The Duchess [3]

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Serayah

"Alright then I guess I'm all done here.And will leave your royal highnesses alone."The doctors left with rafa  and neymar still had a terrible cough.Awkwardness filled the room,But I could feel the emotions coming through me distracting myself I walked to the closet to get even more pillows.

Walking up to him.I am drowning in all these emotions-I just don't know what or how to feel,What to say-"Sit up."as I helped him fix the pillows so he could sit up right comfortably.

Once he is sitting comfortably.I stood up next to his side.We remained eye contact.As I got myself to touch his wounded head wrapped with a bandage.He closed his eyes in my touch carefully I caressed it before he took my hands in his and place a small affectionate kiss on my palm.

My eyes are welled up with the emotions that I've kept for so long.He looks up at me."Let me hold you."slowly but carefully I lay next to him as he wraps his arms around me.

"I almost lost you."I whispered."Shh"He quiets me as he caresses his fingers through my hair."You scared me."I whispered,"I'm here now."He answers as he comforted me."Me almost losing you forever changes-everything."I confessed as he just caresses my back."I hope you won't run away sera."And when he said that was like losing me was the worst thing that would ever happened to him despite him being tied to all these wires and still have physical wounds to cure-Me leaving is still what pained him the most.

So I sat up and looked at his eyes."You will always have me neymar,I experienced it first hand what it felt like to lose you to death-and I hated it.I know there are things that we still have to figure out but I don't want to lose you neymar.So whatever the plan is for the future I want you to know-I'll give you my hundred percent if you would give me the chance to?"I spoke as I carress his cheek."Thats all I ever wanted baby."He whispered as I leaned in to give a kiss.When we pull apart he was still weakly touching my cheeks.

"By the way rafa knows that I'm pregnant."I told him."Its time anyways."He answered before carefully I lay back down.Humming he slowly but still a little weak run through his fingers through my hair.

I woke up to Rafaella and scott's murmuring in the corner of the room.Neymar was still asleep and I removed neymar's hand that was loosely holding me before climbing out of bed.Rafa watching me like a hawk."Rafa we need to talk but first I need the loo." She nodded and I made my way to the bathroom.By the time I walked out from the toilet neymar is awake and is talking with scott about god knows what.

Rafa looked at me and smiled."Ready?"She asks and I nodded before we left in which imnot really sure where we're going I said my goodbyes to neymar by giving him a kiss and rafa making the eww sound."I know what you want to ask so ask away." I broke the silence once we settle down at the hospital garden bench while I ask one of the security detail to grab myself an apple smoothie and rafa requesting a hot white coffee."How far along are you?"She asks and I looked straight ahead but answers her question "Around 3 months" "You're going to start showing soon" "I know actually theres a small bump but you can't tell until well you know I am pregnant."I explain with a small smile."So what does this leave you with neymar?"And I sigh "I know I want to be there for him and the children but I think what I am most afraid for is the backlash this would shake the country."I answered her "Re-marry"Rafa suggested and my breath hitched.

The thought of marriage with neymar is scarier than everyone thought.Many individuals does not see the idea of marriage like how I see it,It might be because that I am a divorcée.But the idea to get married again is scary.I see marriage as something that I would love to have but a destruction of the word love.Its weird but the experiences that I have been throught might be why I see marriage that way.