Gym Class Sorrow [Book 2]

Now and Again We Try To Just Stay Alive

Richard's P.O.V

"I don't know-I'm just worried about him...he doesn't get out much and it's been hard since Jesse passed." I twisted the wedding ring on my left hand for the millionth time. I was skyping my husband, Karim, about a serious problem of mine. That problems name being Christopher Way. Karim's brow furrowed and he puckered his lips. "Maybe you can take him out for a run or something? You guys used to go for runs after class, right?" he asked with a hopeful look on his face.

"Mmm, no good. After Jess passed away Chris, he-well he wasn't ok. Neither of us were...come to think of it." I said with a little force in my voice. I didn't like to talk about those couple of years that passed before I saw Chris that day at the cemetery. It was a dark time for both of us, I'm still harboring guilt over Jesse's passing. Maybe there was more I could have done or something I should or shouldn't have said. I don't know, and the part that hurts most is I never will. Well, that and the fact that I have to continually watch as Chris gets even more depressed.

"Babe? You ok?" Karim's voice filtered back to me through my thoughts. I met the eyes of the man I married and sighed. I love him and he makes me happy but honestly he's part of the problem. He's clingy (which I like), but he makes it hard to hang out with Chris and find out if he's ok. It's no secret to me that Chris can't stand Karim, not because he doesn't like him but for other reasons.

Karim has short brown hair styled almost exactly like Jesse styled his and his eyes, though green, sparkle when he laughs exactly like Jess's did. The only thing different is Karim's olive toned skin. I'm not stupid I can see that Chris compares them and that it makes him sad. How did things get so fucked up? I sighed again and Karim decided it was time for us to log off. I waited around for a little after we got off Skype and looked at our wedding photos. I wonder if Chris and Jess would've ever had a wedding? Hell, they probably would've. Jess would've demanded it at some point and Chris being the whipped puppy he is, would've given in. Laughing, I tucked the photos away.

God, I miss Jess a lot. We had a rocky start but his accident and those few months that he spent with us afterwards...I'll never forget them. They say you never get enough time with those you love, and they couldn't be more correct. In the end, all we want is more time.

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AN- I'm dedicating this chapter to Gabi because I wrote it on a whim and it's probably terrible and yea....