Complications

Chapter 19:

You know those spinning cups at the amusement park your parents used to take you to? yea me neither, but you get what am saying right. when they're spinning and spinning so fast you want to do nothing but get off, only thing is you can't so you close your eyes but it just gets worse . Or when you are so hungover you can't tell what day it is let alone what year it is. or how your head feels like sumo wrestlers on crack are jumping on your head like its a freaking bouncy house. Well that's how I feel.

"Urgh.. whad thappenc, ere eh a?" (what happened, where am I?)

This man, this unbelievably sexy older looking man with raven black streaked with grey curly hair and a slightly crooked nose was sleeping on my hand. usually older people look, well old but he looked so yummy I could eat him. he looked so cute and usually I don't let strangers sleep on me but he looks so harmless, what harm could it do? I gotta live a little ,right? Right. Buuut.. I need answers.

"Ayye, buthy!! geth uck!!" (aye buddy!! get up!!) as she shoved his head aside she couldn't help but... stare, for lack of a better word.

"Huh.. Awe, go away let me sleep for a few more minutes. Meredith let me sleep please" The handsome stranger groaned.she cocks her head sideways looking at him if he'd been the one with sumo wrestlers jumping on his head. them something click... a little spark of electricity in the old noggin'

Meredith..

Derek..

Lexie..

Mark..

The baby...

She gasped, the sound similar to the one she would making when kissing Derek and she was dying of oxygen deprivation.

"Nooo!! youw noth dewek, buth you locx leke hin.. (gasp) awe yow hic odew broder?" (nooo!! Your not Derek but you look like him.. are you his older brother?)

Damn. he does look edible. urghh I want his tongue. I'm my throat...

She sighed looking at his mouth with a dream-like stare. "E wan uh to kie meh.."(I want you to kiss me)

He stared at her if she had an extra head growing from under her armpits."Mer what's... what's wrong with your voice."

She stared... dumbfounded" whet uh talkey bouth, es talkey feen" (what are you talking about, I talk fine"

He didn't answer he just ran to the door, yanked it open and bellowed for the doctor to get his ass over here. This older gentleman, quite handsome some might say. but she already had eyes for the older gentleman, Derek. He rushed to her aid checking her vitals, doing a routine neuro exam, checking her pupils, etc.

"What's the problem she seems healthy, pupils dilate perfectly she has good peripheral vision. no sign of paralysis." Derek ushered the doctor to the door. whispering to him. scolding him. obviously irritated. they spoke so low she only caught words here and there.

11 years..

Sleeping..

Talking like a four year old..

What is wrong with her...

Fix it now!!

She started sobbing. her hands shielding her shameful face. protecting her from the pitiful faces staring at her. Derek quickly came to her guidance. holding her. trying to console her. offering words of wisdom and love. As she just kept murmuring. "elewen fucking yeaws"(years)

"Meredith we'll get through this how we get through everything, together. okay"

"How?, Ehm dirty nine, ehm ol, pwease help me..." She sobbed inconsolably. (How? I'm thirty nine, I'm old, please help me)

It broke his heart to see the woman that was so full of life, passion was now ,broken. so broken that she was beyond repair. It hurt him to see that the eyes that were once so alive so vivacious were now dull, now dead. But he won't leave her. never. he waited eleven years an he sure as hell would wait eleven more. a relationship was not always fifty:fifty. when one was down barely giving thirty percent the other would have to come up with the other seventy. and hopefully vise versa. that was how couple stayed together giving more at times and receiving more at others.

"Meredith, Mer listen to me okay. you are strong you say that you are dark and twisty but it isn't a flaw it's a strength. you've been to the very bottom and climbed right back up. this is not the bottom. this is still the top. and even though I don't know how you are feeling or understand your mentality. make me understand you. make me feel what you are feeling. Just please, please don't shut me out please."

She just had to ask a question even though she new the answer to it. she just had to hear him say it. Dewek, tha beby, wha happeth?" (Derek, the baby, what happened?)

His eyes, brightened those blue orbs that she loved so much filled with love and admiration. "Meredith you delivered at term. the baby is alive. she is okay actually better than okay she is healthy and beautiful and strong . just like her momma."

She delivered.

Her baby was okay.

She was alive.

Thank you Lord for having mercy on her small child.

She cried. sobbed till dark. she cried past the point of dehydration. they had to sedate her transfer fluids through her IV. she was beyond happy that she had delivered to term. So happy that she had her baby. and that she was alive and well.

"Dewek. whaths her neme?"( Derek what's her name?) she asked. As she lay on his chest. he played with her honey gold hair. scared that she'd hate the name. scared that she's hit him for naming her child such a ludicrous childish name.

He cleared his throat several times. " umm, Calliope ... Calliope Aurora Riley grey shepherd ." he gave her a sheepish smile. one a child would give a mother when he broke her favorite vase.

Wow that's a mouth full.

"It's... it's amazing Dewek. you chose well." She have him a chaste kiss and murmured a 'kenk you' (thank you).

He just smiled and said," why thank me for what any man would do, I took care of our children."

She just gave him a shadow of a smile. " no fo dat. Fo no givin uh on me"

He placed a kiss to her temple and said," your not getting rid of me that easy."