Routes,Hope and Fam

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Rose
6 months earlier

I waited outside the class for Paige so we could enter together.But she never appeared,I saw her younger sister Nina who was also in our class appear from the corner and my heart leaped with hope that she is here.But I expected to soon
"Nina where's Paige?Please Don't tell me she isn't here!" I pleaded
"She dint come today"she replied
I wanted to run out of the school,sit in a taxi and go beat up her ass and scream at her.But instead I just entered the class keeping my head low and sat in my seat.
The first class was English and the last English class didn't go very well.She had the entire class to ask questions but instead she found me amusing. Miss Evon to much to my amusement.I sighed under my breath

"How many subjects did you fail?" I looked up and saw Miss Evon interrogating me
Honestly doesn't she realize she shouldn't be asking something so treacherous to someone who is already drowning sitting here.
"Two" I replied without any expression
"You should have worked harder right?!" It came out more like a question.Can you please stop making it worse,stop questioning me further.I know my fault so stop talking.
I simply nodded not wanting to make any more conversation. I get it god you truly love me.

The class ended as slow and killing as it could.It felt like it would never end.She wouldn't stop questioning me and the class wouldn't stop bickering and laughing about it.Like do you guys find my situation this funny well then I hope you all get into a situation that I can laugh on.I wanted to get up and scrap of the dirty and hideous looks off their faces.

I dint head down for break instead stayed seated glued to my seat until Jojo entered the class. Jojo was from the previous batch I wouldn't call her nice or bad.The term I would use for her is Double Faced.She just used people for her use and I really dint like her company.If she can use people I can use her to get over with the time.So I used my time wisely with her.
"Hey how is it going till now? Made any friends?"Jojo asked looking for some story she could enjoy.But I wasn't gonna give her one
"Nah.I am enjoying scraping this paper off my desk"I said pointing at the table.She let out a little laugh
"You should try talking"
"It's not that easy and precise they all hate my what do you want me to do stand up and be like I am not what you think and I actually don't have to prove anything to them"
"Yea you don't have to but you gotta make a move"
"I am good besides Paige will be here soon" i said wanting to kill Paige for ditching me.This is not something new.I should be used to it by now.i mentally rolled my eyes.
"I'll see you around then" I nodded agreeing as she left and three girls entered the class.The sat right opposite me on the first bench.Two of them wore glasses,one had really frizzy buffed up here the other one had medium length hair while the third one was short and had the perfect long straight hair and had a resting bitch face. Attitude bitch.

"I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YOU CAN HONESTLY JUST DIE!"I screamed at Paige while pacing around in my room
"I am sorry I swear I'll come tomorrow I just couldn't get the guts-
"YOU COULDNT GET THE GUTS TO GET OUT OF YOUR BLANKET SO YOU DITCHED ME!DO YOU KNOW WHAT I WENT THROUGH!I WANTED TO CRY AND SCREAM! YOU KNOW WHAT I WANTED TO JUMP OFF THE BUILDING"
"I am sorry"
I could never get mad at her.She would always make me happy and give me hope.I cooled down but still decided to act mad
"Whatever"
"Oh come on,i promise I will come tomorrow"
"You better come otherwise I will plan out how to kill you which I mentally have prepared but will find a hard way"
"Kill me already please"
"SHUTUP! What will I do"
"Join me"
"Done.What do you want to do jump off a building or shoot each other?"
We both were silent for a half minute and laughed out loud
No matter how sad or hard the situation was we would always find a way to laugh.Dayum Paige you are the bestest of friends I could have.Thank You God for blessing me with her.

I grabbed my uniform that was a white collared full sleeved shirt with a blue vase coat on top including a blue tie resembling what house I belonged to.I wore my blue pants and black shoes,tied my hair in a pony tail grabbed my bag and headed out.
I used to like school since I had friends I still do but not too many.I hate thinking of school I hate going to school it's torture for me.I can't sleep or eat all I want to do is cry but I can't cry the tears won't come anymore.It feels like someone's holding my heart in their hands and squeezing it tight I can't feel it.My feeling my emotions nothing.I never want to have friends anymore.I want to be alone and never talk to anyone I am done with everyone in my life.I will grow stronger and stand for myself.But I wound let myself cry or hurt.Ill do this for my parents,for my siblings and myself.I never want to fall in love or interact with anyone.
"We are here"I broke off with my thoughts and looked at dad
I got out of the car and headed to class-
"ROSE" I saw Paige screaming
I smiled widely that my jaw hurt
"OH MY GOD PAIGE FINALLY!
I went up to her and hugged her and I saw the girls from our class helping her get a table to sit beside me.i think it was Normes.
Normes looked cute but from my perspective she looked like a little goon.She definitely walked like one.She was short black not too short hair wore glasses and was skinny but not Narita skinny.
Normes was good with her studies,she has had good grades and I guess is helpful.And her best friends of course Yasmin and Elisha. I knew Yasmin but Elisha I wasn't a big fan of her elder sister and we were on rough edges so I never liked anyone of them.
Elisha was bulky and fair,with brownish blonde dyed hair .She pretends to be fashionable and all girly.All of us are girly but not to her extent.I love the girly things but what I love more are my pajamas and pizza.

"She's cute"I looked at Paige who was pointing out to the girl I called attitude bitch
"No she's not she's a bitch"
"How do you know?"
"She was here yesterday and the attitude was on the rise"
"So you called her a bitch?"she asked wiggling her brows
"Uh..yea..whatever I just know she's a bitch"
I simply judge too fast now.Its one of my super powers now.
She shook off the topic and started ranting about business.
One fact about Paige:MAJOR SCARY CAT
She was always afraid of the teachers especially the business and the English teacher.If we got one minute late to class she would think we would get expelled.

Expelled
I bit my lip because I knew what was coming. I couldn't hold back once works and my entire past starts playing. It's like someone has created series out of this.
FLASHBACK
"Your daughter is expelled" the head principle said those four words simply to my mom.Who had tears in her eyes and was emotionally hurt.
I looked at my mom who was now staring into my soul.I wished I could bury myself right this instance.I wanted to hug someone,cry and tell them that it's hurts
It hurts so bad.I don't think I could ever keep up with myself.God if you truly love me just finish me already.I can't I am already a burden on my parents now.They will have to carry this ugly burden who has broken the family.I don't deserve to live anymore I should probably end myself.
I'll end myself.
"At the moment the admissions are closed and I don't think any high standard school will take her since she hasn't even passed her exams.But she will have to give her re-exams since those are the school rules"
"Rose you have always been such a great student amazing grades no complains you got on the wrong track and I hope you learn from your mistakes"

Only if I survive today

I just couldn't handle the situation anymore.I knew I would eventually do something to myself.
"Girls please head out your moms will be out in a moment"
We headed out.
How did I,we get expelled?
When we tried on the cigarette Narita posted the video on social media which was viewed by the head principles daughter and she being a good fairy showed it to her mom. It wouldn't bother them that we tried it out somewhere but what bothered them was it was in school premises.
The video showed me off perfectly.It showed how great I looked doing the dirty work.
I regret it all.In the end we all regret.
I found this cool how could I?i was never this? Paige tried to stop me but I neglected her.
Stubborn
I did what I felt right
I wished I could turn back time or just never wake up again.
Dad
Will be so upset.I am going to be dead for him when he finds out.

We got home in silence and my mom didn't say a word to me and asked me to just get away and so I slept,crying.
How can you let me enter the house mom?
How can you trust me?
You should have thrown me under the cars mom?
Why would you let me sleep?
You should give me a slumber forever

"GET OUT!" I looked at dad who simply asked me to get out.Tears started flowing and my heart started aching while my head was spinning and I was gonna crash anytime now.
"Get out and never show me your face again"
"You are not my daughter anymore,not worthy of being a daughter"
I deserve this.Hit me.Kill me.
"Dad please don't do this give her a chance" I looked beside me and saw Hope standing there in the doorway begging dad to forgive me.
Why are you standing up for me?
I don't deserve it
Let him do it!
"Does she deserve one Hope?"
"Yes dad she does you know she went on the wrong track but she can fix it" she looked at me with hope
We named her Hope because she was hope of the family.
My hope to a chance
"After this You still think hope"
"I know dad you can't hate her you love her too much and you even know it was a mistake everyone makes mistakes for me just give her a chance you me mom everyone loves her too much to kick her out please dad" I saw her join her hands together and beg dad
No matter how much we fought or argued I loved her so much and I never meant to harm or let anyone down but I did.
"Just get out"he replied
"Dad I am sorry give me a chance"
"I said out I don't want to see you" he got up and went to his room while Hope ran after him
"Just leave her she has to give her exams then we will see what to do about her"mom said to dad
"What exams? No way am I letting her give her exams!she is getting out NOW!"
"Dad I am begging you to just give me one chance"
"Dad please"Hope pleaded
Hope was seven years old and for her age she had a lot of sense.She sat down on dads lap and hugged him
"Please dad"
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-Menahil