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35: His Only Sunshine

EARLY 1993
Azkaban Prison

SIRIUS BLACK WAS NOW thin from malnourishment and getting weaker by the second. He was now on the brink of madness and only two things kept him sane: 

His innocence.

And a thin band of cool metal that was on  the ring finger of his left hand that he managed to sneak inside on the day that he was imprisoned. He ran a finger over the ring and smiled weakly as he remembered the memory that came along with it.

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"I don't understand why men don't get engagement rings as well." Arabella whined jokingly as she looked at Sirius. He smiled at her statement, the skin around his eyes crinkling with happiness.

He looked at her with a small grin in which she returned. "I don't know, love. Gender roles maybe?"

"That's not fair! I want to buy you one as well." Arabella exclaimed, standing up from her seat with Sirius following her lead. 

"Why?" Sirius asked, grabbing his coat.

"I don't know, a reminder of how much I love you?"

"Okay but we'd be getting married soon anyway so I still don't quite see the point."

Sirius noticed Arabella's face fall when he said that. Quick to recover, "I'm sorry, love. I didn't mean it. I'd love to have one."

"Great! I'll go get Cass." Arabella said her face lighting up. 

Sirius sighed when she turned to get their daughter. "Besides, think of it as a placeholder for when we actually get married." Arabella called back.

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AS HE held Cass in his arms, he looked at the various rings out on display behind a pane of glass. Arabella was on the other side of the store, checking out some other designs as well.

Most of the rings Sirius saw were a little to showy or grandeur. It wasn't exactly his type. He looked at Cass and saw her head was lightly tilted and it looked as if she were examining the rings as well.

"None of these your type?" Sirius asked Cass but only answered with a small gurgle. "Yeah, me neither sweetheart."

Sirius was about to go to Arabella and see if she had any luck in looking for one when he heard a small squeal coming from his daughter. He looked at her only to see that she was pointing at one of the rings. When Sirius checked to see what she was pointing at he saw a ring only made out of thin band of silver. Easy to miss as it's so simple compared to the ones that surrounded it.

"You like that one?" Sirius asked his daughter but she could only respond with a toothless grin. Sirius smiled at this. "Alright then. Let's go tell your mother."

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SIRIUS HAD a sad smile etched on his features as he remembered that day. While the ring certainly helped him bring back some good memories he couldn't help but feel sad at the fact that they had never gotten married. 

He wondered how Belle was doing. Had she moved on? For her sake, he hoped she had. But for his own, he hoped she still thought about him. 

He wondered about his little Cass. Does she even know him? What does she look like? Did she look more like him or Ara? 

Then there's his godson, Harry. Were the people taking care of him nice? Was he doing okay? Will Harry remind him of James?

He also wondered how Remus was doing. Did he really believe that he betrayed their best friend?

And Peter? Well he just hoped Peter was burning in hell.

He heard footsteps approaching his cell and a familiar voice getting louder. He placed it as Cornelius Fudge.

Must be an inspection, Sirius thought.

As he walked past Sirius' cell, something fell out of the bag that he was carrying. Sirius went towards it and got it, only to see that it was an issue of the Daily Prophet.

As he read it he discovered how Harry was doing and 

that his old friend, Peter Pettigrew, was disguised as Harry's friend's pet rat.

Overcome with concern for Harry, anger for Pettigrew, and his desire to see Arabella and Cass, he used the little strength he had in him to transform into his animangus form with only one thought in mind:

He was going to escape Azkaban.

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hey guys! another update?? so soon?? who am i??

anyways, thank you for reading this mess of a story. We've only got about ten chapters left till it ends:(

this is just a little chap that takes place during the time that Sirius escaped. We're going back to Ara in the present in Hogwarts in the next chap. This is sorta like a filler (but i mean most of the chaps in this book are fillers tbh)

fun fact: i  wrote this part with the lyrics "you are my sunshine, my only sunshine. you make me happy when skies are grey. you never know dear, how much i love you. please don't take my sunshine away." stuck in my head and on repeat for some reason. it's now going on the playlist bc it kinda fits.

anyways, comment what you think and give it a vote if you think it deserved one.

lots of love and i'll see ya when i see ya,
arielle