Complications

Chapter11

Dave looked towards the other paramedic as if asking whether or not to say anything

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"She's.................."

Oh lord just tell me already I'm about to shove my fist down your throat!!!

"Damn it tell me already!!"

"Fine she is critical broken bones,probably internal injuries, a lot of them I've paged dr.shepherd he should have gotten it by now"

Oh god No...No...No this is all my fault..

She sat up on her gurney ,cupped her face with her hands,trying to conceal her sobs.

What kind of mother am I ?

The paramedics repeatedly tried to get her to calm down using words such as sorry and I know how you feel

She hated when doctors say that because 12 out of 10 times (exaggeration) they don't and this was ones of those times though she wanted to snap at him she bit her lip hard until she tasted blood and managed to croak out

"With all due respect, but like hell you do, if you knew how I felt, even a fraction of the pain I feel not for my injuries but my fear of losing my one and only then you would have let me ride with her you would have more information!!"

He mumbled,"it's that I know how you feel, that I won't tell you more...."

She was sure he hadn't wanted her to hear but she did catch it and it made her feel like a bitch.

"S-S-Sorry....I d-di-didn't know.... I'm truly sorry" she muttered

God can u be anymore of an ass. I. am . a . total . bitch.

The ride to the hospital would be the longest ten minute ride of her life, partially because of the aching pain in her ribs, but mostly the sick thought that maybe,just maybe the paramedic lied and Lexie, her baby was in a black tiny body bag. Lord knows she tried and think positive but when you have a child on the verge of dying, try to think positive thoughts.... it is nearly impossible.

The Meredith grey you know, the single mother who works as a daycare manager, loves chocolate milk and hates coffee with a passion ...is only half the story. Meredith grey is a world renown pediatric surgeon. probably the best on the west coast. probably better than Derek. she had a sixth sense of what was wrong with the child before she even got a hold of the chart. all she had to do was take a good look at the patient and bingo... she knew what they needed. she also had a motherly bond with the kids especially the ones with shit parents or were adopted.

She stopped while on the move to southport because the only reason she pursued peds was because her best friend, maddi wanted them to share something. maddi was always jealous of Meredith for her skills while Mer was jealous of her confidence and body, although after college Meredith ditched the braces and her acne cleared up ,now she could turn every head in a room, man or woman.

Now that she wanted nothing to do with Maddison Meredith was going to have to ditch her one passion, being a surgeon.

So once the other side of Meredith kicked in, the surgeon side, Meredith knew the complications Lexie would go through, the struggle to recovery, the agonizing pain.. that was a main reason Meredith couldn't bare to think positive because she knew the odds weren't in her favor