The Duchess [3]

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Serayah
It was midnight as I sat upon one of the balcony of hardive with a peppermint tea on hand and a warm furry robe to shelter me from the night breeze without notice neymar had gently put my hair on the other side and pamper my neck with soft kisses.I relaxed to his touch almost immediately but I was distracted afraid to bring this up.

But we were both adults and this needed to be solved before we were to get remarried. "Neymar we need to talk."I said slowly and gave him a small smile to show him that I didn't want to turn this sweet moment into one of bitterness.

"I hate that sentence but what is on your mind love?"He asks as he wraps his arms around my waist pulling myself to lean onto him."You have a child ney"I said gently and he hummed "yes davi I know" "No-one that you are the father but I'm not the mother"I said lightly and his body fallen into rigidness.

"Where are you going with this?"He asks and I recognize his voice one of defensive tone."I want you to have a relationship with your daughter-not our daughter but your daughter with one of your mistress."I requested and he looks at me as if I grew two heads.For a while there was not another word exchange between us.

"I've always wanted to explain myself why I had done what I did." He says "I was so busy trying to conceal the pain by going back to the old ways before I met you to numb in all I guess it was because I was at those stages of reluctance and trying to go back to those ways kind off just makes me feel like it wasn't happening and it was just a bad dream.Only I was digging myself into a deeper and darker hole rather than finding the light and I was recklessly leaving you and davi by your own.I was failing as a king as a husband and a father."He explains and although what he did was wrong somehow I could understand where he was coming from.

"I guess what woke me up was when you were losing from my grasp and I realize my antics was just jeopardizing everything that I have to live for you and davi."He says and I nodded walking to him as I positioned myself on his lap his arms wrapping around my frail body."But I want you to repair the relationship you have with your daughter neymar-I'm willing to accept her."I said and he shakes his head "I don't want to remind myself of my mistakes" and I showed him my disappointment."Neymar whether you like it or not she is your child.Your own blooded child.Dont view her as your mistakes but as always children are blessings.She could be the potential heir to trau's throne ney.She is a princess that might not be mine but she is yours.Dont treat her anything less than you treat davi.Or for god forbid you will regret it." I encourage but gently scolding neymar.

He seems to think of it."You won't leave me right?" he questions and I shook my head. "No ney,We're renewing our vows soon.Its time to start fresh and I want your daughter apart of it."I reassured him and he nodded.As we connected our hands my engagement ring shone due to the fire from the fireplace.

"When do you want to tell the world?" He asks and I sighed."Two days after rafa's wedding?"I question and he nodded. "What about our engagement,when do you want to tell the world?"I asks softly. "One week after rafa's wedding and then three days after the announcement we will have our own private wedding."He says and I nodded it may seem that we were rushing things but when time is so limited.Everything just needs to be in a rush.

"Honey" I call for him as I was still on him and his arm secured around me. "I know you don't want to talk about it but when I'm gone please don't be so hard on davi or rafa or scott.I want davi to still have connections with my mum and my sister.Maybe you can take him back to my mums place someday when you need a peaceful break.I want davi's future wife to inherit my engagement ring and I want your daughter to have some of my jewels-I would discuss this with zar but I figured you should know." I said softly and he sighed but nodded.

"I don't know what I'd do without you sera,I really don't." He whispers. "I cant lose you not when things are beginning to look better."He confesses and I wipe the silent tears that caressed his cheek.