The Duchess [3]

25

Serayah

I could hear it all,neymar's shouts outside the ward.Rafaella heels clicks as she paces and scott's reassurance.I am dying.Atleast that is what I think.

My kidneys are failing.Due to lupus.And at this moment there was nothing that could be done about it because there were no transplant available-It may take 7 to 10 years for a kidney to be transplanted but I don't have that time.Hence Neymar shouting outside the hallway.Ever since news broke I couldn't stop shaking.My mother as well as my sister is on their way and hopefully they bring davi as well.

But a question rise,I am pregnant what can-How? And I know its only a matter of time before I would lose the children in me.My body is too weak.

"Can you um call neymar in.I think thats um thats enough." I asked both rafaella and scott.
"What?"That made me flich the way Neymar answered rafaella."Sera is calling you in-" "I'm not done yet."He answers her.

"I know but neymar,imagine how it feels for her,she is in pain neymar and you screaming to the doctors like they have the power to control fate.It is not going to solve anything.So get your ass in there and comfort the woman!,she needs you."with that not a single word was uttered and soon Neymar came to view-wheeling to my bed side.His face flushed from anger but his eyes holds so much-so much fear.

"What rafa said-Its true ney.You can't hold the doctor accountable for something they themselves cannot control."In a soft spoken voice I spoke as he held my hands."I know,I just-I don't know what to do."And right then I am helpless,I couldn't find the words to even comfort this man.Hell I cant even find words to comfort myself.

"You were given 6 months sera to live and there are no possibilities of donations for another 7 years."He said and I nod gulping."I know ney,I know."I whispered.

Neymar had to go after an hour of just being by my side caressing my tiny pregnancy bump and pecking my temple hundred times.We laid there in my hospital bed-him having a difficult time to actually get on and off my bed that we had to call the nurse.I soaked it in his humming and him holding me.

It was difficult to make him leave for his physiotherapy but I managed to persuade him.My mother and sister came not too long after neymar left.

"We're gonna find it- a match,the kidney."That was the first thing my mum said when she entered."I'm going to review all the files of  fathers side aunts cousins uncles and mums side as well cousins aunts."Serane continued as they placed their bags on one of the sofas.I simply sighed.

"Hello to you too"I sarcastically answer and smiled while they gave me a smile but their eyes are full of pity.My mum came and gave me a peck followed by serane.

"How do you feel?" Serane asks as she grabs a seat.How do I really feel?Unabling to come up with words to answer her I shrug "peachy".

"What did the doctors say?"My mum asks,"What did rafa tell you?" I ask as try to sit up."That your kidneys are failing and that you need a match preferably soon."Thanking rafa that she would allow me to tell my mum the glum news.

"Well yes I do need a kidney as mine are both failing,But I um I have a limited life time,I'm given only six months to live maybe even less." The room fall silent only my heart monitor is heard.

And maybe thats when it set in-that I'm leaving soon.My mum will lose her youngest daughter,My sister will lose her sister,My niece and nephew will lose their only aunt,Rafaella and scott will lose their close friend,Zar will lose her boss,Alex will lose his best friend,Davi is going to be motherless and Neymar he would-he would lose me.And maybe thats why my doubts on marriage is answered because when you don't have much time left thats when you start to value the things that matters to you the most-the people who have impacted your life with love and the memories that you cherish.

"I don't-I don't want to talk about this.Please"I whispered and my mother take my hands in hers."I love you serayah.I love you so much and I want you to know that it is going to be okay-as he-god is the best planner."I nodded.

Serane told stories of the twins attempt to potty and iman being in her 'tantrum phase' and her considering to quit work and starting up an online business inorder to focus on raising her small family.Mother and I was okay with her decision just as long as she have think this through.

Soon the doctor came to check my vitals and I'm beginning to fall asleep.Mother sensing my tiredness encourages me to sleep as they are going to leave and pick davi up in an hour or two.

I woke up to soft murmurs and my eyes focus on the father and son cuddling in the couch watch the television that is set on football.Maybe the team they both favored goals as davi and neymar as well shouted "Goal!" and then they both shush each other.Then they whispered "Goal" with a huge beam of smiles on their faces. I giggled finding this situation funny.

If I leave they will-they will be alright.

"Mama you're awake."Davi basically leaped from the couch and walk to my side."Sorry were you waiting long honey?"I ask and he shakes his head."Not really I'm just hungry and I wanted to eat dinner with you and papa." I nodded at this as neymar wheeling himself to me,He might have better control of shifting between couches to his wheelchair.

"How are you feeling?" He asks

"Peachy."I answered and give a small smile.

Davi walked out of the room probably to call for dinner.Leaving neymar and I in the room alone.Neymar took this opportunity to stand up and kiss me.

I often speak my thoughts out and this is one of those times.Cause right after that kiss as neymar was caressing my cheek."Who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone?" and I regret it because the pain in his eyes.

He closes his eyes momentarily."Don't-Don't say that."I bit my lip to his response."Just for tonight-for dinner lets not talk about this for the sake of davi and my heart.Please"

Playing pretend to ignore reality is a coping mechanism for most and that includes the mighty king standing infront of me caressing my cheeks, who fears losing his love of his life-me.He kisses my temples and sat back down on his wheelchair.

"How was physiotherapy?" and he explain how every week he could feel himself return back to the way he walked before and how he could stand longer than he did yesterday and even leave the wheelchair for sometime-something to do with his muscle waking up again and gaining strength.

Davi came in with a trolley wheeled behind him by one of the servants."Food is here." And as if we were in the dining room in Hardive.The three of us had dinner and laughter sung through the room while neymar filled the night with stories of his past,davi comparing his actions with neymar.

And maybe that is how I want to be remembered,this is how I want to go.
With the laughters of happiness and joy from the two people I love so much.

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