The Duchess [3]

26

5 Months later

Serayah

The waves crash in and then flows backwards to the ocean unknown.The sounds of the waves and the sandpiper is what fills me in.I lost the babies three months ago just after being diagnosed-just when I found out that I hadn't had much time to leave.

At four months in the hospital,I got tired of the doctors and the nurses and the medical attention.I just wanted my life back.I requested for treatment in my mothers house.Where I felt like settling in for now.But what is treatment really when there is no cure but a new kidney.

I close my eyes and felt the soft sea breeze against my skin.As neymar wraps his arms around my fragile body and we sway.There was no music playing but we swayed.A kiss upon my temple and I let out a small smile."Neymar"I softly called upon him as he hums in response and we watch the sunset goes down."When I go this is where I want to be laid at next to the sea."And he shush me and held me tighter,not wanting to think about the idea that I had not much time left.He knows and sees,Davi knows and sees it to.Rafa and scott as well.And I couldn't pretend to not hear my mother begging the lord for my strength.

"As long as I'm breathing sera I won't give up on you.I won't let you go.I will-"His voice breaks a little "I will do every thing in my might to help you heal,I promise sera"And there was a stern tone in his voice that cause me to believe that maybe yes.Maybe this days are not my last moments and just maybe I would be able to be here when davi is gone.

When night came,Neymar and I headed inside.He held me to provide warmth by draping an arm over my shoulders as we walk back to the house.As we entered the house,the smell of dinner filled our noses.

"Honey made your favorite today,Roasted chicken and potatoes."My mother called out and davi ran towards neymar and I.When I decided that I wanted to settle with my mum for now,Neymar and davi didn't hesitate and moved in with me.Leaving Hardive Castle under the care of Rafa and Scott.But often Neymar had to travel back to hardive for king duties and work.

As we gathered around the table-neymar draped a scarf around me and sat next to me whlist davi sat opposite us and mother head the table."Who's going to read tonights prayer?"We do this every night prayers before dinner and it has always been alternative turns and tonight its davi's.

The little blonde boy grinned in excitement making neymar and I chuckle.We link our hands together and close our eyes.

"Dear father,I want to thank you for giving us another chance to eat dinner together as a family.I know grandpa is with you and so are my siblings thank you for taking care of them.I want to thank you for the blessings you have given us today and may grandma allow me to eat some ice cream tonight."The adults chuckle at davi's almost heartwarming prayers before we started to eat.

As Neymar and I wash dishes,davi and mama had their bonding time."Oh I have to head back to hardive for the night.If thats okay with you?"Neymar asks and I nodded,I will not hold him back from things he have to get done."I hate leaving you but the British Royals are doing their commonwealth tour-" he went on a full on explaining mode "Hey hey"I placed my dried hands on his cheek and plant a small kiss."Honey its alright mama will be accompanying me tonight.There is completely nothing for you to worry about."I placed another small kiss.

"I know this sounds selfish but it would be nice if you would be there with me.Next to me as I greet them.I don't know I just keep picturing you standing there looking so beautiful in your queen-ly attire and during the banquet you would be there in your dress and your crown settles upon your head"We were now cuddling in bed davi in between as we both tuck him to sleep.

"But I want you to rest.It was just I think of that and I remember that wow there is no one in this world that I want by my side to do all these duties but you.What I'm trying to say is Duchess Serayah you might not want to say yes but one day as we get passed this hurdle,I'll make you my queen again and we will continue to be the best partnership that this kingdom have ever done"

"I know I have promise you that before but this is different.Do you know why?" He whispers as he asks. "why?" I question as now my fingers were running through davi's blonde hair and my eyes focuses on the little boy."Hey look at me" He says and tilting my chin for me to look at him.

"Because I have felt the feeling of losing you.And through that process I have lost myself.I hated that fact that I promised you the world and yet I could barely make you happy.I know our marriage didn't work out and I know that is the reason why you won't marry me at a heartbeat.I know that I have made you felt isolated during the period of our marriage.But sera believe me"His eyes well with tears.

"I have grown and saw and felt how it was without you,how it felt like losing you to someone else and even to death and I realized and I'm so fucking angry at myself because I had you.I had the best wife,the mother to my child,the best partner and even trau had met
the queen of their hearts but I was too much of a coward and I let you go and leave."There was something about the fact that our first born is between us and the room is dark only the lamp on the corner of the room to gave a little light and Neymar confessing-something that I barely see a side of that made me just want to marry him right there and then.

"I love you sera"He declares and his eyes held so much meaning as I wipe the tears away from his cheek.

"I love you too and because of that ney,lets go back to hardive together tonight."Neymars eyes widened slightly.

"As much as I want you to go with me.You need to rest."He whispers as davi moves a little that I knew we had to leave.So I kiss davi's forehead as we tuck him in and left the room.

"Neymar I've had much rest.I want to be out there maybe not with you but I want to be wherever you are-be it by your side or on the shadows.You will always have me and my support and my heart.No matter what."It was midnight and having this conversation at that time at the fireplace of my mums place could never have beat the raw and powerful meaningful words that we were saying to each other.

"You won't ever be on the shadows Sera.If you will then you can be next to me through everything and anything publicly or privately."Neymar says. "There is nothing I wish more than to tell the world."He continues and I gave him a small smile as he wraps his arms around my waist and pulled me closer and we were now fully embracing each other.Neymar leaves small kisses on the top of my head.

For the first time I was ready to let go of the fear of marriage.The amount of security neymar have given me these past few months.The fact that he never fails to be next to me throughout this whole stressful lupus process.

Yes we were naive and young and probably in the early stages of love when we first got married.But that marriage had thought me to be strong and have given me and neymar so many lessons to learn from and blessings.This led to us being more mature of the decisions we make.Thats why I confidently asks; "Does the offer of being your wife again still stand?".Neymar look at me like I have grown to heads.

"I have always seen you as my wife and the offer is never cancelled."He says as we kissed in the hallways of my childhood home.

Neymar and I pack my bags for my stay in hardive.Driving back to the castle where soon I'm ready to take up the position as queen again.

Nissa Mail✨
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