Night Changes// L.T AU

Chapter 9- Jake

-2 months later-
It's been two months since the wedding, since my heart was shattered. I'm doing pretty okay, and I think the reality has set in, but I still haven't talked to him, and I definitely have to. I need to know this is what he wants. He hasn't tried to contact me, so I'm guessing this is how he wants to leave it, but I need closure. So I decided that I needed to call him, and hopefully he'd agree to meet with me. A part of me knows he won't give us a second chance, I can't help, but think about Louis, though. I'd never want to hurt him. I grabbed my phone scrolling through my contacts. My eyes landed on his name, hubby. I click on it and change the name. My finger shakes as it hovers over the call button. I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. I convince myself that this needs to be done. I finally bring myself to press it. I bring the phone to my ear waiting for him to answer, I take a seat on my bed. There's a lump in my throat, the phone picks up and my heart drops.

"Ashley," he asks into the phone confused.

I rehearsed what I was going to say in my head a million times, but now that I hear his voice I've completely forgotten everything.

"Can we meet up," I mutter out after a few seconds.

"Okay, but where," he asks.

I thank god that he agreed.

"Our spot," I tell him, the cafe in town, I used to love going there with him, but now when I think about it, it makes me want to vomit.

I grab my pocketbook and put all my necessities into it, I then grab some sneakers and put them on. I quickly put my jacket on before grabbing my car keys.

I plop down the stairs my heart racing, am I ready, can I do this?

I get in my car driving towards the cafe, my heart is pounding out of my chest. I remind myself that this needs to be done.

I find a parking spot right in front of the place, looking at it gives me an extremely uneasy feeling. My legs shake as I walk up the steps. I feel like I could faint any second. What if Jake is here already. I step into the familiar cafe, everything is as I remembered it. I scan across the room, I spot Jake at our table in the back. Once my eyes landed on him, I started hyperventilating. I slowly walked over to the table, while trying to even my breathing out. There's two cups on the table. He stands up once I reach the table and opens his arms up. I fall into his chest and wrap my arms around him, I'm going to miss this so much. He leaves a kiss on my forehead, as he brings his arms back to his side.

"I've been thinking about calling you, but I'm not going to lie, I was scared," he admits.

"Don't be scared it's just me," I say softly taking a seat.

"I got your favorite," he says gesturing to the other cup.

"Thank you," I say smiling.

"Vanilla chai."

My hands instantly warm up when I wrap them around the styrofoam. I take a sip smiling.

"Okay, so what did you want to talk about," he starts.

"Us."

"Is there an us anymore,"

"I wish there was Jake, I really do," I tell him.

"You were my everything, we were getting married."

"Likewise, I loved you so much, and I still do, Ashley believe me."

"But we don't have a future together anymore, do we?"

"I can't just leave Jennifer, she was my first love. This isn't easy for me either, I'd never want to hurt you."