(Tyler's pov)
So there I was. With the phone in my hand in complete silence. Well again, my definition of silence. My thoughts screamed at me so so loud. Why the heck did I think it would be a good idea if I'd meet up with a girl I barely know. I'm already socially akward on WhatsApp and Instagram. How am I ever going to be able to have a conversation with her if I don't know what to ask without saying the wrong things. Oh no oh no oh no, I'm so not going. Yes that's the only way to keep things normal, good. No one should get close to me. I'm not a safe person to be with, I will affect your mind. I am no good. No one here should even bother talking to me as I am a freak, or well that's what they all call me. Josh is the only exception. But he's special. i somehow don't seem to affect him in any way and he always knows how to keep up a conversation with me. Me. And on top of all I am the most boring person you could ever meet, because I basically live in my room. I mean there has to be a reason everyone hates me, bullies me. And they're right, they're all right. I don't deserve to be on this world. I mean, I like the world, but I just don't like the way it makes me feel. It's weird maybe. I feel like I am at the verge of crying when Jay walks in. "So? What did you two talk about? What did she say? " Oh no. "Jay. She is not my friend, and not at all my girlfriend, I don't even like her! Well I mean she's friendly and nice yeah, but just... You know what I mean!" All he did was just giggle and I know that what I said is true, but I just made him believe the complete opposite. Sigh "We're going to Starbucks at 8" His smile dropped. That took him by surprise. I wanted to say "Yes Jay really,your brother is actually going out of the house to socialize with another living human being." But instead I said nothing. After a while he said "Sooooo... that's a date?" He smirked. Oh my God no no no. "No Jay, it isn't a date, likeI said, I don't even know her!" He was still smirking. "A date." He said, walking out of my room.
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(Jenna's pov)
"Mom! I'm going to Starbucks with a friend!" I said as I put my jacket on. "What? Really? Okay, have fun sweetheart!" I just knew she would alllow it. First of all she is just the nicest human ever, who gives me a lot of space and freedom, which are things I need very badly. Second, she is just happy that I'm finally picking my social life back up again. Lately I don't even have time for socializing. School is all getting a little too much and my family is, well, just my family. I just hope that I won't ruin my new opportunity for a friend. I hope people aren't going to be like 'Oh they're dating.' When we are friends. God who knows what that guy would think of me. Probably the same as everyone else. The weirdo. That's what some people at school call me. I hate those so so much, I'm just praying Tyler won't judge me too much, you know for the things I like and do. But I know that isn't going to happen. My hobbies are just too dumb and so am I. I feel like my head is going to explode any minute. I open the door into the nice, warm air and close the dpoor behind me after I set foot outside. I walk to Starbucks as fast as possible. Five minutes later I arrive. I take a deep breath and push the door open. The atmosphere here is nice. Not too busy, not to crouded and a nice smell of coffee. Then I notice him, in a corner at a small table next to the window. He is staring outside as I walk to him. "Hi there." I say with a smile on my face. "Hey." He looks directly at me now. I get rid of my jacket and sit down on the chair across him. "How are you? " He asks. "I'm okay I guess, a little stressy that's all, thanks. And you? " "I'm just a little tired I guess." I look at him and squint my eyes. He is definitaly not only tired. Somethiming is wrong, but I decide not to ask him about it. "Well, maybe a good up of coffee will help a little." I smiled. " Come on, let's order something."
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(Tyler's pov)
I saw it when she walked upto me. She literally has zero flaws. Then she sat down and talked a little. Her voice is sweet with a hint of adventure. And her eyes, woah. They're like the blue of a frozen river in the winter and it's just breath taking. We ordered our drinks and now she was sipping some of her frappuchino. "So." I started. "I have literally no idea what to talk about since I am like the most boring person you'll ever meet and after this night I'm sure you'll even lose contact with Maddy because you just really don't want to see me ever again in your life." It took a second, but then she started laughing. I nervously let out a laugh. "What? I'm serious!" I exclaimmed with a smile. That only made her smile bigger. "You know what Tyler. Let's be boring together then. I don't think you can be even more boring than I already am. I literally do nothing but being in my room reading books and listening to music. Literally all I do. It's either that or I'm stuck to my homework." She smiled. I smiled ack. An actual smile. That hasn't happened in a long time. "Hmm, I really don't think that's boring. I never leave my room. I always play ukulele or piano and write some ideas for songs. That's all and it's really stupid." Her smile dropped a little and she frowned. "How is it stupid?" "Well, everyone in school says it is. I'm in a band called Twenty One Pilots with my friend Josh. People call us Twenty One Freaks. They say we should stop being stupid and focus on being normal first. I wish we were sometimes, but on the other hand I really don't want to be llike those persons. I would never hurt anyone with words. That's not what I want. I really don't see the point of hurting someone.." I went too far on with that. She probably already feels lke she should leave me because I'm super weird. Isn't thatjust great? Maybe I broke a record. "Being in a band is not stupid at all. In fact it's really cool. I would love to hear you guys play sometime. Did you already make an album?" That was not what I expected. She honestly looked so interested. "We did actually, yes. We made an album and named it after the band. I have a copy of it at home, maybe I'll give it to you sometime. " What am I saying. Please take that back. I'm going to regret that. She can't heat my music. Not yet. It's too.. personal. "Some day, Tyler, Some day. I'll be waiting for that day. And looking forward to it already." She seemed so happy. I squinted my eyes and noticed blood on her hand. I decided to let it be and just ignore that. Why on earth was there blood on her hand? ' Calm down Tyler, not everyone is like you. She probably just accidentaly got a little wound, just randomly.' Yes that's it. 'She's not worthless, she doesn't do that. No. Unlike you she is actually cool, she could have a reputation. If you stay away from her. If you don't you know really well how you'll destroy her life and presence. Just like you did to Josh. He is a freak now too, all because of you Tyler. He was popular, had a good reputation, great and cool hobbies, good social life and you decided to take that away from him. You don't have the right to do that to her.' Blurryface. Shut up. "Shut up!" I quickly covered my mouth with my hands. "Is everything okay? " Jenna looked concerned. Honestly caring. Blurry was right, I can't ruin her life for her, that's just awful. I shook my head. "I'm so sorry, I should have never even came here. I am so sorry you had to talk to me and be with me this time. I won't search contact with you again, I promise, I won't ruin your life." I took it way too far again and stormed outside before she could react to what I just said.
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(a/n)
Heeeeeeey, so I updated again, as you can see. I'm sorry I had to quit here, but it's kind of late and I have to get up early tomorrow, hope I can update tomorrow too, have to work again. So I'm sorry if this was bad or anything again, hope you kind of enjoyed reading :) I tried, but I am not that good at writing but I thought like, well maybe I could give it a chance and yanno just write a fanfic on Wattpad to start. Sooo yeah, hope you have a great day/ night and hope you will continue reading my story in the future :) Thanks for reading if you read this, really appreciate it :)
