The Duchess [3]

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Serayah

The last days I spent with alex is worth it minus the sneaky photographers I genuinely had the best time.Alex manage to clear my mind and I manage to get him to crack a smile despite what he must be feeling.Faye quit her job as his personal stylist.I remember how he looks like such a mess when he came for breakfast the next day after his concert.

The label said they received the resignation email few minutes before they called alex.How is alex?Well I could tell you he is not in a good state but I really do appreciate that he still went with me and do a couple touristy things.

I just kinda miss the old alex winter.But who could blame him.Heartbreak sucks.There are a million things  that you may feel during a heartbreak at times you feel angry and the next second you're sad again and then you feel kinda sassy like the 'They need me,I don't need them' kind of way and then the next second you're stress eating your emotions.In other words its just a time that makes you go through hell.

Alex has his last concert in belgium tonight before leaving for his next tour destination early tommorow morning and I will be returning to trau tommorow morning as well.I am attending his show tonight and am quite excited for it as well.For someone who just got his heartbroken and have been such a downer he is doing incredible in every shows he performs but I could not help but notice the change of tracklist lately.Almost all of his upbeat songs are replaced by his emotional songs.Of course his fans notice it too just yesterday #itsokayalex was trending on twitter worldwide.(Yes I managed to get myself to make a twitter account-a private one atleast.)It was cute to see all his fans trying to be there for him.

I took a bite of my chocolate cake when I was taken back when a group of little girls accompanied by their mother stood infront of my table."Are you queen serayah?"The little girl ask and I couldn't help but swoon at the excited expression on her little face. And I couldn't help but not correct my title."That would be me princess."I replied as I stood up from my seat and walk towards where she was standing and squat to talk to her.

"You're really pretty!"She exclaims and I let out a small giggle."Thank you but I must say you are a beautiful girl.Infact I think you three girls are very beautiful."I acknowledge the two other little girls who looks excited as the girl I am talking to.And they all smiled.For a moment the girl who I am talking to looks down to her shoes."Whats your name princess?"I ask her as she looks at me sadly "Flora" "Why do you look so sad flora?"I ask her as she looks me straight in the eye and I could see the sadness written in her eyes."I don't feel beautiful queen serayah."She answers honestly.And I could feel the ache in my heart.I could tell she is eight and she already is feeling very unpleased by how she looks and that is not right.

"Why is that flora?"I ask her as I took her tiny hands and held it."The friends I have in school they said I'm too fat and that I have an ugly smile."And the frown on her face only deepens as I glance at the mother who looks shock at this new profound information.

"They are not your friends if they don't find you beautiful.Everyone have a beautiful smile.Everyone is beautiful in their own way.Flora I want you to know that you are beautiful."I tell her while making eye contact before embracing her into a hug.

"Now what is your name?"I ask the girl who was a little bit taller than flora."Amy" she answers."Its nice to meet you princess."I said as I shook her hand."I have a question queen serayah"She says and I nod allowing her to ask me her question."Why do you call us princesses,does that make mummy a queen like you?"She asks and I giggle."Well amy,I call every little girl princess because they deserve to know that they are special and beautiful no matter who they are.As for your mother,I believe every mothers are a queen because they take care of us right and ut takes courage and strength to bring babies into this world and thats why mothers are queens.Now have I answered your question amy?"And she nodded with a smile before looking at her mother."Mummy do you hear that I'm a princess!"She exclaims making me smile.