Russian Roulette (Royce)

Do Not Disturb

::Chresanto's P.O.V::

"Ready?" Jacob asked me, he had me propped up on his knees. We had already gone through all the somewhat awkward moments, like taking our clothes off and seeing one another completely bare for the very first time, trying to figure out who was on top and who on the bottom, and the slight shaking of my body when his fingers grazed my skin. 

I nodded a little, "mhm". I really wasn't, I was not one for pain and Jacob's package was big and I had no idea how I was going to take it all and oh my God, what if I did something wrong? This was a bad idea. I change my fucking mind! "Chresanto" "huh?" I asked, "are you sure you're ready? Cause it looks like you're about to have a damn panic attack". "No, I mean yeah... Just kind of nervous, is all" "I got you, I'm gonna break you in and if you don't like it, I'll stop when you want me to stop, I promise, okay?" He gave me a very sincere look and I knew he wasn't lying to me. I knew I could trust him. 

I nodded again, "okay". He gripped my waist and I placed my hands on his shoulders. He lowered me down onto him and I swear it hurt like a damn bitch. I ended up leaning forward a bit and biting my lip, I gripped onto Jacob's shoulders and took a deep breath. "You okay?" He asked into my ear, I gave him a slight nod. I didn't say anything, I honestly didn't think I could. "You wanna stop?" I shook my head this time, "you're sure?" I nodded, "y-yeah".

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I couldn't believe this was happening. I really am losing my virginity right now. I honestly wouldn't even consider calling it 'losing', I'm giving my virginity to the person who I love with all of my heart. I looked at Jacob and decided that I was thinking too much. I needed to enjoy the moment and that's what I was going to do.

I clutched onto my sheets as Jacob thrusted into me, I couldn't help but to moan. I was no longer feeling any pain, all I felt was pleasure and every time he would either thrust into me or kiss me, the feeling would only grow. I suddenly felt his hand roam up and down shaft and I swear he was messing with me now. I looked at him and a playful smile was on his face. He was. 

"I think that thumb thing is right" he said lightly, "Chres, I don't suck dick, but I honestly wouldn't mind sucking yours". I looked at him, I know he was not about to go down on me. I know he was not. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn't even noticed him position himself, it was when he took me in his mouth that I had finally realized what the hell was going on. 

"Holy shit" I cursed as Jacob flicked his tongue across my tip, I took a handful of his hair and massaged my fingers through it. "Oh, God" I moaned, I threw my head back and arched my back when he began to bob his head up and down, and up again. "Jacob" I said lightly, "hm?" He hummed, "want me to stop?" He managed to ask as he lifted up a little. "No, d-don't stop, keep going, please".

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"You are a fucking freak" I murmured as I turned over and stared at Jacob, "you know that right?" He smiled a little, "yeah". "And you said you don't fucking suck dick" "I don't" "but you did" "I did". "You're nasty" I said, "but you liked it though" he replied, I nodded "I did". I sighed in content as I bundled up next to him in my bed. I breathed in his scent and closed my eyes, "thank you" "for what?" He asked. "Just thank you" I replied quietly, "well, you're welcome". 

I found Jacob's hand and held it in mine, "do you think your uncle is going to come back soon?" I asked lightly. "Yeah, I don't think he'd just leave and never come back or keep in contact" he said, "well, maybe he would, I mean my dad did it, so I don't really know if he would too". "Wouldn't it be cool if we got to see our parents again? My mom and your dad?" "Yeah, it would". "What would be the first thing you'd ask him?" "Why'd you leave? What about you, what would you ask?" "It's not a question, but I'd probably tell her not to leave me again". I sighed, "but if I did have to ask her something.... It'd be, can you make some of your toast and bacon?" 

I nodded a little at the thought of my mom, "I miss her". Jacob pulled me closer to him, he gave my hand a squeeze. "I just wanna see her again, I don't even know if she's still alive, I don't get letters or pictures in the mail. Nothing at all". I rested my hand on Jacob's chest and listened to his heart beat to get my mind off my mom.

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"Romelo?" I heard, there was a knock on my door. I opened my eyes and yawned, I had been drifting in and out of sleep for the last thirty minutes. I looked at my door for a minute, "Romelo". Fuck, it's my dad. I nudged Jacob, "huh?" He said as he sat up. He rubbed at his eyes, "why'd you wake me?" "My dad's home, you need put on some clothes" "I do have clothes on". "Boxers are not considered clothes" "Romelo, who are you talking to?" "No one! Don't come in yet! I'm.... Uh... I just got out the shower and I'm not dressed yet!" I lied, I hope he bought it. "Okay", oh thank, God.

I got out of my bed and so did Jacob, I rubbed the back of my neck. My dad couldn't know that Jacob was here because I didn't want him to ask what we were doing with the door closed. "Get in the closet" I said to Jacob, he looked at me "Chres, do you know how long it's taken me to actually come out of the closet? And now you want me to go into the closet". "I know, I'm sorry, but please?" He crossed his arms. "I'll do whatever you want me to afterwards, okay?" He groaned lightly, "okay". I watched as he got in my closet and I closed the door for him. 

"You can come in now" I said, I watched as the door to my room opened and my dad poked his head inside. "I just wanted to tell you that dinner is ready" "wait, you actually made dinner?" I asked, he nodded "mhm". "Oh, okay" "well that was all, it smells like weed in here though". I rubbed my arm, "um, I meant to tell you that it's been smelling like that for a while now, I guess when you smoke it downstairs, it travels through the air vents or somethin'". "Oh, okay" I watched him leave. "You can come out now" "I already came out, four years ago to be exact" Jacob said as he stepped out of my closet. "I can't believe you made me get in the closet" he added with a shake of his head.

"I'm sorry" I said, he sat on my bed, "you should be". "Do you forgive me?" He looked at me, "maybe". I tried sitting next to him, but a pain in my lower back and thighs, that I really hadn't noticed until now, stopped me from doing so. "Ow, ow" I said lightly, "oh, yeah, I meant to tell you, you're gonna be sore for a good couple of days" Jacob informed, "it's gonna hurt more in the morning".

I slowly climbed onto my bed and took a deep breath. "What the fuck did you do to me?" I asked as I stared at my ceiling. "Took your virginity" he replied, I looked at him and began to laugh. He gave me a confused look, "are you okay?" "Yeah, it's just..." I continued to laugh, he raised an eyebrow. "Jacob, we're so going to Hell".

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I didn't do the whole lubricant thing, I decided to leave it out *shrugs* buuuuuut it's my birthday today!!

Hope you liked the chapter, I tried. Okay?

Sorry for any mistakes.

Love,

Me