College Boy [h.s]

Twelve.

"Stop the car! Pull over, dammit!" I screamed, tears already streaming down my face as Louis slammed on the brakes, carefully parking on the side of the road.

"Shit, shit," I kept repeating, the short run to the car feeling like an eternity.

Soon enough the girl that had swerved him off the road had gotten out, unscathed save a small cut on her forehead, and began to walk towards me.

"Dammit!" I exclaimed, the door so crinkled I couldn't pry it open. "He's dying in there."

I could barely see because I was shaking so hard and the tears poured down my cheeks.

"Call the fucking police, for fucks sake, somebody help me!" I screamed, looking back at Louis who was just standing behind me in shock.

A certain strength coursed through my veins as I used all my power to pry the door open.

"Oh god, Is he okay!? I didn't mean to, I swear. Oh god," The girl kept repeating, biting on her nails as she stood waiting for a response from me.

"Ambulance is on the way," Louis said.

"Louis, help me, please!" I begged, and he snapped out of the state and came over to pull the body onto the ground out of the car.

"Holy shit," Louis exclaimed looking at who he'd just pulled from the vehicle. "I'm sorry— I—I didn't know..." he added, understanding why I was in such a panic.

I silently thanked god for the CPR course I took 3 years ago in my 'wanna-be-nurse-phase' and began the process on his already cold body.

"Zayn, come on, you're okay," I pleaded, trying to calm myself down as much as I could as I used my hands to respirate his chest.

I must've sat there, blood drenching my clothes and face for ten minutes before Louis pulled on my shoulder. "Cmon Teagan, they're here, you gotta let up."

"No," I whispered, not getting up from the ground, even when the men from the ambulance surrounded me, I didn't want to get up.

But I did.

Watching them lift his lifeless body into the stretcher is a memory that will haunt me for the rest life.

He was pronounced dead at 12:22 a.m at Elizabeth Torres Memorial Hospital.

The entire next day I just laid in bed and felt numb to the world, crying once every couple hours, but mostly just feeling like I was being repeatedly stabbed with a knife right in my fucking chest.

I kept thinking about the way he said goodbye to me, at the store. That was our goodbye forever. Neither of us knew it, but it was.

What kind of fucked up luck is it that I had to be the one to find him dead on the side of the road?

"Knock knock," I heard Louis say around 2 in the afternoon.

"Come in.." I mumbled to him outside and he opened the door with a frown and came over to my bed.

"I'm so sorry, I would've stayed with you but I had to go to classes today. Teach has been on my arse about attendance," he reasoned.

"No, no. You're fine. I probably needed the time alone anyway..."

"No you definitely didn't. You probably went to some pretty dark places today with no one here to take your mind off. Honestly where the fuck is Harry when ya need 'im?" He stated with a tinge of annoyance.

"He has no idea any of this happened. What am I gonna do? Text him 'hey my ex boyfriend di-.." I stopped mid sentence and gulped at the word. Don't cry. Not in front him right now.

"Aw Tea, do you want me to text Harry? He'll come yknow, he will,"

"No. Don't, god, that's just embarrassing. Look at me, I don't want him seeing me like this," I said. My hair was a mess, my nose was running, my eyes were red and the floor was covered in wet tissues.

"You're beautiful," He said with a smile, letting his eyes linger only a moment longer before turning them away and getting his phone from his pocket.

"You better not be texting him Lou,"

"Teagan cmon, you know he'll make you feel a million times better. You don't need to be dealing with pain from him and pain from this ," he reasoned.

"Not right now , okay. Just be with me for a while I don't want to even think about that right now," I reasoned.

"Alright," he agreed, laying down beside and wrapping his arms around my torso as I leaned into his embrace.

"Sorry if I smell," I said.

"No, not at all. You smell like uh.. what is it ? " he said sniffing in the air. "Wet socks and uh, fruity pebbles is it?"

I sniffed with a small laugh, leaning over to grab the opened container of fruity pebbles from the side of my bed and waving it in the air. "Ding ding ding , we have a winner,"

"You're too much, Tea," He chuckled. "I love you."

My eyes widened. His did too.

"Um," I gulped and his hold on me loosened.

"I didn't mean it like, yknow."

"Yeah yeah, totally ." I shook my head, stuttering over my words.

He loves me.

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6/3/18.

Wow. What can I say you guys?? Over 65000 reads on church boy and 7k on College Boy. I remember finishing up Church Boy when it had only 12k reads and I couldn't believe it.

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