Searching For Something More (Brallie FanFic)

Callie's POV

Callie's POV:

"Even if it's not with you?" I held everything back, trying to convince Brandon that this is what I wanted. Yet he was my best friend.. he knew when I was lying.

I watched Brandon's eye grow a little larger at the thought of me being someone else and I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep for blurting out anything I'd regret. I wanted to just lean in and kiss him but I knew it was prohibited.

"E-even if it's not.." He paused and looked at his hand, I could tell he was in deep thought. "M-m-me". His stutter was showing more then ever, he almost never stuttered now a day.

"Brandon.. I.." I couldn't find the words I wanted to use.

"It's fine, I get it". I watched Brandon as he walked away.

I shouldn't be letting him but I had to. I couldn't afford to get hurt and I can't afford getting kicked out. I stared down at my shoes, trying to clear my thoughts. I had to talk to someone about this but I don't even know who I'd talk to. Brandon was really the only friend I had.

Brandon had told me that he just wanted to be happy but I realized that without him in my life, that'd never be possible. Plus, I cared about him and I really wanted him to be happy as well and I always see that when I'm with him.

I sat down and allowed some thoughts to fly thoughout my head when I heard a familiar voice. 

"Callie..? Is that you?" I didn't even have to turn around to see who it was, a huge smile arose on my face as I slowly stood up. 

"Jake, it's been so long!" I turn around and gave him a bear hug.

"Yeah, since the last time I was in group!" His laugh that I grew to love filled the air. "Are you okay?" 

"Not really, remember how I talked about the family I grew up with and we were best friends with?" I was just hoping he was listening when I talked. 

"Yeah, with Stef and Brandon." I gave a weak smile and continued.

"Well, when I was realeased after juvie I was sent to their house and they started doing papers to adopt me.." I trailed off, deep into thought but Jake brought me back,

"Soo.. isn't that a good thing?" He seemed as confused as I felt

"Well it would have been if Brandon and I didn't have feelings for each other.." I didn't really know what else to say. 

Jake and I sat in silence for a while, both deep into thought. I loved that there wasn't a second of awkwardness. 

"Kiss me," Jake finally said, breaking our silence and turning to me. 

"What?!" I question, confused as to if he meant it. 

"Will you just trust me?" Jake laughed as he began to lean in, there was a moment of hasitastion before I myself joined him. 

Our lips touched and I felt a slight butterfly grow, but not like the ones they talk about in the movies or books. We broke apart and I couldn't help but smile. 

"How'd that feel?" Jake questioned with the curiousity showing more then anything. 

"Ehh, nothing special." I said, being completely honest. I saw a flash of disappointment run through Jake's eyes but it quickly disappeared. 

"Cal, I know this house will be good for you and family is always first but I think this relationship with Brandon is something you want incredibly bad and your just trying to make everything work. I'm always here to talk and I'm guessing those moms of yours would love if you talked to them about it as well." Jake gave a slight smile. "I'll call you tonight,"

With that, Jake disappeared. I began my walk back inside the house when I saw Jude wide eyed. I let out an awkward cough, trying to find what to say to him. He knew Jake, but barely and now be saw me kiss him. 

"What the hell was that?" I was taken back when it wasn't Jude who was speaking. I turned my head to see a wet eyed Brandon, standing in shock. 

"That was Jake.." I awkwardly let out.

"And what the hell were Jake's lips doing with yours?" I heard more jealously in Brandon's voice then anything else. 

I turn to see if Jude was still standing around but of course by now, he'd escaped to his room. I braced myself for another conversation with Brandon about the same thing. 

"You said yourself that you were okay with me seeing other people as long as I was happy!" I spat out. 

Brandon stood, speechless as more tears ran down his face. Yet his eyes never left mine. "And you believed me.."

"What is that suppose to mean?"

"Sometimes I say things I don't mean! Callie, it kills me to see you with anyone else! I spend every single second thinking about you and wanting to be with you. I'm in love with you and nothing and no one could ever change that, okay?" 

"Brandon! What do you expect me to do here? It's forbidden!!" I could feel tears starting to swell in my own eyes. 

"Goddamnit, Callie! I DONT KNOW!" Brandon yelled. 

Scared, I take a step back. I could feel my eyes grow wide and Brandons turned soft again. 

"Callie.." He took a step closer to me, but I jumped back. He reached out for my arm but I pulled away. 

I turn around and start running out. Not sure where I was going yet but as far as I could get without them finding me. I run past my old house and familiar tree house, out of the neighboorhood and into the smaller size town. I could feel my breath starting to get heavy and I slow myself to a walk. Confused as to what I should do, I pulled my phone out of my pocket and before I knew what I was doing, called Jake. 

"Hello?" His voice was quiet until he heard my heavy breathing. "What happened?" 

"Can you come get me?" I said without a doubt. "I'm in town".

"I'll be there in five"

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