Routes,Hope and Fam

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Rose
"Slow and easy"we walked Paige into the apartment every step slow and steady.Paige is vulnerable,afraid.She has always been captive of the outer world always trying to hide but now she wants to stop existing.She only has us to make her life colorful again before we lose Paige.
"I want to sleep"Paige said
"Yea alright it's eight already you must be tired come on"Areen said getting up to help her
"I can walk myself"she said a bit harshly
"ThankYou though"she turned around trying not to make it awkward or act stubborn
"Give her time"Helen said
"She's been through to much she needs time"Zendaya said
"I'm gonna cook some veggies and shakes"Mavy said and we all nodded
I got up from the couch and headed to my room.I locked it behind me grabbing my journal and started writing in it.

15thMarch2018
It feels as if my whole world is crumbling down, my happiness has been depleted, and I  feel as if I am  losing an important part of myself . i constantly am closer to tears while I am struggling to hold it together. I worry with anxiety that I'll  be lonely forever, and I can't sleep at night. I crave his  touch, the one who used to alleviate my pain by holding me when I was sad. That person is no longer there.
He isn't there.He isn't there to tell me that he loves me or he'll be there for me. I loved him with every bit of my heart, now it feels like someone is stabbing me right in my heart and i cant do anything but to keep watching helplessly.
I feel like im lost , broken,cheated, hopeless, unwanted, lonely, helpless.
My heart has stopped pumping blood
My veins are dried
My bones have been crushed
My throat is being chocked
I have been ripped apart

I wrote as streams of tears flowed down my cheek landing on my journal.

"This time I don't think I'll make it"

Aaron
I called her day and night,I tried explaining I tried reaching but all the tries were just tries.She wouldn't believe me she wont look at me she won't talk to me.I haven't seen her for the past three days and it's killing me everyday the girls wouldn't let me meet her they wouldn't let me explain or hear my side of story.
"Aaron honey come down for dinner we have been calling you for the past thirty minutes"mom called
"I'm not hungry"I replied
She walked over to me sitting next to me and lifted my shin up
"What's wrong?"she asked withe concern and I dint reply I just looked at the picture next to my bed
"Rose and you?"she asked and I nodded slightly
"She thinks I cheated on her"
"Did she say that herself?"she asked
"No"I said
"Mom I don't know what to do I love her so much I-I-
I lost my words hiccuping and hugged her
"If you truly love her then fight for her,run after her and never give up"she said picking me up
"My boy is a grown man now I think he should know how to earn his girl back"she smiled running her hands through my hair

I am going to get her back

I walked down the dark alleys that I used to troll around before Rose came into my life.I would practically live here.
"Aaron my man"Cole appeared from the alleys
Cole and me were the closest friends until I left the business we haven't seen each other for months now and am still welcomed.
He was a jet black haired guy with a hulk muscular body covered with tattoos and grey eyes that shifted shades.
"How about a look around?"we walked towards the streets where all the fights and races were conducted
"OUR MAN AARON NOAH IS HERE!"he screamed and everyone lifted their beers screaming
"Here mate toast"he handed me a beer lifting it up and everyone screamed
"Tell me what brought you here?"he asked sitting on a white chair and strangling his legs on the table
"Just wanted to reunite my old times and buddy"
"Anytime for you mate"we first bump
"Aaron meet him Augustus Luke"He introduced me to a red head pierced tattooed guy.
"Our best racer....after you"he winked
"Aaron"I shook his hand
"Well I can make the after you change"he smirked
"It's a risk racing Aaron"Cole replied
"Still got it mate?"Augustus asked
"It runs in our blood"I replied
"Then I dare you for a race"
"I don't do that anymore"
"Afraid?"
"Never.I just don't do it anymore"
"If you change your mind I'll be here"he smirked and left

Rose
"Breakfast?"Mavy asked
"No"
"Rose you cant sto-
"I'll get Paige thank you though"I Cut her off and walked to Paige's room
The room was empty and the sheets were muddled
"Paige?"I walked in looking at the floor with pictures muffled around and heard the shower running.
I knocked be door earring it "Paige are you ok?"I asked
I heard muffled voices from inside,hiccups and sniffs
"Paige"I called out
"I'm so sorry"the door was locked so I grabbed a bobby pin and opened it.I looked at the bath tub flowing with water and Paige sat in it with the shower running.
"Paige"I closed the shower and pulled her out and sat on the bathroom floor hugging her
I grabbed the towel and covered her and hugged her trolling with her.
"Ros-se-e I-I-I—-
"Shhhhh you will be fine I am here Paige I'll always be here"
"Look at me"I pulled her shin up
"Do you believe in me?In god?"
"I don't know if I do"
"Where the Paige that believed?"
"She's not there"
"She's right here but she's too afraid to say it"I said pointing her heart
"I believe"she shivered
"Then you will get your justice"
"I'm sorry I cant help you Rose"
"It's my turn to help babe don't push it"I smiled picking her up from the bathroom floor and got her some warm cloths
"Change I am standing outside"I said standing outside her door
She walked out in warm cloths and I held her walking to the dining where everyone sat eating breakfast in silence
"Nothing Junk all healthy"Helen said
"Mama Mavy made it"
"You are going to eat a lot of fruits and vegetables.Take lots of rest and drink milk"Mavy said
"Can't wait to see your kids"
"Her kids will come to us for junk"Areen laughed
"Get married.Someone get Roscoe"Mavy blushed
"No Samantha will"Paige said
"And she talks too"Aria said causing us to laugh

Knock
There was a knock at the door and we all looked at each other
"I'll check"Areen got up
"Areen let me"I got up and walked to the door
I felt my heart beat constantly and my blood pump rushing in my veins.I opened the door revealing a dark haired boy with dark bags under his eyes and deep blue eyes,his lips were solid red and he was pale.His hair were messed around and he looked like he hasn't slept for days.My heart pinched as he looked in my eyes and all I wanted to do was mingle into him.

"Aaron"

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-Menahil