The Return of Delilah

Chapter 4

*Maybe I'm looking for something I can't have...

Sometimes the best way to say something, is to say nothing at all.*

-Say Something by Justin Timberlake ft. Chris Stapleton

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DELILAH

I couldn't focus on a single word Adrian was saying. I was so mesmerized by all his facial expressions and the way that he moved his hands as he spoke. He was so much like my side of the family, though he had Liam's dimples.

He also had Liam's energy and happiness, though at the moment Liam didn't seem too happy. He was tapping his fingers on the table not even eating the food in front of him. It made me uncomfortable to know that he was uncomfortable because of me.

"Where are you living? Are you going to stay with us at our house?"

I looked up to Liam for help, but instead of helping me he smirked, sitting back on his chair and watching with an expectant look.

He was testing me.

"Actually, Adrian, I'm looking for a house to buy somewhere around here," I said with a smile. Instantly, Adrian frowned. A wave of remorse washed over me at the sad look on his face.

"Why can't you live with us if you're my mom?"

Again, I turned to Liam for help and received nothing. I felt helpless. I was unsure as far as what to do or say.

I was so not fit to do this.

"Your dad and I aren't together, Adrian."

"So you're leaving again?"

Just like that, I felt his tiny little hand going through my chest and ripping my heart out. I wasn't expecting that question, not that bluntly. I felt my lip quiver and lowered my face as guilt made its presence in every pore of my body. Never before had I felt this bad about my decision like I did when his little eyes pleaded with me to stay.

Liam looked pained as well. He ran his hands over his hair, much like he used to before when he was stressed. There was a long silence between us while we figured out what to say. How honest could I be without hurting him?

"I'm not leaving again," I finally replied. "I just can't stay in your house. But, we can visit a lot if you want."

"Can I sleepover at your house?"

"I don't think that's a good idea," Liam said. I was taken aback by his response but didn't argue. He was probably right.

"We've got to spend some time together first, dear." Once again, Adrian looked somewhat sad but soon forgot about the conversation as he began talking about his friends at school and what it was like. It dawned on me how much I had missed and how little I knew about him.

Liam was patient and remained quiet for most of the time letting me get to know Adrian. I was thankful for that. After it was clear that we were done eating, Liam paid for the meal, despite my insistence of it not being necessary.

That had clearly not changed.

He had always been a gentleman.

We went down to the beach, a place where it was evident Adrian liked to be. He seemed to be a happy child, eager to get to know other kids. I sat on the sand as I watched him play with a group of kids while Liam remained standing.