't have his own problem chasing after his absolutely annoying girlfriend Mi-Sook (A/N I really didn't know who to put as Hobi's girlfriend in this so here is a really annoying OC) as if Jimin is the one I love.

We walked into the bedroom both setting down on the small couch next to the door. My head was on one end and my legs were laid on top of his lap.

"You know I want to hear about last night right?" his question was met with my silence. I know it's childish but how can you expect me to just start talking about these things. I didn't even want him to know. He had just figured it out one night when the three of us were hanging out. He asked me about it as soon as Jimin went to sleep saying he didn't understand how he had not noticed earlier.

"You can't expect me to believe you left her without any reason. Especially since I know how you feel about Jimin..... Are you ever going to tell him?" he paused waiting for an answer. As always somehow the dork knew just what was going to get me talking.

"How can I tell him. He will hate me, I don't want to lose him." I stayed silent for a moment before starting again, "How are you supposed to tell one of your best friends that... That you love them? How are you supposed to look at this person you can never have and tell them they are the one you want? How do you give up the one person you care most about when you know they will never feel the same??? How? How can I ever, ever tell him how I feel? I'm not ready to lose him... not yet," I let silent tears run down my face as Hoseok holds me. Still under the impression that the words are meant about Jimin when I couldn't care and less about that. Somehow I had ended up with my head on his shoulder and his arms around me. As always he was the one I trusted the most. Jung Hoseok is going to be there when everything comes falling down. Sometimes I wish I hadn't fallen in love with him. It would have been easier...

"Trust me, can you do that? He is not going to reject you kay... no one in their right mind would reject you. Jimin is not stupid, maybe he's a little blind for not realizing how you feel, but honestly, who wouldn't love you... Everything is going to be okay Hyung, I promise," He whispered this is my ear holding e as tightly as he could and running his hands gently through my hair. I let him keep whispering to me as I slowly fell asleep in his arms. Silently wishing that he loved me back.