Finn and Poe

Chapter 6-Poe

We're walking past the hotel and there is two roads diverting into two different directions. There is a pole right in the middle of the diversion of the roads and it was a sign board saying the left road leads to the casino the right road leads to more shops, more restaurants and more. It was very specific if you ask me. Finn turns to me and says " Dinner, right?" I had to look at the casino again and say to myself 'Finn is more important. He could be yours by the end of the night.' I look back to him and I realise he's waiting for answer. "Well..." Finn drags and I finally answer back as the words finally come to mind and to my mouth "Yeah, dinner. Defintely." Finn purses his lips, turns back to me and walks towards the right side with me. As he walked, he says to me " If you wanna go to the casino later, we could, you know." Does he not want to go to dinner with me or something. "Nahh. I'm good. Dinner with someone special is better than any dime won." I said hoping maybe he would be figuring out whether I like him or not. Honestly, I really do hope he realises and asks me about my feelings than me telling him. It's so much better.

      We reach a few restaurants. There's restaurants left and right almost everywhere later on towards the end of the road. Now we don't know where to go. Then only then Finn mentions " You know Rose and I didn't get to eat anywhere when we here, right?" I forgot all about that he and Rose were here together and all and how she lost her. I'm kinda getting sick of this Rose girl. Wait a minute, am I getting jealous of her. "We'll just go into this one." I pointed at the one called 'Famous Galaxy Foodies'. I have heard of it before. It's quite a famous restaurant around the galaxy for its many branched out outlets of the restaurant. And also I just picked one because I couldn't stand thinking about how I'm probably jealous of Rose.
      We enter the restaurant and a droid waitress comes over. The droid had a egg shaped head and a straight cut body with a woman voice saying "Welcome to FGF. One of the most famous ressies in the galaxy." 'Ressies' is a short way of saying restaurant in the outer rim. I don't why it's like that. It's probably slang. "Table for two, please." I said to the oval head droid and she says "Right this way gentleman."
     The restaurant was packed with people and other creatures, having dinner, laughing and having fun. Droid lady/waitress set us way in the back of the restaurant. The only table left empty and it was a small booth that seemed fit to fit at least two in it. We sat down and the droid lady gave us our menus. "Press the button on the middle of the table to order. I will arrive as fast as I can." She said. I saw the button at the middle of our round table. It was red and very big. It looked like a button to push in game shows. I open my menu and so does Finn. We look through the selections of food. There are the normal selections, of course, which include local cuisines, chef favourites, western delights and there were other selections too such as the Dead Creatures selections, the Liquid Luck Lick selections and many more other weird selections with discomforting names. I looked up from my menu to look at Finn and he's just as freaked out and confused as he read the menu.
    "Did you see the back parts of the menu?" Finn asks. "Weird, right?" I say "I'm just gonna stick with the normal western delights."
     "Yeah I guess I'll go with that too but there's only three selections to it and there's three types of that particular selection." Finn pointing out and I say "I'll have the spaghetti Bolognese. It's the most normal among the spagetthi's." It is the most normal. The other two spagetthi's were named so 'exotically' that I couldn't even pronounce them. "Yeah. I think I'll go for the normal and more pronouncable version of steak." Finn said as he laughed.
    I always loved it when he laughed or smiled or when he was happy. It made laugh  and smile and feel happy. Finn for some reason lights me up. Lights up my world and  I don't know why. Finn pressed the big red button and around three seconds later the oval shaped droid lady arrives. She takes our orders, takes our menus away and leaves.
     Finn and I sit there in the booth in silence. I didn't even make things awkward and it feels awkward being with him alone. In a restaurant. Finn seems a bit lost. Lost in his world, staring blankly around the restaurant. Unless he was admiring the place very attentively. I reach my hand out to his and ask him "Are you Okay?" The minute I touched his finger tips, he says "I'm fine" while he takes his hand away. I feel like I'm making him uncomfortable.
    I wish I knew what was going on in that head of his. But most probably I do know what he is thinking about. Rose and how she is. I really don't want to feel jealous about her again but I can't help it. Someone wants to be close with Finn the way I want to be close with him. There's so many other guys in the resistance, why steal mine? DAMN!! I'm so jealous. I have to say something to him.
     Before I could say anything, his food arrives first. My mouth was wide open to say something and i closed it the minute the plate landed on the table. His drink came too. The droid lady told me my food will arrive shortly. I nodded and thanked the lifeless droid as she 'walked' away.
    When I my eyes come back to the table, Finn is already digging into his meal with fork and knife. He ate that steak like he had not eaten in days. I wouldn't blame him though. In the resistance, we only ate canned food. I'm already on the verge of getting sick of it but we have to eat it to survive and all but also because it's the only type of food the resistance has.
     "How's the steak?" I ask Finn trying to make dinner conversation. "Its really good. Never had steak for as long as I remember. And what I remember isn't much." Finn answered with his mouth full. Is it crazy to say he looks even cuter with his mouth full or is that just plain disgusting?
      Finally my spagetthi arrives, along with my drink and the droid lady hands me my fork and spoon. "Thank you." I say and I realised the droid was gone. Nowhere to be found.
       Finn and I spent 30 minutes trying to finish our food and we finally did. We feel so full now. He looks at me now and says "I haven't stuffed my face like that in a long time." He snickers. "Me neither." I say. We continue snickering until we evolved it to laughing. Hysterical laughing. I stop laughing and only to realise how perfect Finn's smile is. I could look at him laugh and smile for the rest of my life. I think we're allowed to be happy with all the crap we have been going through.
   I start thinking of General Leia. She definitely needs a break. She has gone through so much. Losing her husband. Losing her son. And also all those years ago, losing her family. Her world. Her life. I will never know how she went through all of that and is still the strong woman he works for now. As I was thinking of all of that, I realised I needed to tell him. Tell Finn how I feel about him. It's now or never.
    "Finn." I called out to him as I saw his hand on the table. I grabbed it and I kept on thinking that he was going to pull his hand away from me but he did not. "I need to tell you something." I say to him. He looks curious. He then changes his face to a listening face. A reaction alerts me to know that Finn is going to listen to what I have to say to him. But I go quiet and the words get stuck at my throat. I was pushing it out as I was saying "Whatever that I'm going to say to you, please don't freak about it, okay?" And then, he says "Okay." I'm done waiting and I am done keeping it in.
     And the words are coming and they're coming and its on the tip of my tongue and then...

"Finn, I'm in love with you." I finally say to him.