Hey guys, gals, and non-binary pals!
I'm really sorry that this isn't an update but something happened and I wanted to share it with you in hopes of helping someone out there.
I have been terrified to come out as gender-queer for a really long time for many reasons. I already came out as gay once so I knew my friends would accept me, but I was still scared. What if I change my mind? What if they don't believe me? What if I won't like hearing they/them? And what if I disappointed people I cared about? So for awhile I just spent time figuring myself out and repressing it. Until today: the reason I am writing this to all of you.
Me and my friend always meet outside of the door when class is over. They came up to me super nervous and jittery and pulled me to the side and came out as non-binary.
I was so haply and proud of them! And as I saw how happy they looked, I realized that I didn't want to hide it anymore. I just wanted to be authentically me and free.
So while we were still hugging, I just said it. Their face lit up and they said they were so happy and proud of me. Me and them have a friend who's our "daughter' who came up to us and my friend told me to say it. And I did.
And then, later that day, I told my best friend in the entire world and she accepted me. And I am going to tell you one thing:
It feels so good to not have to hide it. To have people KNOW! It is an incredible feeling of liberation!
So my message to you is: don't keep it in. If you are in a safe place, and you know who you are, then don't be so afraid to tell people. I thought I wouldn't tell ANYONE until I started high-school, but I'm here. And for the first time, I can say I am happy with my gender identity and accept it, because of how amazing it feels to have it out there.
I know you are all fans of Thomas Sanders, which means a lot of you are probably lgbtqia+. So I just wanted to share this for any of you questioning or repressing who you are. Only YOU know who you are, and how you feel. It is ok to be scared, and it is ok to wait untill your ready or safe, but just... Love and embrace who you are because you are valid and worthy.
Again, so sorry this isn't an update but I really just had to put this out there for any of you who are struggling. Please comment your story of figuring yourself out because I want to hear from you lovelys! Stay safe, be happy, and untill next time...
TAKE IT EASY GUYS, GALS, AND NON-BINARY PALS I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
