The Duchess [3]

17.2

Serayah

After the interview zar said that it was time that I revisited what I wanted to leave behind.And I agreed mainly cause curiosity got the best of me and I wanted to see the new renovations.There in the end of the east wing sat the two what once brown is painted red huge doors but the gold handle stayed the same.

"The whole castle was renovated and then decorated although this room despite it being renovated-the king refused anyone to touch this room as he wanted to decorate it himself.Staff were only allowed to carry the boxes up to the door and he would be the one who brought it in.One particular memory that I think most will not forget is that he was out rage with wildof when he found out wildof has asked to banish portraits of yourself as well as family portraits that has you in it.Luckily enough those portraits were lying around in one of the dungeon rooms."I listened to zar as she filled me in with a little background of the room I was about to enter.

As zar opened the door my eyes first settled on the huge portrait of me in my wedding gown.That was the foyer of the room as a small cabinet was placed infront and ontop laid many candid pictures of neymar and I.

As I turned to enter the door leading to the room,I was again almost brought to tears with the thoughtfulness of neymar as he remembered the very first time we entered this room-I wanted this room to be painted a royal blue when the walls are in maroon and cream.What once was the art of the king in misery as the ceiling now was a different painting which I'm sure tells a different story.The walls are now painted royal blue.The used to be empty walls in the room is filled with milestones pictures all sized in a medium sized.One particular picture was the both of us kneeling to ascend the throne.The other was a memorable moment in paris where we 'tried' to act like normal civilians we took a picture in the infamous locket bridge.

One picture had our wedding portrait-to be exact it is one where we had our first dance.Below that particular picture it was an ultrasound picture of davi.And then below it had another candid picture of the both of us-a memory that I cant seem to forget-It was the moment the both of us found out about amelia.This picture clearly shown we were on a picnic date.

"He did all this?"I seek confirmation from zar."Yes."her answer was short but it was what I needed to hear."The king have always wished that you would come back and I don't know why but he was so confident that you would come back and have asked me to show you this room if you did come back and reminded me to tell you to look at the side drawers of the bed."She explains and I nodded before taking a seat at the plush sofa."I have been back for atleast a month or two-why didn't you show me then?"I asked with raised eyebrows."I wanted to wait for the right time and I wanted to show you this at a time where I know you're clearly sure of what you felt and after watching you answer that questions I knew that you had your answer but you are simply denying it." Zar sat next to me.

"As your friend and not as your confident.I want to remind you of the shortness of time.Any day from now the king can pass and yet here you are refusing to accept the fact that he is clearly inlove with you."She took my hands in hers in a way of comfort.

"I know its hard to forgive him.And I might never know what his intentions were when he was being unloyal to you but I do know one thing and that he is extremely sorry and regrets it.The past should be a history.We should be able to move on from this.And yes that information is new for yourself and you're hurt.You should be able to feel those.You're hurt-sure,You're sad- sure and you're angry okay but have you ever thought about the fact that this might be his final days.And you staying angry at him only make you lose more time."

"When he wakes up you demand for answers-you demand for truth and when he doesnt give that to you then you have all my blessings to walk away.But for now don't waste your time.Time is precious its even more precious when you know that the person you love is going to be gone soon."Zar completely took me back with how open she is being with her oppinion right now.

" Thank you zar,now I need some time to breathe." And she compiled to my wishes as she left the room.I was now alone in this room.I made my way towards my side of the bed before opening the first drawer of the side drawers.In it I found a black velvet box-Then I saw it the ring that I had removed.The band still fit from the day that I had said my vows when I slipped this ring for the first time.The diamond in the ring still looks clean.Removing it from my wedding finger and taking off the necklace that I was wearing-I easily slipped it onto the chain before again wearing my necklace.

Other than that necklace in it I saw the letrer I wrote opening it up I realized the tear stains and I knew that when I gave this letter there was none of it.Placing back the letter-I then pick up the picture that was already folded.Opening it up I realized it was a picture of amelia's ultrasound below it could be seen that neymar had clearly written "The little princess that had broken hearts."I spoke aloud.My hands coming to my mouth.

How selfish can I be!Clearly he was at the point of sadness as well-but I was so blinded by anger that nothing he said would make me believe him.

I closed the drawers and walked to his side and then scavenged to find the first was filled with nothing but papers and papers-But it wasnt just work papers or treaties or constitutions but instead it was handwritten personal notes that belonged to neymar.I decided to compile this notes or letters whatever fits best with its content before placing it next to me and below all those papers I found a picture of myself- below it 'To love and to hold'.

After reading the letters until the evening or dawn I realised he is the same man I married.The same men that swept me out of my feet.The same men I love and continue to preciously care for.But when did he become so good to hide all these emotions?.

"Duchess Serayah" Zar ran in the room,"I think its best if we make our way to the hospital." She requested."What is wrong zar?"Asking her as I stand to my feet."Its the king-He suffered another heart attack and his condition don't look so good."And it is with that did I take myself out of the room and straight towards the car that was ready for me.

I prayed as I held onto my wedding ring closing my eyes and imagine of the paradise on earth but nothing come to view except the vision of neymar and davi.

Please don't take him now.I rubbed my stomach where a small visible bump can be seen-there are so much more chapters that we have yet to overcome.

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