Russian Roulette (Royce)

Coming Out

::Chresanto's P.O.V::

I slowly opened my eyes and blinked a couple of times. I furrowed my eyebrows suddenly when I noticed someone's arm was around me. I began to panick for a good two minutes until I realized it was just Jacob. Just Jacob. Jacob? What was he doing here? He never went home last night? Wait, what time is it? I looked at my clock that was on my nightstand. 8:40 PM. Now I know why he never went home last night, because it's still last night. 

"Jacob" I said lightly, "Jacob". I managed to turn over without waking him, I looked at him. He looked cute when he slept. I carefully poked his nose, he didn't do anything. I smiled a little and poked him again and again and again. "You know I'm not asleep right?" He suddenly said, he opened his eyes and looked at me. My face grew hot and I laughed a little, "when did you wake up?" I asked. "About two or three pokes ago" he said, he sat up and stretched. "What time is it?" He questioned, "8:43 now" I answered. "We fell asleep?" He asked as he pulled out his phone, I shrugged "I guess so". 

I watched as he brought his phone up to his ear, "hi, mom, yeah, I'm at Chresanto's house. It's kind of late, I guess? I don't know. Uh, we fell asleep an- No, mom, we didn't do anything". I got up and left my room to see if my dad was home. I walked downstairs and peeped out the window and saw he wasn't. Hm, where was he? I retreated back to my room, Jacob was sitting on my bed. He was looking at his phone, "what'd your mom say?" I asked, "do you have to go?" He shook his head, "no, she said I could stay, she just wanted to make sure that I was okay and safe".

He suddenly motioned for me to come over, "come here" he said. I walked over to him and let him pull me onto his lap. He wrapped both his arms around me and placed his chin on my shoulder. I played with his fingers, "you make me feel like a girl sometimes" I said honestly. He chuckled, "see, that's the thing about being in a relationship with a guy, someone's always known as the girl in the relationship" "are you calling me the girl in our relationship, Jacob?" I asked curiously.

He laughed then said, "no, Chres, I'm not, but would you like to take turns?" "In being the girl in our relationship?" He nodded, "mhm". "Yeah" "okay" "so I'm the girl right now, aren't I?" I asked as I leaned against him. "I think you're right" Jacob replied, he began to gently rock side to side. "You're gonna make me fall asleep" I said, "that'd be cute" he replied. I chuckled and said "are you hungry?" "Not really, but a snack would be nice". 

He removed his arms from around me and I stood to my feet, he followed to the kitchen. "Hey, guess what?" I said as I opened the fridge, "what?" "We have grapes" I said as I placed the bag on the counter. "I like grapes" "I know you do" "you know what else I like?" "No, what?" "I like you". "You're corny" I said as I looked at him, "haha, like popcorn" he replied. I washed the grapes and placed them in a bowl, I handed the bowl to Jacob. "Thank you" "you're welcome". 

We both walked into the living room and sat on the couch. We talked for a while and when Jacob finished eating his grapes, we told each other cheesy jokes because we had nothing better to do. I found myself smiling at Jacob's laugh, I didn't know what I was thinking earlier! How could I ever wanna break up with someone like him? 

I leaned in and pecked his cheek, "what was that for?" He asked curiously. I shrugged, "I don't know" "oh, okay". "Wanna know something that I do know?" I asked, "yeah" "I think it's my turn" I replied. He smiled a little and pressed his lips against mine. I took control this time, I was the dominant one. 

I got Jacob to lay on his back and I positioned myself over him. I remember when I used to feel butterflies from being around him, but now I felt fireworks instead. Jacob placed his hand on my arm and kept up with the pace that I was going at. I would've kept going, but something caught my attention. The front door was opening. "Shit!" I cursed loudly as Jacob abruptly sat up, I was pushed away from him and off the couch. I landed on my ass and I winced in pain.

"What the hell?" I looked up and saw my dad, I looked at him. "D-Dad" I stammered, "hey". I looked at Jacob, then back at him. "You didn't.... See, uh, it's not what it looks like" I began, "we... We were just, um" "kissing on the couch?" "Okay, so maybe it is what it looks like" I muttered, I rubbed the back of my neck. Jacob was looking at me, his face was a light shade of red and I knew he was embarrassed. So was I. I stood to my feet and took a deep breath, "Romelo, would you like to explain to me why I walked in on two teenage boys kissing on the couch?" My dad asked. 

Oh, God. This was it. I couldn't avoid it, I couldn't get out of this situation. I had to tell him. My hands were shaking slightly and I stuffed them in my pockets. God, I felt like I was going to faint. I felt like the girl again, damn. "Chres" Jacob said lightly, I looked at him and he nodded a little "tell him". "I... Dad" I looked at my dad who was still standing there, his arms crossed. I pulled my hands out of my pockets and took another deep breath before letting it out. "Dad, t-this is Jacob, he.... I-I'm bi-sexual, and I like him.... A-And he's my boyfriend and I really hope you're not mad because I truly do love him and I don't know what I'd do if you were mad" I confessed quickly. 

I stood there awkwardly as I waited for my dad to respond, Jacob looked at him. I tried to find some type of emotion on my dad's face, but it was wiped clean of any. "Dad" I said lightly, he unfolded his arms and looked at me, then at Jacob, then back at me. I nervously watched him as he walked over to Jacob, he offered his hand. "It's nice to meet you" he said, Jacob looked at him and stood up. "It's nice to meet you too, sir" Jacob said as he shook his hand. "No need to be so formal" my dad replied. I let the big ball of air that I was holding inside me escape, "you're not mad?" "No, why would I be?"

"I.... I don't know, I just thought..." I said, "never mind". I walked over to Jacob and sat down, he sat down too. I watched my dad walk away without saying anything else. I was suddenly nudged by Jacob, "that wasn't so bad" he said to me, "see?" I nodded a little, "yeah". I thought he'd take the information way worse then he did. I wonder what's going through his head right now?

"How'd your uncle react when you told him?" I found myself asking Jacob, he frowned a little and said "he was mad". "Oh" "yeah, like really mad, he said he didn't think my sexuality was right, and that he'd have to get used to it... And he said he could never look at me the same way as before" he continued, "that... I wasn't the same person". I wanted to hug him. I wanted to hug him because his voice just went so sad and flat. He furrowed his eyebrows, "I shouldn't have told him" he added. 

I pulled him into a hug and sighed, "I shouldn't have asked" I mumbled. "It's okay, you wanted to know" "I'm tired" "I can go" he said, "no, I like you being here; stay a little longer?" I asked as I looked at him. He smiled a little and said "okay, I will". 

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::Jacob's P.O.V::

When I got home, I greeted my mother and told her how my day went and took a shower. When I got out, I put on a pair of basketball shorts and a white T-shirt and  walked around my room. I put my phone down on my bed and walked out of my room and down the hall. I would've gone downstairs but I stopped when I overheard my mom and uncle talking. They were in the living room. I heard my name, "Jacob's perfect for the.... The spot" my uncle said. "I don't care if he's perfect for it! You are not putting my son in harms way, Michael" my mom replied seriously. "Teresa, someone has to get Lorenzo off the streets" "then choose some other teenager to do it".

He wants me to help him with his case. Me? Of all people? Isn't he pissed off at me? And aren't I at him? This was ridiculous. He wants to me to get some drug dealer off the streets? What the fuck is his plan anyway? He's ultimately putting me in danger if he doesn't have a plan!

"Plan" my mom said suddenly, "what?" "Plan, tell me your damn plan, Michael". It was silent for a couple minutes. I heard my uncle sigh, "Lorenzo, he... He has a son around Jacob's age, they go to the same school. I was thinking that Jacob could befriend him and maybe by doing so he could find out some information on Lorenzo and report back to me and other officers". I had to give it to him, it was a pretty decent plan... But I'll be damned if I agree to going along with it. He's gonna have to apologize and get on my good side before I agree to doing shit.
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Love,
Me