dump (basura)

Entry #7

I'm stuck
I cannot move
I try to move but I can't
I feel something heavy on my arms
Something that feels cold
They're chains
Metal chains
Attached to a ball of iron
I try to move forward,
But the ball on the right becomes heavier and heavier each step I try to take

They speak
The ball on the left says:
This is what you want
The ball on the right says:
This is what you wanted
The ball on the right pulls me closer to it
I follow it
The floor starts getting wet from something coming from the ceiling
It tastes salty
I realise that is not the correct way
I try going to the left

But the floor starts getting filled with needles that hurt
Now the water from before is red
It tastes like iron
I try going to the right

But then the left pulls me closer,
I try to follow it, but the one on the right is getting heavier
I'm scared

I don't want to go to the left, or to the right

If I go left I will get hurt

If I went to the right I would get hurt

Where do I go?

I'm lost

I'm stuck

I cannot move

I try going forward

I'm still stuck

I try going backwards

The room is half full with water

It reaches my neck

The left says: Keep moving

The right says: Don't move

I don't know what to do

The right chain is starting to glow

It glows blue

It says:
You'll be happy once again here with me

The left chain grows arms

It says:
You have to keep moving or you drown

The right says:
If you go forward you'll never find happiness again ever

The left says:
If you went back you wouldn't find true happiness

The water fills the room

My arms are free

I can now move

The right says:
I'm the past

The left says:
I'm the future

Both say at the same time:
You need us both

The past says:
I built who you are today

The future says:
I will build who you are today

The room is filled with water

The present says:
You are living today
Not tomorrow
Not yesterday

You cannot fix the past
You cannot guess the future

But you can live today.