Simplicity, Sin, Depression...and everything else.

Wow, that just got depressing

Reno's p.o.v:

        I'm having a weird moment here guys. I'm thinking about stuff, nothing in particular, and I'm just getting sad. Not even like starting to cry, just general feeling of being sad over nothing. I'm totally fine. I chucked paper balls at Elena, got everyone coffee, annoyed Tseng for five minutes, it was good.

       Then I started thinking about shit and I started feeling crappy. The day felt like it was dragging along, it was just weird. And then it was done. I felt fine, I kept annoying people, everyone wanted to kill me even though they won't. Except Elena, but she always wants to strangle me and hang my corpse on the ceiling. Above her desk which is weird. Cause then my blood would drip in her hair and I'd still be annoying her even in death. Which would suck for her cause washing blood out your hair is annoying.

Trust me, I know, i happens all the time.

        But something inside my conscious just kept eating at me like a group of mosquitoes in the middle of summer. And for the life of me I couldn't seem to shake the feeling. Rude kept looking at meh weird the entire day. Or at least I think he was, I've been his partner for so long and I still can't tell with his damn sunglasses. Almost like he knew something was up but just didn't want to say anything. I heaved a sigh and slid my paperwork aside, sticking my pen inside the headband of my goggles and glancing over at Rude.

"Okay man I give up whaddaya want?" I let out an annoyed huff and spun a little in my desk chair.

"I'm worried about you."

"Aren't you always? And for what? I'm always fine when I get here right?" I leaned forward with my signature cocky grin.

"If you want to call coming into work half bruised, bleeding, stoned and drunk off your ass a couple days a week every week for almost a year fine, then yeah, you are alright."

I felt the grin fall right off my face, leaning back in my chair and lighting another cigarette. "See? Perfectly normal then."

"Reno for your sake cut the bullshit. I know when something's wrong with you, I wouldn't still be partners with you if I didn't know this stuff before you wanted to admit it." Rude's voice almost sounded worried as he stood up and walked over, standing behind me to rub my shoulders. "Reno please, drop the sarcastic happy act for once and just let the people who care in to help you."

          As much as I wanted to give a snark ass comment, the wave of depression I was feeling just wasn't letting me do it. I slumped forward a little, my goggles shifting to fall down my face and land around my neck. I felt tears prick the corners of my eyes, Rude's grip on my shoulders tightening as Elena walked into the office, grabbing her mug and leaving without another word. My shoe hit the corner of my desk as Rude turned my chair around (me in it), and knelt in front of me, wiping the tears from my eyes like a parent would with a child.

He always knew what I needed. Even when I had no clue.

"Reno? You still in there dude?"

I blinked and sat up a little, my forehead apparently resting on Rude's while I was crying. "Y-yeah? What's up Rudy?"

Rude smiled quietly, petting a hand over my hair while I turned back to my desk to finish my work. "Just glad you're feeling a little better."

"Yea, even just a little bit." I picked my pen back up and continued on with my paperwork.

-end of part-